Chapter 31 --> Something New, Something Different

Safaree's POV

He sat on the beach looking out at the beautiful view of the Caribbean Sea. It was late evening and the sun was setting a half of it already hidden by the sea. He ignored the person who came and sat down next to him. By the perfume he could tell it was a female, probably that beautiful Bajan (Barbadian)  from the beach cottage. He chose a beach house up on the hill because he didnt really want to be around people, but this evening he felt like sitting on the beach so he walked down hoping he would just be left alone. He could feel her eyes on him and he was hoping she'd stop staring. She didn't though, instead she chose to try talking to him
"This is such a beautiful view" She said. He wanted continue ignoring her but was unable to stop the words that escaped his lips. "yeah" he replied. "My name's Kela"
SB: Lloyd
Kela: How come your sitting out here all by yourself?
She asked but he didnt answer. Wasnt my name enough for you he thought to himself
"Kela!Kela!" He heard someone call from up the beach  it was the voice of another female.
Kela: Hope to see you tomorrow Lloyd
She said as she got up.
SB: probably her girlfriend. you never know these days
He mumbled. When he looked back she was walking towards a woman standing a little way from her cottage. He was intrigued by her sun kissed skin, toned body, and bouncing crazy curls, he wanted to see her face. She was wearing a very cute knitted green dress with a very bright yellow bikini beneath it. He kept looking but she didnt look back. Minutes later he returned to his place. They had started setting up for a party that was happening on the beach that night, a party he wanted no part of.

He could hear the music, the laughter of the island people echoing through the trees as he sat in the living room of his temporary house. He had the phone in his hand with her number on the screen wondering if he should send the call or not. There was a knock on his door which startled him. He wasn't expecting anyone, he hadn't invited anyone so who could it be. He put the phone down and walked over to the door. He could see a female through the glass in the middle with her back to the door but he knew those curls on her head he had seen them earlier today. She turned as the door swung open a beautiful smile plastered on her face.
Kela: Hi
SB: hi
Kela: Missed you at the party so I thought I'd come see if you're ok
SB: I'm good thanks.
Kela: uhhhh ok.
They stood just looking at each other
Kela: oh I uh.. I brought drinks
She said and held up a six pack of miller light
Kela: have a drink with me... just one. we don't even have to talk if you don't want to and I'll leave you alone right after.
He ran his hand over his face
SB: ok... come in.

They were sitting quietly out back on their second beer each. They hadnt exchanged a word since they spoke at the door.
SB: what do you do?
He said and looked at her
SB: I mean you know for a living
Kela: I'm a doctor. A pediatrician to be exact.
SB: ok cool. Where do u stay at?
Kela: Well I'm living in Florida but from my accent I bet you can tell Im from Barbados
SB: yeah i could
Kela: so how come you're here alone?
SB: long story
Kela: things not going so well with you and her?
He took a sip of his beer.
SB: her who?
Kela: Nicki... I mean you use to be around her all the time now its that Jhené chick
He was quiet.
SB:... you know who I am?
Kela: Takes a lot to know someone. So no I don't know who you are but I know your face, a little about you, your name and that you were always around Nicki. It's said you too were dating but I'm not one for rumors.
He looked at her.
Kela: I can tell you this. Im not one of those little groupie chicks hanging around cause your famous and Im not fishing for information like the press. I just thought you could use some company so we don't even have to talk about you and Nicki anymore. We could talk about.. I dont know trees or something *smiles*
SB: *chuckles* Its cool we don't have to change the subject.
Kela: ok
SB: so what do you wanna know?
Kela: Its not about what I want its about what you want to talk about. You seen to have a few things on your mind.
SB: you sure you're not a shrink too?
She laughed
Kela: well I did minor in psych sooooo
He chuckled
SB: ... yeah Nic and I used to date but its been a good while since we've been apart. She's dating someone else. I was dating someone else.
Kela: so the rumors are true
SB: some of them. what's the latest?
Kela: That she's dating Jhené, that you and Shanell were together, that... yeah
He looked at her and her smile had gone. Did she know? Was it in the press and if so how did they even find out?
SB: That??
Kela: so are Nicki and Jhené together?
SB: *looks away* yeah they are and the other rumor was true too
Kela: what happened?
He didnt answer but she could see him getting angry. She got up, put her beer down and sat beside him rubbing his back
Kela: It helps to talk about it
He still didnt say anything and she just sat quietly with him for a while.
Kela: Ok how about we talk about so-
SB: she had an abortion!! I didnt even know she was pregnant, she didnt even give me a chance to change her mind. I mean if she wasnt ready then fine I understand but that was my baby too. I would have taken care of it.
Kela: I... I'm so sorry.
She said and pulled him in for a hug as she saw him tearing up.

*****

She came home exhausted from the studio and rehearsals for her mini tour that was coming up.. As soon as she got through the front door she was hit by candles that were lit making a path up the stairs, she smiled, placed her bag and her keys on the mini table at the entrance, took her jacket off and made her way up the stairs following the pathway. The candles lead to her room and into her bathroom where the tub was filled with warm water, candles around it lit and the petals of the Japanese Cherry Blossom tree afloat, there scent filing the room. She felt hands wrap around her waist and a kiss on her neck
Jhené: are you gonna get in or just stare at the tub the whole time
She asked with a giggle. Nicki smiled
Nicki: Babe you didnt need to do all this
Her voice was a bit hoarse.
Jhené: yes I did. You've been working very hard and you've been really worried about Safaree. I want you to relax a bit. Sooo, you're gonna get in and when you're done I'm gonna to give you a massage, then we're gonna eat and we can chill and watch a movie or something.
Nicki: a massage?
Jhené: mmhm. did a little research and learned a few things on my trip. By the way I cleared your schedule for tomorrow so no need to worry about getting up early
Nicki: you're joking right?
Jhené: Nope! Get in.
she said as she walked out closing the door behind her and not allowing Nicki to respond

Nicki: Thank you... I feel so much better. The massage was everything, you sure you just learnt that?
Jhené: mmhmm, just for you *kisses her neck* Ima take the dishes down to the kithchen ok
Nicki: mmhm
She said in a sleepy voice. When Jhené got back Nicki had already fallen asleep. She got in and pulled the covers up over them.

9:45 am Jhené was already up and down in the kitchen looking after breakfast. Nicki groaned and as her phone vibrated on the bedside table, she reached around grabbing it and with eyes still closed she answered. Her eyes bucked when his voice boomed through the speakers
Nicki: SAFAREE?!!!

Jhené was on a phone call in the kitchen, a cup of tea next to her on the counter when Nicki walked in
Jhené: Crystal, forward that email to me and I'll get back to you as soon as I check it.... Good Morning
Nicki: morning
Jhené: would you like some tea?
Nicki: sure
She walked over and got a cup from the cupboard
Jhené: was really expecting you to be in a better mood. What's on your mind?
Nicki:.... he called
Jhené: he?
Nicki: Safaree, he just called me
she said looking over at her.
Jhené:  is he ok? where is he?
Nicki: says he's ok, he didnt really sound it after we spoke for a bit. He asked me not to tell anyone where he is
Jhené: I can respect that.... well is he coming back?
Nicki: he wouldnt say. Just asked me to tell his mom and everyone else that he's ok then he said he had to go
Jhené: oh... well at least he called now we know he's ok. Maybe he  just needs some more time
she said as she sat down by Nicki
Nicki: yeah maybe
She took a sip of her tea

*****
They sat talking and laughing hard, enjoying each other's company as the rain came down
SB: So how come you're single? I mean that's very rare when you come across gorgeous women these days
Kela: I... need a break from.. the lies, the cheating, I need some me time. Some time to take care of mine. Need time to discover who I am again and then I can go from there. I wanna meet some great people, build a few great friendships then later I can  worry about dating again.
SB: what did he do?
Kela: cheated. on more than one occasions, lied about it and walked out on us
SB: us?
Kela: my daughter and I
SB: how old is she?
Kela: a year and 2 months. he left when she was just 5 weeks
SB: wow... well for the record you deserve better than a nigga that would walk out on his kid.
She smiled.
SB: she the one I saw someone holding as you walked up the other day?
Kela: yes.. that's my sugar ball *giggles*
SB: I'd like to meet her
She looked at him
SB: if that's ok with you
Kela: ummm yes sure its fine with me.

*later that eve*
The rain had stopped and he walked her back to her room.
SB: I really had a great day thanks to you.
Kela: hey it was nothing... you're a great guy. haven't been able to talk to a guy lately without him tryna get with me.
SB: pigs... but thank you.
Kela: *smiles* k lets go in see if Tarah is still awake
SB: Tarah?
Kela: Its short for Kaetarah. That's my middle name
SB: I like it. It's beautiful.
He said as they walked through the doors.

**

SB: how are you?

Kela: tired just got in like half an hour ago and Tarah is fussy.. How come you're calling from a private number?

SB: new phone... maybe she wants to go out a bit. you know how we use to walk her down by the beach. Maybe if you just take her for a drive or something

Kela: well mommy cant handle that right now

SB: that's too bad then. Wonder if she wants just me and her to go

Kela: *giggles* mmm that'd be sweet but she's too young to be going out with older men

SB: *laughs* aye we'd just be going out for a snack but anyway guess that means mommy's coming too? I really think she could use a nice drive for a couple blocks and maybe some icecream

Kela: we would love that but you're not here to take us anyway soooo...

SB: open the door

Kela: Safaree dont play

SB: open the door

Kela: we all know you're not in Miami... are you?

SB: walking back to my car

Kela: aahhh

she screamed in excitement as she ran to the door with the baby on her hip. She swung it open and halfway down the driveway he turned around 

SB: oh? after you done had a nigga standing out here

Kela: I didnt... you didnt tell me ... ugh!! *laughs* I left you in Jamaica 3 weeks ago dude

SB: yeah and I did some thinking, decided Miami may just be the place to start over so I got to work

He  said taking the baby who was stretching for him

Kela: you're moving here?

SB: I moved here abooooout day before yesterday *smiles*. What you say coonette, you think its cool uncle moved closer to you?

Kela: you'ere serious, arent you?

SB: wait.. arent we suppose to be going out 

Kela: you're freaking serious

SB: *covers Tarah's ears* dnt curse... *looks at baby* guess we're leaving mommy

He said walking towards the car, then he stopped

SB: car seat munchkin.... Is it in your car?

he asked her

Kela: I'll get it

she said with a big smile still not able to grasp the fact that he really moved to Miami.

****

Candi: Nic you have a package

Nicki: just sign for it 

she shouted from upstairs. Candi closed the door and inspected the brown box. Name but no return address just a stamp letting her know it was coming from Florida. She walked into Nicki's room box in hand and a puzzled look on her face

Candi: Kela Harrison... Who's that?

Nicki: NO clue! return address?

Candi: Nope but it's from Florida

Nicki: Florida??

Candi: yeah, that's what I thought. It's kinda heavy. Opening?

Nicki: We dont even know who its from or have an idea of what's in there

Candi shook the box

Candi: well it's not a bomb

Nicki: -___- no. Bring it back downstairs I'll have security open it when I''m ready

Candi: seriou--

Nicki: Candice please!

****

Shanell: How much longer do I need to stay in this hospital? I have work to get done 

She said through gritted teeth with her fingers tangled in her hair

Wanita: work is the reason you in here. you've been doing too much and I keep telling you to slow down.

Shanell: D dont start!

Wanita: dont start what sis? All I ever do is tell you the truth

Shanell: why does every conversation we have have to come down to this?

Wanita: because he needs to know. you could have lost the babies. All the stressing and overworking helped cause that.. Now you're back here because your cervix was opening. you're not even near due. if he was here-

Shanell: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW?!!!

Wanita: yes!!!!!!!!!!! you know things would be different. 

Shanell: yeah well he's not

Wanita: but that's all on you....

Shanell wiped at the tears on her cheek..

tbc 

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#TimeMachine3

She was fighting the tears as she drove home. Wayne had told he he wanted no part in telling Safaree about RiRi but that she needed to do it right away. He also told her that if she wanted to find where Safaree in she needed to go to Nicki and she new damn well that was not going to go down well.

When she got home RiRi was a sleep in her booster seat. She sighed and wiped at the tears that had finally made their escape and ran down her cheeks. As she got inside she used her foot to close the door., shifted Ri to her left hand and set the alarm then made her way up the stairs. She made it to her room and put Ri in the middle of the bed before getting her phone from her bag, then her purse as she searched for the card he had written Nicki's number on for her. She typed the first two number and she couldnt type anymore. Her hands began shaking, her heart racing, she dropped the phone on the bed and her face fell into her palms. She knew she had made the biggest and stupidest mistake of her life by leaving him and telling him she had an abortion. Now she had to tell him he has a five year old daughter. She took a deep breath and turned onto her back. She took the phone up and dialed the number putting the phone to her ear as it rang, There was an answer at the third ring
Nicki: hello... hello
she sounded like she had just woken up from a nap,
Nicki: *sucks teeth* look I aint got the time for games
she said before hanging up. The words wouldnt come out when Shanell tried to respond and she couldnt find the courage to call back.

It was a rainy morning and she stood by the stove making pancakes as Ri sat sipping warm milk at the table. Her phone rang and Ri was quick to answer
RiRi: hello, good morning
she said with a big smile as if the person on the other end could see her
Nicki: hello... who is this?
RiRi: who is this ??
RiRi asked with a giggle. Shanell flipped the pancakes as she looked at Ri suspiciously. Her aunt or grandma usually did that when they called and she answered so she thought it was one of them
Nicki: Im Nicki.. What's your name?
RiRi: Aaria Shae-Elle Samuels
The fact that she just told someone her full name meant that wasnt her grandma or aunt so Shanell quickly turned the stove off and rushed around the counter
Shanell: RiRi who is that? *grabs phone*
RiRi: Nicki
She responded getting ready to cry because of the way her mom had spoken to her and grabbed the phone from her hands.
Shanell: *sigh* mommy's sorry pumpkin.. its just you know I dont like you telling strangers your full name.
She hugged her all this time not realizing she hadnt ended the call. Nicki was on the other end listening. She heard the voice and there was something familiar about it so she hung up and went to check the number out.

1:30 pm exactly when she received the text message from Nicki
"I would strongly suggest you answer the phone when you see me calling you back"
she ran her hand  through her hair. She was sitting watching ri play in the tub. She had asked for some extra time to play with her bath toys.
Shanell: 10 more minutes Aaria
she shook her head and the phone began to ring
Shanell: hello
Nicki: that lil girl had better be your niece and if she's not it BETTER be a damn coincidence that her last name is Samuels. How old is she?? START TALKING!
Shanell: she's... not my niece and she's 5 years old....

OOOHHHHH OOOHHHHH OHHH lmaooooooooooooo Shiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!

#TimeMachine2

She looked back at her baby girl pouting in the back seat pouting. "what's wrong RiRi?" she didnt respond she kept glancing at her in the rear view mirror until they got to the house. When they got inside Aaria went straight for the stairs and went up to her room. She couldnt understand. She was fine this morning before she went to daycare. Her mom would sent her to day care on days she had to go to the studio. She put her bags down and went up to check on her. She was sitting by her window hugging her favorite doll. She walked over and sat by her in her little chair. "Aaria what's wrong?" She didnt answer? "baby you have to tell mommy so she can fix it" "mommy do you love me?" "of course mommy loves you. you mean the world to me" "does my daddy love me too?" She was shocked. Where was this coming from all of a sudden. "of course he does baby he loves you to death" "where is my daddy? how come he doesnt live with us?" She didnt even know what to say for the first time her daughter had asked her questions and left her speechless. How could she tell her little girl that her father doesnt know she exists. " baby you never asked about daddy before did something happen?" "Asia says my daddy dont live with us cause I'm ugly and he doesnt love me"  She began to sniff as a tear ran down her little cheek " *sigh* baby you know that's not true. You are beautiful inside and out. I tell you that everyday and your dad not living with us doesnt mean that he doesnt love you" it just means mommy was fucking stupid and fucked it all up when she found out she was pregnant she thought "can I go see my daddy?" fuck why the fuck now I swear I could strangle that little bitch at that daycare "tell you what. I'll call and speak with him ok" "ok" she said as she wiped at her face. Her mom picked her up and stood holding her as she looked out the window.

She was at the studio waiting on Wayne to come by to see her Aaria was with her sitting inside playing a Dora game on her ipad. She had told him she wanted to speak to him about something but not what. She told RiRi she would be back in a few and went out front to get some fresh air. As soon as she walked out the door there was Wayne's car driving in. Her palms were sweating. He walked over and hugged her "why do you like so scared?" She looked away "I have to tell you something and I'm not sure... how you're gonna react" "It's that serious?" "More serious than you think" "how about we go inside then?"

"umm no Can we just talk out here please" "ok" she took a deep breath and closed her eyes "Ima just come out and say it" "ok when-" "I have a daughter she's inside, the time I told you i needed away was because i was pregnant I know I should have told you but I couldnt I didnt want her father finding out" he stood there in shock "what?" "Wayne just... come on" she lead him inside and to where RiRi was sat. Wayne looked at Aaria, back at her mom then at RiRi again "are you fucking kidding me right now?" "mommy he said a curse word" Aaria said staring Wayne in the face with a pout. "wait... that's really your kid?" "Im sorry i didnt tell you" "nah man.. how you do me like that? she's like 5" "Im four nd a half" Aaria blurted out then went back to her game. "man i cant even believe this man. who else knows" "my mom, my sister, owner of her daycare" Wayne shook his head "so why now? why'd have you just decided to tell me?" "she's asked about her dad I dont know what to do" "what does that have to do with me?" he asked pointing at himself with both hands. "I  have no contact with him I need your help" "how would I have contact with her father?" she dead faced him "wait... you said you took a break because you were pregnant and..." his eyes got wide and he looked at Aaria again and shook his head "I told him I had a you know what when he found out" she said not wanting o say abortion infront of her daughter. She knew the questions wouldnt end when they got home. Wayne took a seat and pulled answered his phone that was ringing. It was his daughter asking if the driver could take her to get something to eat he told her to come get the money then hung up. "was that Reginae?" "yeah she going to get food" "who's going with her?" " bodyguard and the driver why?" "I'd send RiRi" just then Nae walked in with a big smile "Hi aunty" she said hugging Shanell "hey baby" "awe who's baby?" she asked looking at Aaria who sat pouting cause she was hugging her mom "what are you going to get to eat?" her dad asked changing the subject "wings, some cheesy fries and orange juice. so who's baby" "do you wanna take her with you you can just get her something to eat too" Shanell asked "sure. if she'll come" "RiRi do you wanna go get something to eat?" she shook her head yes. "are you gonna come too?" Ri asked "No im gonna stay with uncle Wayne and talk" she poked her dimple as she seemed to be thinking about it "I have to go with her?" she asked pointing at Reginae "yes baby. its ok if you dont want to though" "no its otay" When they were out the door Wayne went right back to their convo "see this the problem with ya'll I never know about shit till it needs fixing. How do you propose you tell Safaree about this lil girl after you done told him you had an abortion?" she didnt know what to say./

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Chapter 30 --> Get Away

As she opened the front door Lauren stepped past her.
Lauren: what the fuck Nicki?
Nicki: as you can see my door is still open so if you're coming in here with that bullshit about why I shouldn't have told Safaree you can leave. I've heard enough of it.
Lauren: Nicki come on
Nicki: Laur he deserved to know
Lauren: and I'm not arguing with you on that. I wanted to tell him myself but I didnt cause it wasnt my place it wasnt for me to do.
Nicki slammed th front door and head for the stairs
Lauren: I got a call today from his sister. Shanell had the abortion.
She stopped in her place on the stairs. She truly felt hurt for him. She knew that's something that will rip him apart and she just stood there for a while before she took another step. Lauren called to her and she stopped again
Nicki: what Laur?
Lauren: Go see him. Talk to him. he needs... a friend.
Nicki: so why don't you go see him
Lauren: you know he's not gonna want to see me.
Nicki: Ha! and you think he's gonna want to see me?!
Lauren: will you at least try
She asked looking up at her best-friend.
Nicki: lock the door on your way out
She responded and turned continuing up the stairs. Lauren sighed as she turned to leave.

When Jhené got home Nicki in the living room writing. She had her headphones over her ear listening to a beat as she wrote in her notebook. She closed the door, put her bag by the stairs and walked over to her. She gave her a kiss on the forehead
Jhené: hey baby
She said then head for the kitchen. Nicki had totally ignored her but she knew that's how she was when she was writing. It wasnt until after she had ate showered and was laying in bed that she actual felt like something was wrong she walked down to the living room to where she was sitting before but she was no longer there. She walked around looking for her but didnt find her anywhere. She was in the kitchen and notice the glass doors that lead out to the back were open. She walked out and noticed her sitting on one of the lounge chairs out by the pool. She walked out to her with her arms crossed. Nicki had her eyes closed
Jhené: are you ok?
Nicki: yeah I'm good
Jhené: you gonna come inside
Nicki: yea in a bit
Jhené rolled her eyes and went back inside. She knew her behavior had to do with this whole Safaree Shanell issue.

Nicki came to bed about an hour after Jhené had spoken to her downstairs. She walked in layed down and turned  her back to Jhené.
Jhené: You know Im getting tired of you moping around about him
Nicki: what??
She said turning around
Nicki: Im not moping over Safaree!
Jhené: then what the fuck do you call it?!
She yelled. She looked away and took a deep breath
Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!
She said hitting the bed as her tears ran down her cheek. After crying for what seemed like over an hour she pulled her self together. She got up went to the bathroom and washed her face. She pat her face dry and stood looking at her self in the mirror. She took a deep breath  then walked out the bathroom to go find Jhené.
When she got to the guest bedroom the overhead light was off and she had candles lit around the room. Vanilla scented candles. Jhené was on her back at the foot of the bed blowing smoke from her mouth, a lit cigar in her hand hanging off the bed above an ash tray that was placed on the floor. Nicki walked over and took the cigar from between her fingers then crushed it in the ash tray. She straddled her hips and pinned her hands above her head Jhené turned her head to the side.
Nicki: you don't smoke... look at me
she said with a hoarse voice. Jhené sighed then turned to look up at her
Nicki: I'm over him. I see him as a friend nothing more ok
She didnt respond
Nicki: ok?
Jhené: ok
Nicki: It's just... *sigh* with everything that happened with my mom I just... Im tired. I want everything to be ok.
She said tearing up again
Nicki: Yeah I havnt been ok with Safaree being with Shanell but only because he's my best friend and I do care about him. I dont think she's th right girl for him.
Jhené: but baby that's not your decision to make. He has to be able to choose who he wants to be with.
Nicki: I know that.... The fact that she found out she was pregnant and aborted his baby just makes it all worst. I just, I know he's hurting.
Jhené: and Im not saying you can't care or feel for him in that aspect but not to the point where I feel like Im just going through my day with you here but not really here.
Nicki: I really am sorry baby. Promise I'll change my attitude.
She said as she bent and kissed her.
Nicki: I love you
She said in a soft voice
Jhené: I love you too you know that
Nicki: but...
Jhené: but nothing.
Nicki: you still dont think I'm being completely honest about my feelings...
Jhené just looked at her
Nicki: baby I dont play games when it comes to my feeling. Yes I love Safaree, he's  my best friend always will be. I told you that before, but that's it. Who's arms do I go to bed in at nights? Who's arms do I wake up in in the mornings? Who is it that I can't sleep without? I only want you. Just you.
Jhené ran her finger across Nicki's lips and she kissed them. She then pulled her in for a kiss. They stayed cuddled with each other for the whole night. Jhené didn't close her eyes one bit. She stayed watching Nicki sleep as she stroked her hair.

****

Neeqa: Safaree
Shaneeqa called outside his bedroom door but he didnt answer. it had been a week and he hadnt come out, not even to eat and if he did eat it was when she wasnt around.
Neeqa: Safaree!! *sigh* you can't stay in there forever
She said again before walking off. She had to get to work . Later when she got home his door was open but he wasnt home. She tried his phone but got his voice mail. She tried Lauren, Candi all the Vaks but no one had seen him. She tried their mom but she hadnt seen him either. She tried Nicki but she didnt answer her phone so she left a message. Later she got a text back to let her know she hadnt seen him. She went through stuff in his room for a clue as to where he could have gone but there was nothing. His car keys were on the bedside table but his clothes, shoes and jewellery were gone. She tried his phone one more time but it still went straight to voice mail. He had left without telling her a word.

****

Candi: hey girlie I missed you.
She said as she hugged Nicki. They meeting up to have lunch then head back to Nicki's place.
Nicki: I missed you more
Candi: so where'd you say wifey had to go?
Nicki: Italy with her dad for some business *sad face*
Candi: awwwee for how long
Nicki: a whole fucking week. Ima go crazy! Anyway enough about me. What's been going on with you? How'd you sort out th whole Tay and JB issue? Where is she by the way?
Candi: sorting out school stuff. JB and I are just fine. He... asked me to choose. It was either him or Tay, which just wasnt fair but I didnt wanna lose him so...
Nicki: So you and Tay broke up?
Candi: as far as he knows we are but-
Nicki: plainly put you never broke iit off with her and you're still fucking her behind his back
Candi: *covers face* i know its wrong I just can't stop. Im fucking addicted to her
Nicki: oh My g *laughs* What if he finds out?
Candi: He wont. Just make sure you dont say nothing. Now have you heard from Safaree?
Nicki: How you just gon change th subject? *shakes head* No I haven't. Have you?
Candi: no. I tried calling him, his phone doesnt work anymore. He changed the number or something.
Nicki: oh?... and no one's seen him still? Not even the Vaks?
Candi: not even his mother. Yo Shanell was so wrong for what she did though, on so many levels.
Nicki: I dont even wanna talk about her righth now to be quite fucking honest.
She took a sip of her pineapple juice and ate the last bit from her plate.
Candi: I just hope he doesnt go do anything stupid we all know his brain doesnt function the right way when he's upset.

When they got back to the house it was after four she went to change into something more comfy, grabbed her mac book and plopped down on the couch, Candi had gone to shower. She was just about to log in to twitter when she got a skype call from Jhené she was all smiles.
Nicki: arent youo suppose to be sleeping right now?
Jhené: oh so u dont wanna talk to me
Nicki: *giggles* of course I do baby
Jhené: how was ur day?
Nicki: * licks lips* was good.*licks lips again*
Jhené: *smiles* You miss me
Nicki: like you cant fucking imagine
She said biting her bottom lip
Jhené: I miss you too. Couldnt concentrate in my meeting today cause all i could think about was you.
Nicki: awe *smiles*
Jhené: It's so beautiful out here. I need to come back. Just me and you though
Nicki: Yaay I'd love that.
Jhené: *giggles* you home alone?
Nicki: Candi is here. she's upstairs though
Jhené: ok I want u to go up to ur room, lock the door and call me back.
Nicki: *laughs* ok freak

Candi was in the kitchen making a snack when Nicki walked in smiling
Candi: Oh yall naaaaaaaaaasty
Nicki burst into her little obnoxious laugh
Nicki: say that one mo time see if i dont put you out. why would you even be at my door listening?
Candi: Im nosy
She said and laughed as she bit into her sandwich
Candi: k what we gon do for the night?
she said while chewing
Nicki: watch scary movies
Candi: ha! you not bout to sleep beside me tonight! talkin bout watch scary movies
Nicki: this my house I sleep where I wanna!
She responded popping her on the forehead before running out the kitchen.

****
He stood looking out at his view.

He had no choice he needed to get away. he needed space, needed to think. What had he done to her for her to do something so cruel and unjust to him. He had done nothing but love her for the short period they were together. How could she abort his baby? He sat as his eyes began to get blurry with tears again and he closed them letting them run down his cheeks. She had killed something in him and as he sat thinking about what she had done he began to break down again.

Snip! Snip!

Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!

#TimeMachine1

Aaria

"Riri Grandma is going to be mad at me for those earrings" "they were big *smiles*" "yes they were" "I love my new pictures mommy" "do you wanna get them put in your room?" "yeeeeeeesss! and I wanna give everybody one" "remember we can only give a few people" "otay. Mommy may I have pizza for dinner?" "okay baby". They stopped by pizza hut and her mom bought her a small pizza with all the toppings she wanted; extra cheese, pineapples and pepperoni. Her mom took the first slice and she ate one while her mom drove. She was careful not to make a mess. They stopped at the supermarket so she could get snacks for Riri and regular grocery for the house. She put her shades and hat on before getting out and letting riri out from the back. Riri pulled the big bottle of laundry detergent to the cart "you're getting so strong" "yeah, look mommy I have muscles" "*gigggles* yes you do baby" "ok let's go get you cereal and we are ready to go".

By the time they got home Riri had three slices of pizza and a small bottle of Dasani and had fallen asleep in her booster seat. Her mom took her out first and brought her to the master bedroom then went back down to get the groceries from the car. When she was done she made sure all the doors were locked then went upstairs. She stripped Riri down to underwear, got her rag and cleaned up her face and hands and put on one of her Nicki t-shirts. She then changed into a T-shirt herself and climbed into bed pulling her baby girl close. "Is this what I almost gave up?" she asked just before she too fell asleep.

Chapter 29 --> How To Break A Man

Kept y'all waiting forever for this chapter I know y'all are gonna tell me is short -__-. Been REALLY busy sorry. I love y'all and I do hope you enjoy my short chapter. Excuse any misspellings or other typo's. I'm tired.

Nicki tried calling her again and as the phone rang Jhené looked at the screen and put it back down. Terrence's eyes met hers in the mirror
Terrence: J... just answer her
She sighed and caught the phone before it stopped ringing.
Jhené: yeah
Nicki: where are you?
Jhené: did you eat?
Nicki: no. where are you?
Jhené: baby you need to eat.
Nicki: you need to tell me where you are
Jhené: T's room getting my hair done
She heard Nicki sigh
Nicki: oh...
Jhené: I'll be done in a few
Nicki: ok

When Terrence finished her hair she thanked him and took her time getting back to the suite she shared with Nicki. As she opened the door she saw her standing by the window talking on the phone. She turned around to her as she closed the door and ended the call. Nicki didn't say word to her.
Jhené: did you need me for something?
She didnt answer.
Jhené: so it's ok to speak to me over the phone but you can't speak to me face to face? *sigh* fine text or call me when you're ready to say what's on your mind.
Nicki still didnt say anything to her until she was in the car on the way to rehearsal.
Nicki: did she try to hurt you in anyway?
She asked while looking out the window.
Jhené: no babe like I said before
Nicki: did she try to kiss you?
Jhené: *sigh* no
Nicki: did you feel anything at all for her while you were there?
Jhené: hell no! I didn't!
Nicki looked at her
Nicki: you could have told me you were going to see her
Jhené: like you could have told me you have a private investigator on her. You would not have wanted me to go or you would have wanted me to come with me. We both know how that would've turned out.
Nicki rolled her eyes
Nicki: why did you leave before I woke up?
Jhené: I didnt wanna wake you, you need the rest and I knew Terrence would be busy later.
She turned her head away looking through the window. They were almost there.
Jhené: I feel like it's more to this behavior and you're not telling me but I'm here when you're ready to talk.
She said as the car came to a stop.

The crowd was live she seemed to have a lot of fun on stage but as soon as she got off it was back to her bad mood. She had told Terrence and Lauren to make sure everything was packed to go before her set knowing she'd want to leave immediately after the show. So they went ahead of her as they walked back to her dressing room and got the bags taking them to the cars. Her body guards stood by the back exit. She had stopped in the hallway to take her heels off when she heard his voice say her name
SB: Nicki
She turned around
SB: may I speak to you for a minute
Nicki: *folds arms* go ahead.
SB: in private? please?
She looked over at Jhené who bent and took her shoes up and head for the dressing room door she came back out with hers and Nicki's bags and dropped her hello kitty slippers for her to put on.
Jhené: I'll be in the car.
Nicki: Just wait out here. *takes her bag* I'ma change when I'm done.
She opened the dressing room door and dropped her bag on the couch as he closed the door. Jhené want down to stand by the exit so she wouldn't hear what they were talking about. She was scared she'd hear something that would leave her hurting.
SB: you were great up there
Nicki: Thanks
SB: How have you been?
Nicki: fine Safaree. Just perfect. You?
SB: I'm good. Been better... Nic there's something I need to speak to you about?
Nicki: what's that? oh.... wait... If you're gonna tell me you're fucking Shanell I already know just a heads up so you dont waste you're time. Annnnd if you were thinking I was gonna care, I DONT.
SB: should have known Lauren would tell you.
Nicki: Even though she did say it too me I had already known so don't go blaming her. Is that all? cause I need to change.
SB: I didn't even come to... you know what, just forget it *shakes head* Bye Nicki
Nicki: Bye... Oh and congrats daddy.
He stopped in the doorway and turned looking at her
SB: What did you just say?
Nicki: Bye Safaree
SB: No be straight with me Onika... Are you pregnant?
Nicki: Safaree leave or I'm calling security
SB: Nic??
Nicki: I SAID LEAVE!!
He shook his head looking at her at he walked backwards out the door. He looked at Jhené chest heaving before he walked out.

****
Jhené walked out the bathroom into the bedroom and saw her across the bottom of the bed staring at the ceiling. She walked over and crawled between her legs then kissed her.
Jhené: you ready to tell me what's really going on?
Nicki took a deep breath and closed her eyes before speaking
Nicki: she's pregnant
she said opening her eyes again and looking up at Jhené
Jhené: who's pregnant?
Nicki: Shanell, the girl he was with at the show tonight
Jhené: for him?
Nicki: yup
she said looking away
Jhené: is that what he wanted to talk to you about?
Nicki: No. He doesnt know she is and she's aborting it.
Jhené: What?!!

(same time)

He had been sitting on the couch staring at the blank tv since they got back to her place. She walked out the bedroom clad in her robe and went to sit by him.
Shanell: *pouts* are you ok babe?
She asked rubbing his back in small circles
SB: She's pregnant
Shanell froze.
SB: she's pregnant and she didnt tell me
He ran his hand over his face and Shanell slowly pulled her hand away from him. Her mind was going a mile a minute. She had feared losing him back to her before but now she was absolutely terrified. He was still speaking to her but she heard nothing of what he said. All she could think about was that fact that not only was she carrying his child but so was Nicki. His voice calling her pulled her from her thoughts.
SB: baby are you ok?
All she did was shake her head yes slowly without even looking over at him.
SB: I'm gonna go out for a little bit ok
Shanell: ok
She managed to get out. He kissed her forehead and ran his fingers over her cheek before he left. He knew Nicki wouldn't see him again so he needed to go see his sister.

**
They were getting dressed to go see Mama Carol when Nicki's phone rang. She answered without looking at the caller ID
Nicki: hello
Neeqa: we need to talk
Nicki: what about?
Neeqa: you'll find out when I get up to your suite.
She said and hung up. Nicki just put the phone back down and continued getting dressed. A good few minutes later she was putting a few things in her bag when Jhené walked back in.
Jhené: you have a visitor
She said with a hint of attitude and Neeqa rolled her eyes and walked past her over to Nicki;
Neeqa: when were you gonna tell him? Is that the reason you've been dressing this way lately? loose fitting tops, performing in flats? and oh what a glow your skin has.
Nicki: what are you talking about?
Neeqa: just stop!! You know exactly what I'm talking about Nicki. What you expect him to just stand aside, let you do whatever you please like this isnt his child growing inside of you.
Jhené's eyed Nicki with curiosity as she burst out laughing
Nicki: girl you really need to leave. If that is seriously what you came here to get on my case about. You need to go.
She said while laughing
Neeqa: oh it's a joke to you
Nicki: you fucking right it's a joke. That's why I'm laughing.
Shaneeqa just shook her head at her then turned and left. When she was out the door Jhené came back nd stood in the doorway arms folded across her chest looking at her sitting on the bed
Jhené: you told him you're pregnant?
She looked around at Jhené
Nicki: no... he assumed
Jhené: Why didnt you correct him?
Nicki: Idk.. I wasnt thinking.
Jhené: You weren't thinking... *chuckles* ok Onika. Are you ready to go?
She said  a hint of anger in her voice
Nicki: I'm sor-
Jhené: Let's just go.. please
She said taking her bag up and heading for the door.

**
They were walking up the driveway when the front door flew open and Macaiah came running out.
Nicki: Whoa!! Hey lambchop!! i missed you!! *big smile*
Caiah:" I missed you too sis!
He kissed her cheek then pulled away and went to hug Jhené
Nicki: You cutting my hugs short now boy
Caiah: Nic you aren't the only one I have to hug
Nicki: Jhen don't want your hugs
Caiah: dead at you thinking you're the only one she loves
Nicki: Oh... Oop! Well excuse me. Where's mama at?
They all laughed
Caiah: making lunch
He said as they walked in the front door.
Nicki: ooh spaghetti I bet
She said running off to the kitchen
Caiah: Aint you feeding her?
He asked Jhené
Jhené: of course I am. But you know how you're sister is
Caiah: wait.. whoa!! pauz!! Double pauz!! never mind forget I even asked
he said walking towards the kitchen leaving  her. Jhené's jaw dropped as she realized what he was getting at.  When they got to the kitchen Nicki was standing by the sink talking to her mom. She stopped talking  as soon as Jhené walked in
Jhené: Mrs Maraj *smiles*
Carol: hello, how have you been?
Jhené: I've been good. You?
Carol: I've been better
Nicki eyed her mother. Carol smiled at Jhené
Carol: are you ladies going to eat?
Nicki: yes mom. you hungry babe?
She asked Jhené and Carol's facial expression changed as the words left Nicki's lips.
Jhené: Not really but I'll have some of her famous spaghetti.
Nicki: It tastes just like mine
Jhené: I doubt it! She taught you! *giggles*
Carol: That's right and yours will never taste better than mine ms thing.
She said with a little giggle as she made them plates. Caiah sat between the too at the table eating. While they  were eating the doorbell rang and Carol left them to go see who it was. It was when they were finishing up the dishes that Carol walked back in and asked to speak with Nicki. Jhené stayed with Caiah as she walked out behind her mother to the living room. Nicki froze when she walked in and  saw Safaree sitting on her mother's couch.
Carol: Is there something you want to tell me Onika?
Nicki: a-about what?
She asked and stuttered as her eyes shifted from Safaree's to her mom's. Carol folded her arms and Nicki took a deep breath.
Nicki: whatever he told you, It's a lie
She looked at him a rolled her eyes
Carol: and why would he just blatantly come here to lie to me Nicki?
Nicki: because he wants attention *sucks teeth*. Safaree why are you here?
Carol: I know you did not just hiss at me
Nicki: no ma I didn't
She said unfolding her arms.
Carol: are you pregnant?
She didnt respond. Carol walked over to her and stood looking into her eyes
Carol: are you pregnant?
Nicki: how old am I 16?
Carol: dont get smart with me answer the question.
Nicki: I'm not pregnant. You of all people would have known if I was
Carol: or maybe I wouldnt cause lately I've been finding hard to see the daughter I raised.
Nicki: mom...
Carol turned around to Safaree and he stood up
SB: she's lying
he said in a soft but angry voice
Nicki: the fuck!!
Carol spun around and faced her daughter
Nicki: No Im sorry mom but how's he just gonna stand there and say that?
SB: Because you are!! You told me!! You know better than to play with me about something like this Nicki!! Gaahh!!! why are you doing this?! What you think you're gonna keep me away from my kid so you can raise him with Jhené?!
Nicki: FIRST OF ALL I DIDNT TELL YOU SHIT!! YOU ASSUMED!!! SECONDLY, I'M NOT FUCKING PREGNANT SAFAREE!!!
SB: JUST STOP LYING!!!
She bit her lip to stop herself from telling him the paragraph of bad words she wanted to throw his way and took a deep breath.
Nicki: For the last.. fucking.. time. I'm NOT pregnant.
SB: you...
Nicki: Shanell is.
A deathly silence fell over the room. Jhené had heard the commotion and walked in to see what was going on, Caiah was right behind her. Nicki turned towards the kitchen doorway
Nicki: we're leaving.
She walked over to her little brother, hugged and kissed him. She walked over to her mom
Nicki: I'm sorry for all of this I really am and I'm sorry that you dont see who you wanna see in me anymore when really nothings changed but the gender of the person that I love.
She said tearing up. She hugged her mom then walked out the front door.
Carol: Onika...
She called softly but said no more as her daughter disappeared out the door.
Jhené: I'm sorry. It was great seeing you again.
She gave Carol a hug and left. Safaree still hadn't said another word or stopped looking at the wall
Carol: are you ok?
She asked but he didnt hear her.

****
He couldn't face her, so he stayed away for a few weeks or what seemed like a few weeks. He didnt come out unless it was to eat he didnt go anywhere he didnt speak to anyone except Shaneeqa and when he did, it was no more than 2 or 3 words a day. he didnt call Shanell, didnt text her. All this time, she'd been hiding something this important from him. When he finally decided to see her, he got to her place and she wasnt there. He called her phone but got no answered so he decided to sit in his car and wait for her to come back. He waited until he fell sleep. When he woke up it was after 6 the next morning. Her car still wasnt in the driveway and he reached onto the passenger seat for his phone to call her number a few more times. It was on the sixth call and second ring that he got answer from a very sleepy voice.
D: hello
SB: hello
D: how may I help you
SB: Shanell?
D: no. she's sleeping. can i take a message?
SB: just tell her to call Safaree
D: sure
She said and hung up. He took a deep breath, took his hat off and ran his hand over his head. All day he waited for her phone call and got none. 9:30pm and he was sitting in the living room staring at his phone that sat on the coffee table. When he couldn't wait anymore he grabbed it and dialed her number. She asnwered on the fourth ring
Shanell: what do you want?
SB: Is that how you great the father of your unborn child? Where are you?
She fell silent over the phone
SB: you didnt think that it was important enough to tell me you were pregnant?
She still didnt answer
SB: ANSWER ME!!
He yelled and he heard her gasp.
SB: Where are you?
Shanell: You dont need me Safaree you have her and her baby.
He sighed
SB: She's not pregnant... Look where are you I need to see you.
Shanell: Faree I cant... It's been a month and two days since I've heard from you, seen you. All this time you were worried about her. You would never choose me over her. I had to make choices that were best suitable for me and my career.
SB: What kinda choices Shanell? Not telling me you are carrying my child? Running off to stay with your sister?
Shanell: was... carrying your child.
SB: Wh-what the Fuck did you just say?!
Shanell: I'm sorry Faree.
She said before she hung up.
SB: NO!! NO!
He yelled over and over again as he smashed the glass on the coffee table and threw his phone at the wall. His chest tightened as he fell to his knees crying.

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Snippet

The crowd was live she seemed to have a lot of fun on stage but as soon as she got off it was back to her bad mood. She had told Terrence and Lauren to make sure everything was packed to go before her set knowing she'd want to leave immediately after the show. So they went ahead of her as they walked back to her dressing room and got the bags taking them to the cars. Her body guards stood by the back exit. She had stopped in the hallway to take her heels off when she heard his voice say her name
SB: Nicki
She turned around
SB: may I speak to you for a minute
Nicki: *folds arms* go ahead.
SB: in private? please?
She looked over at Jhené who bent and took her shoes up and head for the dressing room door she came back out with hers and Nicki's bags and dropped her hello kitty slippers for her to put on.
Jhené: I'll be in the car.
Nicki: Just wait out here. *takes her bag* I'ma change when I'm done.
She opened the dressing room door and dropped her bag on the couch as he closed the door. Jhené went down to stand by the exit so she wouldn't hear what they were talking about. She was scared she'd hear something that would leave her hurting.
SB: you were great up there
Nicki: Thanks
SB: How have you been?
Nicki: fine Safaree. Just perfect. You?
SB: I'm good. Been better... Nic there's something I need to speak to you about?
Nicki: what's that? oh.... wait... If you're gonna tell me you're fucking Shanell I already know just a heads up so you dont waste you're time. Annnnd if you were thinking I was gonna care, I DONT.
SB: should have known Lauren would tell you.
Nicki: Even though she did say it to me I had already known so don't go blaming her. Is that all? cause I need to change.
SB: I didn't even come to... you know what, just forget it *shakes head* Bye Nicki
Nicki: Bye... Oh and congrats daddy.
He stopped in the doorway and turned looking at her
SB: What did you just say?
Nicki: Bye Safaree

Working On It

Ok so guys I'm trying to get this post done, but I CAN'T FOCUS FOR THE LIFE OF ME. Cause such person has me all in my feelings. ugh!! But let's see how tonight goes. Sorry to have yall waiting soo long. Love you guys! :*

Just Saying

I know it prolly has you on an emotional roller coaster but ARENT YOU TIRED OF STORIES GOING IN THE SAME DIRECTION?
Nobody has a perfect relationship!! I sure as fuck dont!! It's always some BS!!
SO DEAL!! Love you guys Bye :) :*

Chapter 28 -> Knocked Up (2/2)

Pls xcuse n e typos :)

SB: hey
Lauren: hey
SB: sup? I was just heading out.
Lauren: going to see Shanell?
SB: laur-
Lauren: It's cool. Do you. I wanted to speak to you about something but maybe you should go see her first.
SB: Look if it's about Nicki...
Lauren: *sigh* Just come see me when you get back
SB: aight.
He responded as he closed the door then they both walked down to his car.
Lauren: later
SB: later ham *smiles*
She gave him back a half smile

When he got to Shanell's he knocked for a good five minutes before she answered the door. He could tell she had been sleeping and her eyes were red and puffy.
SB: you been crying
Shanell: no... allergies
she lied. Her voice was hoarse.
SB: you didn't see me calling you? see my text messages?
Shanell: no my phone is on silent and I haven't checked it since i woke up.. come in
She stepped aside and he walked in.. She closed the door and walked over to the couch.
SB: I was worried so I said i'd come check on you. You know you still haven't told me why you were so upset when you left the pharmacy.
She seemed to just zone out when he said those last words.
SB: babe...did something happen?
She looked at him and she thought about the tests. Her hand unconsciously went to her to her tummy and for a second she felt she had the courage to tell him so she opened her mouth but the wrong words came out.
Shanell: I think I'm gonna be sick
She said before rushing off to the bathroom. He went after her and held her hair back as she emptied her stomach of the food she had earlier. When she was done she closed the lid and flushed. He helped her up and she went to the sink, brushed her teeth and washed her faced that wash drenched in a cold sweat. She pat her face dry with her towel and walked into her bedroom then sat on the bed. He stood in the bathroom doorway looking at her.
SB: do you need me to take you to the doctor?
Shanell: NO! I mean...It's that Chinese food I ate.
SB: but just to make sure it's not something else
Shanell: something else like what?!
SB: It could be a stomach bug.
"stomach bug is right" She thought to herself
Shanell: I'm fine Safaree! If it's the same tomorrow then I'll go see a doctor.
SB: alright. Just call me before you go ok.
Shanell: ok.You're leaving now?
SB: do you want me to staya?
Shanell: No it's ok. besides if it's something contagious I don't want you to catch it.
Then she thought " Fuck if babies were contagious that would be some shit!"
SB: Ok. But take your phone off silent. Ima call and check on you later.
Shanell: ok
She gave him a weak smile and he kissed her forehead.
SB: go get some rest. I'll let myself out.
She head for the bedroom as he head for the door. She made her way to the middle of the bed pulled her knees up and let her tears fall.

On his way back he called Lauren to find out where she was then drove to see her.

SB: what's up Ham?
He said with a smile as she let him in
Lauren: don't  get punched in the throat! What i tell you about calling me that?
SB: *chuckles* but-
Lauren: Safaree!
She said in a stern voice. He laughed
Lauren: so how'd it go?
SB: how'd what go?
Lauren: your visit with... her?
SB: she's not well, she's throwing up but she refused to let me take her top the doctor
Lauren: oh she didn't tell you?
SB: tell me what?
Lauren:... what is wrong with her?
She said looking away. She wanted to but by right she knew it wasn't for her to tell him.
SB: she said it was the Chinese food she ate
Lauren: the CHinese food huh?... that's a  new one
She mumbled the last part
SB: what exactly are you trying to say? You know what's wrong with her?
Lauren: there are a few things I know Safaree
She said and  stopped. He looked at her waiting and when she said nothing more he asked
SB: a few things like what?
Lauren: I know for a fcat that you love my best friend. That you want her in you life so badly its driving you crazy and what your doing with Shanell is just to mask your true feelings, to hide how really hurt you are. Maybe everyone is blind to it Safaree but I see right through it. You know what happened the last time something happened between you and Shanell and you're thinking maybe just maybe this will get her attention. But what you really need to do is go back and fight for you relationship before it gets too complicated.
SB: Laur-
Lauren: NO! It's the truth and you know it!
SB: You wanna know something I am sick and tired of everyone tellign me to fight for my relationship with Nicki! It wasnt just My relationship it was hers too! Do you see her fighting for it?! Are y'all yelling at her telling her to fight for her relationship?! No! Why should I be the only one putting out effort to make this right?! Why shouild I be the only one tryna fight?!
He got up and walked to the door then opened it and before he walked out he turned to her
SB: Maybe what I have with Shanell isn't anywhere close to what I thought I had with Nicki, but it's better than chasing something that no longer matters.
Lauren: Saf-
He slammed the door behind him cutting her off.

****
It was four days since he'd seen her, she had called and told him she was going to visit her mom for a few days. They text each other while she was gone but she seemed to have an excuse every time it came time for them to talk over the phone. He wasn't the only one who called her while she was gone, she got several from Lauren but she never took one. She knew Lauren hadn't told Safaree about the baby or he would have said something to her in their text conversations so she didnt worry too much about that. She walked in her door and dropped her bag right behind it as she closed it. All she wanted to do was take a shower at the moment. She walked to her bathroom stripping along the way. When she was done she she walked back to her bedroom in only her robe. She removed it, moisturized her skin and put it back on. She went and got her phone from her bag and dialed his number. He picked on half way into the first ring
SB: Baby are you ok? What's up?
Shanell: I'm home. I need you to come over, we need to talk.
SB: Ok I'll be there in 5 I'm close by
She hung up putting her phone in the pocket of her robe and picking up her bag from behind the door. She took time making something to eat and as she sat eating there was a knock at the door.
Shanell: it's open
She yelled. The door opened and he walked in
SB: baby?
She took a sip of her tea. He heard the cup against the counter and head for the kitchen.He walked up behind her and leaned down
SB: I missed you *kisses her cheek*
She never uttered a word. She ate the last bite from her plate and drank the last of her tea.
SB: so you didnt miss me while you were gone?
Shanell: May I ask you something?
SB: sure Baby anything
Shanell: What do I do for you?
SB: where is this coming from?
Shanell: that doesnt answer my question Safaree!
SB: you do a lot for me
Shanell: like what?
SB: You make me smile, you make me feel appreciated, you-
Shanell: I'll never be her
She cut him off
SB: I never expe-
She put her finger on his lips and he stopped mid sentence.
Shanell: You an dI both know this isnt going to work. You're hurt, she hurt you badly I understand but I dont wanna be the just your source of comfort until she finds out gets mad and you walk back into her life. I-
SB: You think I'm using you? Baby I would never.What I feel for you is real.She has the person she wants in her life and that person isnt me. I moving on... with you.
He kissed her
SB: I dont want you going around thinking you're just here for me to get my dick wet til Nicki decides to take me back. I'm over her ok. *pecks her lips and pulls her into a hug* Now You ready for your performance with Wayne tomorrow night?
Shanell: *sigh* I'm not performing
SB: Why not? What happened?
Shanell: I told him I wasnt up for it. Doctor's orders. So he changed his set. But I told him I'd still be there for support.
SB: awee baby *kisses her* So what'd the doctor say.
Shanell: Well it's not... contagious
She managed between kisses.
Shanell: mmmm dont start
He lifted her back onto her chair and stood between her legs
SB: Why not? I missed you
Shanell: How'd we get frm... sss.. mmm
She moaned as he sucked on  her neck
SB: see you missed me too
Shanell: dont get cocky.. ahhmm.... Promise to be slow ss and gentle
SB: Sure you can manage
Shanell: mmmfuck!! No! But.. sss. I need you to be
SB: Promise
 he said before pushing her legs apart and gently inserting two fingers inside her

*****

Jhené stood looking at her as she opened the shower door. She handed her her towel and she wrapped it around herself.
Jhené: are you gonna stay mad at me for this whole trip?
She didnt respond just walked out the bathroom leaving her she followed her into the bedroom of their suite and stood watching her every move. Nicki went through her bag finding something to wear, moisturized her skin then got dressed. She still payed Jhené no mind.
Jhené: fine Onika. Two can play that game.
She turned to head back for the bathroom and stopped.
Jhené: you know I did that for us. She wouldn't have stopped if I hadn't gon to see her. I told you everything that happened when I was with her. Honesty, that's what you said right. But you still don't think I'm telling you everything. Well why dont you have that private investigator of yours give you the details. Maybe you'll believe him.
Nicki's eyes shot to hers
Jhené: yes I know about him. Honesty. It works both ways you know. I didnt tell you I was going to see her because you would have never agreed to me doing it. But it's whatever. I'm going to shower.
She walked away. Nicki closed her eyes and let out a deep sigh as she laid back on the bed. When Jhené got out of the bathroom she was fast asleep. She kissed her lightly on the lips and pulled the cover up over her. She went around to her side of the bed an laid staring up at the dark ceiling for most of the night.

When Nicki woke up the next morning in bed alone. She sighed looked at the empty side of the bed and got up heading for the bathroom. When she was showered and got back to the bedroom there was a note on her pillow. She took it up and read
"Good Morning. I made you breakfast, enjoy"
But she really didnt feel like eating. She got dressed in sweats cause she had 1 rehearsal before the show later. She got her phone and called Jhené but she didnt answer so she sent her a text
"where are you"- BabyCakes
But she didnt respond

COMMENT! :*

Chapter 27 --> Knocked Up (1/2)

She looked at the four pregnancy tests she had done and sat on the edge of the tub still in disbelief.  They each had two pink lines that indicated she was pregnant. She felt the tears forming in her eyes and closed them causing them to slowly run down her cheek. She got up walked to the bathroom sink and washed her hands, then her face, she dried them with her towel and made her way to the bedroom and crawled into bed. As she pulled the covers over her she heard her phone ringing. She took a deep breath and threw the covers back; she had left her phone in the bathroom. She checked to see who the call was from when she got back in bed but she didn’t recognize the number, the phone began ringing again.

Shanell: hello

She answered

Lauren: hi

Shanell: oh it’s you

Lauren: you sound like you’ve been crying

Shanell: I sound like I’ve been sleeping because I was. What do you want?

She lied

Lauren: don’t take that tone with me and you know why I called you. Did-

Shanell: yes I did the test

She cut her off

Lauren: And?

Shanell: And?

Lauren: stop beating around the bush. Are you pregnant or not?

She was quiet.

Shanell: I haven’t gone back to check yet

Lauren: well go

Shanell: I’ll call you back

Lauren: no just go check and tell me

Shanell: you’re acting like it’s yours. Hold on

She put the phone on hold and ran her hand over her face. She laid there just looking at the ceiling trying to gather the courage to lie to Lauren. She was a nervous wreck when she took the phone off hold.

Shanell: I’m… I’m not pregnant

She said in one breath. But the way she said it, the way she hesitated Lauren knew she wasn’t being honest.

Lauren: you’re not a very good liar

She didn’t say anything

Lauren: have you told him?

Shanell: there’s nothing to tell I just told you I’m-

Lauren: lying and you know it so stop!! I won’t let him hurt twice. He needs to know Shanell.

Shanell: I don’t want to hurt him either Lauren that is exactly why I’m not telling him. It’ll make my decision much easier to deal with.

Lauren: you’re decision? You’re thinking about having an abortion?! Are you fucking crazy right now?! Do you know what that’ll do to him?!

Shanell: That is exactly why he will not find out!! YOU BETTER NOT BREATHE A WORD OF THIS TO ANYONE!! DO YOU HEAR ME?!

Lauren: I’m not gonna just stand aside and let you do this to him!! He has a right to know Shanell!

Shanell: I’m not having this convo with you anymore. Just keep your mouth shut about this!

She said and hung up. She put her hand protectively over her tummy and cried herself to sleep.

**

Jhené: are you going back to the studio after we finish lunch?

Nicki: yeah. I have to meet up with Wayne he wants to talk about doing a show in New York

Jhené: when?

Nicki: he didn’t say yet

She said reaching over and wiping at Jhené’s mouth with her napkin

Jhené: thank you and ok.

Nicki: I’ll let you know as soon as we speak though. So how has your day been going?

Jhené: great so far. Spoke to my mom. She and my dad are planning to come back for month. Daddy misses running his business (they both smiled) and she says they miss having Tay around. Oh and she wants to spend some time getting to know you

Nicki: What’d you tell her about me? *giggles*

Jhené: only good stuff of course *smiles* and apparently Tay keeps bragging about you

They laughed.

Nicki: did she tell them about her and Candi

Jhené: If she did mom would call me freaking out. They still know her to be straight

Nicki: she needs to tell them the truth though

Jhené: I’ve told her that so many times since she told me and now that they’re coming she is going to have to.

Nicki looked at the time and checked her phone. She had put it on silent once she met up with Jhené.

Nicki: mmkay. I have to get back. Wayne was calling me. Where’d the waiter go?

Jhené: It’s ok babe I got it.

Nicki: I did it again... Sorry.

Jhené: It’s ok.

Nicki: Ok

She stood and Jhené stood to hug her.

Jhené: enjoy the rest of your day.

Nicki: you to hun. Yours later right?

Jhené: yeah. What do you want for dinner?

Nicki: just surprise me

Jhené: ok

Nicki: Love you baby.

Jhené: love you more she responded before she left the restaurant. She called the waiter over, paid there bill then went back to work.

**

She woke with a terrible headache and her stomach growled as she sat up in bed. Her eyes were puffy from crying and she felt a bit light headed so she closed her eyes and rested her face in her palm for a bit. She took a couple deep breaths and got up to go pee.  When she walked into the kitchen she had to hold on to the counter to not fall. She really needed to eat. She tried her best to gain her balance and hurried to put a sandwich together. She ate it as she called and ordered some Chinese. She didn’t feel for anything she had to cook so she made herself another sandwich and waited for the food.

After she ate she made some tea and went to lie down. It was after 6 when she checked her phone and she had a few missed from Lauren again and a few from Safaree. She was scared to call him back because she didn’t know whether Lauren had told him about the baby or not. Just as she was about to put the phone down it started ringing. He was calling back but she ignored the call. She fell asleep shortly after.

He decided to go see her. He took his keys up and as he opened the door he was met by Lauren who was just about to knock on the door…

 To be continued...

Chapter 26 --> Choices We Make

Excuse any typos plz... 

Candi pulled on her t-shirt and went to get some cotton shorts from her drawer before she walked out to speak to him. He was sitting on her living room couch, a couch they had got nasty on so many times, waiting for her. He looked her over from head to toe as she walked in and sat on the couch with one leg folded under her. He looked over the huge red mark on her neck and shook his head and looked away. He wasn’t even sure how to feel about the whole situation. He knew one thing for sure he loved her but he didn’t wanna end up like him. It was a good 7 minutes of silence between them before she said something.

Candi: *sigh* babe look-

JB: She doesn’t have to stay in the room

Candi: umm she’s taking a shower.

JB: word... So y’all just fucked?

She looked down

Candi: Babe…

JB: what? You can at least be honest to my face Candice

Candi: you’re making it sound like I lied to you about her.

JB: I didn’t know about her! I didn’t even know you were into girls!

Candi: I didn’t tell you about her. YET! There’s a difference and you didn’t ask me.

JB: How serious is this thing between you too?

He asked not looking at her

Candi: I don’t know… *looks down again* It seems pretty serious at the moment. I’m not even into girls that much it’s just… With Tay it’s different

It got silent again and she sat watching his every action but he never looked across at her.

Candi: say something

She said softly. It had already been 20 minutes since they were sitting there.  Candi looked back when she heard her bedroom door open, Tay walked out clad only in a t-shirt that fell right below her butt.

Tay: hey she said as she passed them in the living room and made her way to the kitchen.

JB: She looks pretty young. Where’d y’all meet?

He asked in a low tone.

Candi: she… She’s Jhené’s sister

JB: Nicki’s friend Jhené?

Candi: yes

JB: *chuckles* why am I not fucking surprised

Candi: What’s that suppose to mean?

JB: Nothing!

He said getting up?

Candi: you’re leaving?

JB: don’t wanna keep you from your girlfriend.

Candi: Don’t even start

He turned around and looked at her

JB: what am I starting?

Candi: Bullshit Jus and you know it.

She semi yelled

JB: So you expect to just hang around while she’s here?

Candi: why not?

He laughed then looked at her again to see if she was really serious.

Candi:  you could at least talk to her, chill with us and get to know her

JB: Candi I’m not finna agree to this relationship if that’s what you’re hoping for. Safaree did and look what it got him! Niggas going around clowning him talking about how he lost Nicki to another woman because he couldn’t put it down in the bedroom. Nah I don’t play that shit! So here’s what I’ll do, I’ll give you a little space and time to play doll house with your girl. I’m flying back to New York on the weekend. I’ll call you before I leave.

He said then walked out.  She couldn’t hold the tears and they trickled down her cheeks. She got up and head to the bedroom. Tay had been listening to their whole conversation and when Candi got to the bedroom room she hurried out the door and down the steps to find him. She caught up with him as he was walking down the driveway. She called to him.

Tay: Hey!

He stopped looking back and she walked down to where he stood.

Tay: you know you ain’t gotta make this out to be such a bad thing

 He looked up shook his head and turned around walking off again.

Tay: you could benefit from this relationship if you wanted to.

He stopped again and turned around. She looked him over as she walked down to where he stood again.

JB: How old are you?

Tay: old enough. *smirks*

JB: *chuckles* Not like you could handle. Besides she ain’t never gon agree to that and honestly I’m not interested.

Tay: the lies *laughs* It’s EVERY man’s dream and by the way you’re looking at me I know damn well that you are interested. Save the games for someone who has time to play. Cause I don’t. You don’t wanna lose her do you?

JB: Is that a threat?

Tay: I don’t make threats. *smiles*

JB: You don’t know her very well do you?

She raised her brows and looked up with still smiling

Tay: or maybe I just know her better than you do.

He made to say something but bit his lip as she shook his head no instead. He got in his car and started the engine.

JB: go put some clothes on

Tay: knew you were looking she said with a smug little grin then turned and walked back to the apartment.

He shook his head realizing he was staring and drove off.

**

It was five days after Shaneeqa’s call that Nicki decided to return her call. She was home alone and had just finished talking to Jhené who was also home alone because her sister was at Candi’s. Sheaneeqa answered on the third ring

Neeqa: Hello

Nicki: hey. Just getting a chance to return your call, what’s up?

Neeqa: Just getting a chance or did she just tell you I called?

Nicki: What did you want Shaneeqa?

Neeqa: *sigh*… sis what’s going on with you?

Nicki: what do you mean?

Neeqa: You know exactly what I mean Nika. What happened to you and Safaree?

Nicki: Listen-

Neeqa: No you listen. My brother has loved you since the day you two just became friends. How are you just gonna walk out on this relationship after all you went through to be with him?

Nicki: He’s the one who walked out!

Neeqa: because you gave him a reason to!... How is he to feel knowing he lost his girlfriend to another woman?

Nicki: He agreed to my relationship with Jhené!

Neeqa: You are so selfish Onika. Are you even hearing yourself right now? That gave you no right to hurt him like you did! Did you stop and think maybe just maybe he agreed because he didn’t want to lose you?

Nicki: I’m selfish?!-

Neeqa: Yes you are!!

She cut her off before she could say another word

Neeqa: You’re not even trying to fight for him. How long do you think this little fling with you and this girl is gonna last?

Nicki: You are stepping way over your fucking line right now! That girl has a name and I’d appreciate it if you addressed her by it. What we have is not a fling I take my relationship very serious so watch your mouth! You keep talking about how Safaree feels and shit what about how I feel?

Neeqa: After what you pulled I wasn’t aware you had feelings left but how do you feel Onika?

She was quiet on the other end of the line.

Neeqa: *chuckles* but you know with all the bullshit you’re doing I know its one thing you can never deny and that’s that you love him.

Nicki: There are things I love about him. He’s my best friend he’s knows me better than I know myself… But I’m not in love with him.

Neeqa: Bullshit!!! Do you love her?

Nicki: Shaneeqa… *sigh*

Neeqa: right… Pussy that good huh?

She shot at her

Nicki: head game greater than you could image

Nicki shot back

Neeqa: You’re gonna be so fucking sorry

Nicki: you think you know me don’t you? Never that! Next time you call my phone and my girlfriend answers think twice about being rude!

Neeqa: Bye Nicki!

Nicki: Bye Bitch!

She said as she ended the call and tossed the phone on the bed. She was pissed. “How dare she? Who the fuck does she think she is?” She thought as she made her way to the bathroom. She turned the tap on to fill the tub and left it as she peed. She needed to do something to relax so she figured a hot bath might do the trick. She lit some scented candles around the tub as she waited for it to fill up.

** (2 wks and 4days gone)

Neeqa: May I asked you something?

She asked walk

SB: what?

Neeqa: Did you sleep with her?

SB: with whom?

Neeqa: don’t try me Safaree. The ho you were out with when you just got here? And is she the one you’re still seeing? Or is it another one?

SB: That really isn’t any of your business

Neeqa: you are going around sleeping with random bitches Safaree!!

SB: I was out with someone I know. That’s all you needa know about that.

Neeqa: Dumbass!! You’re both gonna regret this shit!

SB: Mind your business sis.

He said as he walked out the door.

She was at her apartment waiting for him to come over. Her cycle was six days late so she was a bit worried. That night when she saw him at the club and they had come back to her place, drank and had some crazy sex. She didn’t remember everything that had happened that night but there were bits and pieces that she did. She remembered quite clearly though waking up to go pee and seeing his naked body in the bed next to hers. She was pulled from her thoughts by a knock on her apartment door.

Shanell: coming!

She said as she got out of bed and went to let him in. He hugged her when she opened the door and kissed her forehead

SB: hey beautiful

Shanell: hey

She said in a low tone

SB: you ok babe?

Shanell: yeah just a bit tired…

SB: Did you eat? I brought you some fruits.

Shanell: *smiles* thank you baby.

She said as she took them from him. He closed the door as she walked into the kitchen to was and peel her fruits. She put some in a bowl to eat and the remainder in a small container in the fridge. She took her bowl of fruits and went to go sit by him on the couch. He wrapped his arm around her and she began eating. She sat trying to find the words to tell him she might be pregnant but she couldn’t find the courage.  She decided not to. She was going to get an at home pregnancy test and find out. “What if he doesn’t want a baby? What if he and Nicki are gonna get back together? I’m not ready for this! What if I tell him and he wants to keep this baby? Nicki already hates me! Hell she isn’t the only one. I can’t... It’s no way I’m keeping this baby. I can’t tell him. I-“

SB: Shanell… Shanell

Shanell: huh?

SB: are you sure you’re ok?

Shanell: yeah

SB: you didn’t hear a word I just said did you?

Shanell: I’m sorry. I’m just … I don’t know where my mind is.

SB: I was asking if you want to come with me. I’m going to pick something up by Vince’s place

Shanell: Umm ok. Lemme go change.

After going by Vince they made a couple more stops and she asked him to take her to the pharmacy.  She picked up 5 of the First Response Pregnancy Kits and took them to the cashier. Safaree was waiting for her by the car. Just when she was about to tell the cashier to hurry up Lauren walked up with some personal items of her own. She looked at the items the middle aged woman had scan for Shanell as she told her balance. She took the money out and handed it to the woman.

Lauren: You’re pregnant?!

The woman looked between the two as she placed the items in a bag. Lauren just stood looking at Shanell. The lady handed over her change and the bag. She said thank you with a small fake smile and turned to walk out. Lauren walked after her reaching out and grabbing her arm

Lauren: I asked you a question Shanell

Shanell: *sigh* How is that any of your business?

Lauren: Is it Safaree’s?

Shanell looked away

Lauren: OMG!! He hasn’t even been here a freaking month

Shanell: look I have to go

She turned to walk away and Lauren’s words stopped her

Lauren: does he know?

She turned around and looked at her

Shanell: what do you want from me?

Lauren: the truth.

Shanell: NO! He doesn’t know anything about this and I’d like to keep it that way until I know for myself!

Lauren: WOW!! You waste no time do you?

Shanell: look I’m really not up for an argument or a lecture from you right now so please… I have to go

Lauren: Give me your number

Shanell: is this a joke?

Lauren: do I look like I’m laughing

She gave her the number and she saved it in her phone.

Lauren: You better answer when I call

Shanell: whatever

She said and walked off. When she made it back to the car Safaree was standing talking to Vince who had been waiting on Lauren.

SB: Did you get what you wanted?

Shanell: yes

She said getting in the car and slamming the door.

Vince: Man you sure you not taking things too fast?

SB: I’m good man. I’ma take her home. We’ll talk.

He got in the driver’s seat and they drove off. As Vince was about to head to check on Lauren he saw her coming and the look on her face had him puzzled. How did she walk into the pharmacy and walked out pissed.

Vince: what happened?

Lauren: Shanell is pregnant

Was all she said and got in the car.

**

Nicki: Why did she go to Hawaii…….. Crazy ass bitch!! She really doesn’t want it with me…………… Look just get all the fucking information together and get it to me as soon as possible and don’t fuck this up or you’re both gonna end up missing or in fucking body bags!! Ugh!

She hung up.

Jhené: who are you threatening over the phone?

She asked curiously as she crawled back into bed.

Nicki: No one important.

She responded and pecked her lips. Jhené didn’t believe her but she let it go.

Jhené: ok you are getting too spoiled. We spend too much time in bed. Sooooo tomorrow you are going to the studio and I am going to work.

Nicki: how about you come to the studio with me?

She said and gave her her lil innocent face

Jhené: don’t try that face on me it’s not gon work today *smiles*

Nicki: but come on when’s the last time you went to the studio?

Jhené: It’s been a while but me going to the studio with you equals you being distracted so no. I’ll go next week. I’m good for now

Nicki: I won’t be dist-

Jhené: Yes you will *pecks lips*

Nicki folded her arms across her chest and pouted.

Jhené: Awwe *giggles* my baby has the cutest pout ever *kisses her cheeks and then starts to tickle her*

Nicki burst into a fit of laugher and they rolled around as she tried to get Jhené to stop. She begged and begged until finally telling her she was gon pee on herself. When she stopped Nicki laid eyes closed with a huge smile plastered on her face. Jhené knelt looking down at her. Nicki, eyes still closed and still smiling asked

Nicki: what?

Jhené: I’m just tryna take it all in

Nicki: pauz *giggles*to take what in *opens eyes*

Jhené: how absolutely beautiful and breath talking you are

Nicki closed her eyes again as her smile grew even wider and her cheeks went red. Jhené leaned down and kissed the tip of her nose before resting her forehead against hers. Her hair fell like a curtain around their heads.  She was silent for a moment before

Jhené: I love you Onika Maraj

Nicki opened her eyes and looked into hers. She ran her thumb across Jhené’s lips

Nicki I love you too baby

She closed her eyes and brought her lips to hers and kissed her.