The car stopped a couple meters from her and Safaree ran to her asking if she was OK. The driver yelled at them both to get out the way but they paid no attention to him.
Jhené: Why'd you walk out?
He didn't respond.
Jhené: Safaree look you need to talk to her. She misses you and you can't tell me you don't miss her too. I miss you, I miss the man who sat and listened to all my problems who comforted me when I needed to be comforted
SB: Do you really or do you just want me back around to see what else you can steal?
He said in a low tone
Jhené: Is that how you feel? Like I stole Nicki from you?
SB: Look you are her are fine without me. You're married, you have a baby on the way. You don't need me.
She shook her head
Jhené: Do you always listen to what the media says?
SB: It may not always be facts but sometimes they are right.
Jhené: and sometimes they are very wrong. If you want to know all you have to ask her, talk to her.
SB: I have to go
He said before walking off.
Jhené: Safaree!
She called but he just kept walking.
-Inside the Store-
Tarah: Why did he leave?
She asked as she stood at the counter with her mom
Kela: He just had to go out for a lil bit hun
Tarah: But I want him to help me choose flavors
She whined.
SB: So what flavor are we getting?
He asked stooping down beside her. She turned and hugged him.
Tarah: Yay! You're back!
She giggled and poked his nose.
Tarah: Now since you made me wait i get three scoops. one strawberry cheesecake, one coconut and one cookie and cream and Oreo topping
She said with a huge smile
SB: You sure you can eat all that?
Tarah: uh huh!
As they sat at their table eating he looked at her and as if she felt his eyes on her she looked up at him but only for a few seconds before looking back at her ice cream and then responding to Tarah's question about getting a puppy.
Kela: Tarah I really don't think you're ready
She said and watched as her daughter began pouting
Tarah: But uncle Faree thinks I am
Kela: But I still have the final say
SB: What if...
Kela: Don't even..
She responded cutting him off. He shook his head and they sat finishing their ice cream both only responding to Tarah whenever she asked a question. The drive home was also only filled with Tarah's voice as she played in the back seat with her dolls. When they got home Tarah ran to the huge gift boxes that were sitting out in the yard.
SB: for How long do I get the silent treatment?
He asked but she still didn't respond to him. Instead she walked over to where her daughter was and asked her which gift she wanted first. The first gift she opened was a huge box that had inside a mini rack with bunch of new clothes and shoes. She gave him a huge hug and said thank you about 20 times. Her second gift was a new doll house she had been asking her mom for all year and she still had seven more huge boxes to go through. Her mom had gone inside for a bit and she was opening the last box. Her jaw dropped and she started crying
Tarah: But mommy said no
She replied as she look over the contents
SB: She said she'd think about it some more. Don't worry. I'll sort this out. You need to go check your room
Just then he heard her yelling his name
SB: or maybe you should wait here
Tarah: You in trouble?
SB: Maybe
He said as he head toward the door. When he got inside and towards the stair case he saw her at the top of the stairs standing with the white Maltese puppy in her hand
Kela: What is this? I said I would think about it I never agreed to her getting this puppy? You just go against what i said Safaree! You...!
She stopped and rolled her eyes at him.
SB: What? I'm not her father?
Kela: That's not what I was about to say
SB: Yes it was.
Kela: Saf..
SB: I don't wanna hear it honestly. You been upset with me ever since what happened at Lulu's and I really didn't think it was that bad until now. She's been showing you all year how responsible she is just to get that dog. She deserves it even if you don't think so and I'm not her father I know that but I've been in her life for the past five years and if any other man had been in my position and seen how hard she has worked they would have made the same decision.
He turned to walk out
Kela: Safaree...
SB: I'll come by tomorrow to pick him up. I'm sure I can find him a home.
He said and walked toward the door.
Kela: Safaree wait!!
He stopped.
Kela: I wasn't going to say that. It never even crossed my mind. It's just you spoil her so much how do I keep up with that when you leave?
SB: Where am I going Kela?! Why would you ever think that I would leave?
Kela: Because regardless of what you say and do Safaree I know you're still not over her! I got that confirmation when you walked out on us today after you saw Jhené. You Walked out!! You couldn't even handle being in the same building with her! God knows how I'll explain the day she asks about her father but that's one man too many already and I don't want to even think about having to explain why you did.
SB: Kela I'm NOT going anywhere!!
She looked away trying her best to hold back the tears
Kela: Go Talk to her
SB: Kela..
Kela: You need to.... And don't come back until you do.
-SATURDAY-
When Nicki woke up she heard the shower running, the clock on the wall said 9:17. She threw the covers back and head toward the bathroom. After dropping her robe she slid the shower doors open and stepped in, then put her arms around Jhené and closed her eyes.
Jhené: Good morning beautiful
Nicki: Good Morning baby
Jhené: feeling better?
Nicki: Much. but still not 100%. What time's my appointment?
Jhené: 12 *turns around and gives her a kiss* Did you sleep well.
Nicki: Always. As long as I'm beside you *smiles*
Jhené: *smiles* I love you *kisses her*
Nicki: What's for breakfast?
Jhené: You can't eat until after your appointment I figured we could find a nice restaurant or we could come back here and I cook. It's up to you
Nicki: I'm already starving so we could eat out
Jhené: OK. *kisses her forehead*
Nicki turned around and Jhené hugged her from behind, her hands meeting over her stomach
Jhené: What If there actually was a baby in there *Kisses her neck*
They both giggled.
Nicki: You want us to?
She asked turning around.
Jhené: only if you want to
Nicki smiled and kissed her.
Nicki: Let's finish talking about that later.
Jhené: *Smiles* OK
After seeing the doctor and doing her tests, they head out for lunch and then back home. She had to wait until Monday to get her test results. They were taking a bubble bath together when Safaree crossed her mind and she remembered she still hadn't told her about seeing him. She ran her hand through her hair
Jhené: Nika
Nicki: Hmm
Jhené: I have something to tell you
Nicki: What is it?
She asked, her back against her chest. Jhené kissed the top of her head
Jhené: I saw Safaree yesterday
She didn't respond
Jhené: When I went to Lulu's to get you the ice cream he was with a little girl and her mom.
Still no response.
Jhené: Nika??
Nicki completely ignored what she said, turned around and kissed her deeply.
Nicki: make love to me *kisses her* bedroom *kisses her* now
She gave her another long passionate kiss before getting out the tub getting a towel and walking towards the bedroom. Jhené followed her minutes after.
-SUNDAY-
1:18 pm and it was the sound of her phone ringing and vibrating on the night table that woke her. Eyes still closed she put the phone to her ear and in a sleepy voice answered
"Hello"
SB: Hey. Did I wake you?
She opened her eyes and looked at the phone before replacing it at her ear and again saying hello
SB: Nicki
Nicki: Safaree
SB: I'm sorry did I wake you? I could call back.
Nicki: No it's fine...
To be continue*********
Thursday, 9 February 2017
Sunday, 5 February 2017
Chapter 33 - Different
She looked at the screenshot of the newspaper headline her best friend had sent her one more time, it read "Rapper Nicki Minaj spotted in Greece with wife Jhené Okole daughter of Hollywood's Top lawyer and billionaire Easton Okole" she zoomed in and tried reading the story "It's been six years since Minaj and Okole started their relationship which most took as just a fling as the rapper always sang about getting intimate with other women. Most thought that by now the two would have split however, they have proved us wrong. An insider told us the two tied the knot two summers ago and recently that the two took to Greece for a getaway trip as Minaj has been stressed with her current pregnancy." She burst out laughing "are they for real" *continues reading* "Even though the female rapper has yet to confirm the pregnancy insiders tell us that she has put on a few pounds and is constantly wearing large coats, even in her studio sessions."
Nic: *laughs out again* I cannot even finish reading this
Just as she rested her phone on the night table another message came in. It was Candi
C: What time do you arrive in Florida on Friday?
N: 9. you?
C: Not until 1. We'll just meet up at the house.
N: Ok no problem.
C: You feeling better?
N: Yes much. We actually went out today and I ate with no trouble. Need some home cooking though. Can't wait to get back.
C: Only two days left #Kisses. Can't wait to see you guys. Taking My ass to bed now. Love ya.
N: Two long days lol. Ok hun. I'ma take a bath. We'll talk later. We love ya more #Kisses
-MIAMI, FLORIDA-
Thursday 9:30am
"So, what do you want to do for your birthday?" He asked her as he lifted her out of the swing
"Buy a puppy! And Cake! And Ice creeeaam!" she replied
"A puppy?" he asked. "Well I'll have to find out about that one from mommy first but cake and ice cream sound great. What about a party?"
"No I don't want one. I just want a puppy" she replied as he strapped her into her booster seat.
He closed the door walked around to the driver's side, got in and started the car. Before driving off he dialed her number.
"Hey you two" a female voice rang
"mommyyyyy" she squealed from the back
"we just left the park, heading home for a bath and to start dinner until you get there" he said.
"awesome I'll get there in the next hour and a half. My last patient just left" she replied
"OK" he said and looked back to see an exhausted Tarah half asleep.
After pulling into the garage and getting out the car he went around and unbuttoned the belt of her booster seat
Tarah: we're home?
she asked in a sleepy voice
SB: yes we are sweetie, come on let's go in and have you take a bath before mommy gets home
Tarah: can I take a long bath?
SB: not very long
He said as they got inside her room. He put her down to stand and put her hair in a messy bun before filling the stub for her and putting all her favourite bath toys in. He helped her get undressed then lifted her into the tub.
SB: Not too long he said again before heading out.
"Uncle Fareeeeeeee" he heard her call as he took a bottle of water from the fridge. He had just stuck the macaroni and cheese in the oven and was getting a drink.
Tarah: unnnnccclllleeeeee Faaaaarrreeeeeeeeeeeeeee
She called even louder. He hurried up the stairs to check on her.
Tarah: you didn't check on me... You always check on me. What if something happened
she said pout and folding her arms
SB: I'm sorry baby girl. I didn't mean to not come and check on you.
He replied as he lifted her out of the tub with her towel wrapped around her
Tarah: you forgot me
SB: Noooo. I could never forget my princess?
He replied planting a kiss on her forehead
SB: Frozen pyjamas?
Tarah: uuhhhhh yes pleaaasssseeee.
He helped her get dressed then they both head to the living room. He turned on her favourite cartoon and went in to check on the food.
"I'm home" he heard a voice chime from the living room and surprisingly he didn't hear Tarah's usual squeals that she did whenever her mom got in in. A couple minutes later Kela walked into the kitchen.
Kela: Hey hun
She walked over to him and gave him a kiss on the cheek
SB: she out?
Kela: yeah. Thank you so much for today *smiles*
SB: Anytime.
He took the mac and cheese out the oven, the chicken already done and on top the stove.
SB: you ready to eat
Kela gave him a half smile
Kela: I will be in a bit, first..
she said as she took his hand and lead him out to the back patio
Kela: tell me what's wrong
SB: what do you mean?
Kela: Safaree Lloyd don't play with me... Was Tarah any trouble? did she say something? ask you something?
he ran his hand over his face
SB: No she's never any trouble you know this
Kela: so talk to me. What going on in there?
She asked as she stepped a little closer and held the left side of his face. He pulled away and she sighed.
Kela: ok fine. Whenever you're ready to talk. I'm going to take Tarah up to her room.
She said before walking back inside. She took her daughter up and brought her up to her room, turned the lights out and left the door half open as she always did. She walked to her bedroom and then into her bathroom closing the door behind her. She sighed, slid out of her work clothes and stepped into the shower. He was in the hallway just outside her bedroom when he heard the shower start running. He turned around and made his way back down the stairs. He was watching a football game when she came back down the stairs, her hair wet from her shower and dressed in her robe, She made her way to the kitchen without saying a word to him and came back with a plate. She sat at the other end of the couch and began eating.
SB: Do you want me to change it?
Kela: *looks at him* Do I ever ask you to change it?
SB: No, But...
Kela: Ok.
She said cutting him off before he could finish.
5mins left in the game and she was having the last of her orange juice when a message came in on her phone. It was from her friend Shauntee. It was an image of a newspaper's lead story. Below the message said "I never really took Ms Minaj's relationship with this chick serious either but it appears the two are married, and to top it off expecting a child"
Then it hit her, and she looked across at him, his eyes focused on the TV but she new he wasn't really seeing the game
Kela: you saw the paper?
He didn't respond. Didn't even blink.
Kela: you know you say that you've accepted it and that you're over her but but every time you see these stories in these magazines or in the paper you get in your feelings. You are the same one who says never believe what you see in the media. Yet look at you now?
with that she got up, took her plate and glass up and went to the kitchen. When she came back he had the TV off his elbows on his knees and his head down
Kela: I'm going to bed. You know what to do on your way out. Good Night.
-MIAMI INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT to Nicki's Miami Home-
Friday 11:45am
She was in her car but couldn't leave as quickly as she wanted to. The barbz had found she'd be there and caused chaos at the airport. It felt like there were equal amounts of reporters trying to get pics of her. She pulled her hair up into a messy bun and undid her coat.
Jhené: You ok?
She asked concerned because she was hastily trying to get out of her jacket
Jhené: turn a bit so I can help you
Nicki turned but didn't respond to whether or not she was ok
Jhené: Baby
Nicki: I'm fine babe
She replied in a soft tone with a half plastered fake smile on her face
Nicki: I just want to get home
The car finally felt like it was moving, barbz were still outside screaming for Nicki camera flashes going off but she paid no attention to any of it. She sighed, leaned her head back and closed her eyes. She really didn't look well. A couple minutes later she fell asleep. As soon as she did Jhené rang a friend of hers who was a doctor in Miami asking her to meet them at their Miami home. When they got to the house Jhené had one of the body guards bring her inside she was running a fever.
Her friend Victoria was there a few minutes after they got in to take as look at Nicki.
Victoria: Looks like she picked up a bug in Europe. Can't diagnose without tests to be sure but I can give her something for the fever
Jhené: Is tomorrow ok for the test?
She asked as they walked down the stairway.
Victoria: Tomorrow is fine
She said as she wrote on a small piece of paper and handed it to Jhené.
Victoria: This is for the fever, I'll call in a favour for you at the hospital's pharmacy just call and let me know who you're going have pick it up. It was really great seeing you Jhen. See you tomorrow.
Jhené: I will. It was great seeing you too Vicky. See you in the morning.
She watched as Victoria walked to her car then closed the door to head up to Nicki. She met her at the top of the stairs
Jhené: Hey what are you doing out of bed?
Nicki: need to eat and I was wondering where you were
Jhené: I walked Victoria to the door. She wants you to come in and do some tests tomorrow. Thinks you picked up a bug in Europe. Come on let's get you back to the room and I'll go down and get you something to eat
She helped her back into the bedroom and into bed before rushing down to get her fruits and juice.
Jhené: I'll run you a cold bath while you eat
...
After her bath she helped her back into bed. Candi had called to say she landed and would be there in a bit so she waited for her to arrive before heading out to get Nicki's meds. After her pickup at the phrmacy she headed to Lulu's on Biscayne Boulevard to pick up some ice cream for them. She was ordering when she heard a familiar voice behind her call to a little girl that ran right up to the counter beside her
"this one! I want this one and this one" she said in a very happy tone then looked up at Jhené
"hiiiiiii" she said smiling big "it's my birthday. I'm six"
Jhené: you are?
She asked with a smile
"uh huh! *giggles* and uncle Faree said I can have whatever flavor I want"
Jhené looked towards the direction the little girl pointed to see Safaree standing just looking at her
Server: Here you go ma'am
Jhené: Th-Thank you she stuttered
When she turned around the little girl was in the arms of a woman who looked to be her mother and Safaree was outside walking towards his car. She hurried out after him telling Tarah Happy Birthday on her way out and called to him as he walked off.
Jhené: Safaree!
He didn't respond
Jhené: Sa..
Here voice was interrupted by the sound off a desperate attempt to hold the brakes on a vehicle and he spun around.....
Because you deserve it. Will try to give you more tomorrow. *KISSES*
Tuesday, 5 May 2015
Chapter 32 --> New Beginnings
She had just finished up a studio session and was heading back to the car with Candi when Candi asked
Candi: did you check out that package yet?
Nicki: No... Didn't even remember about. It's probably just from a fan
Candi: a fan who has your address Nic? come on
Nicki didn't say anything
Candi: Right... You need to at least get it checked out. I'll do it for u when we get back to yours
Nicki: Whatever you wanna do with it
Candi: and you're not interested to know. I mean how did this chick get your address?
Nicki was still silent
Candi: OK see I know you. What's wrong? What happened? Is it Jhené did she do something? say something? did y'all have a fight?
Nicki: Safaree called?
Candi: Ohhhh.... umm is he OK?
Nicki: Yeah he is.
Candi: but... when's he coming home?
Nicki: but nothing and I don't know.
Her phone rang.
Nicki: hello
Jhené: hey baby, still at the studio?
Nicki: No I just left. What's up?
Jhené: was gonna stop by. Meet you at home?
Nicki: OK
Jhené: K, see you in a bit
Nicki looked across after she hung up to see Candice staring at her
Nicki: It was J *rolls eyes*
Candi: I never said anything
Nicki: whatever
She mumbled.
****
Wanita: I didn't mean to upset you yesterday sis it's just u gotta think about what's best for u and them
Shanell: ........ I'm gettin' real sick of this bed rest crap. Only place I get to go is to the bathroom. I'm even more sick of you here babying me and shit like, can you come by any less?
Wanita: right ignore what I have to say and You should be glad your ass got me here babying you. Ungrateful.
Shanell rolled her eyes.
Wanita: have u decided to call Safaree yet?
Shanell: the fuck is it with you?! Can you just not mention... him... Please. You been here five minutes and you're at it already
Wanita: ok ok. I won't ask you about it or mention him anymore. For today.
Shanell hissed her teeth
Wanita: but here
She handed her sister a piece of paper
Shanell: what's this?
Wanita: new number
Shanell: you just said you wouldn't mention him and how'd you even get this?
Wanita: all I did was give you the paper and don't worry about how I got it. I got it.
Shanell shook her head
****
Candi sat going through the box Nicki had got while Nicki was upstairs with Jhene
Candi: Ooop Jhené got some competition
She said holding up a very revealing knitted bikini of Jamaican flag colors and laying them next to black handmade slippers that were just Nicki's size. After going through the box she took the bottled spices to the kitchen and replaced the other items in the box. She sat in the living room box in her lap waiting for Nicki to come downstairs.
As she sat with her phone at her ear smiling away at whatever the person on the line was telling her she heard giggles then Nicki and Jhené's voice getting closer as they made their way down the stairs.
Nicki: And who's got your ass in here smiling like an idiot?
Nicki asked laughing. Candi put up her middle finger and cut her eye. Nicki returned giving Candi both her middle fingers as she sat on Jhené's lap.
Candi: what the chairs not big enough for your ass?
Nicki: bitch I aint sitting on you. Do you hear my baby complaining? No! If she aint complain when Im on her face she aint gon complain when Im on her lap. Now shut up.
Nicki said laughing. Jhené shook her head
Candi: Ummmm... ok... then. So-
Jhené's phone began to ring and Nicki got up as she answered leaving the room to talk.
Nicki: you were saying? And why are you hugging on that box like yall together?
Candi: I thought you didn't know Kela?
Nicki: I don't!
Candi: Nic we best friends if your cheating you can tell me.
Nicki: What the fuck are you talking about? Do I look like I have a reason to cheat?
Candi: I don't know its just.. why is some other woman sending you sexy shit?
Nicki looked at her confused. Candi open the box and pulled out the bikini and held it up. Nicki's eyes got wide. Right then Jhené walked in
Jhené: Nice piece Candi. Its sexy. I like.
Candi: It's not mine. It's Nic's
Jhené: oh who from?
She asked as she stood going through her handbag
Nicki eyed Candi
Nicki: Are you heading out?
Jhené: yeah have to go meet with my dad. So who's the *looks at Candi* box from?
Nicki: I dont know there's know return address but this one insisted on opening it
She said eyeing Candi
Jhené: Is there a name?
Candi: yeah Kela Harrison
Jhené: Oh?
She said looking at Nicki. Nicki rolled her eyes
Jhené: Stamp?
She asked looking back at Candi
Candi: uh.. Florida
Jhené looked back at Nicki
Nicki: Are you gonna be gone for long?
She asked getting up as Jhené walked to the door. She turned around to face her
Jhené: Im not sure but I'll call you if Im going to be.
Nicki: Ok I love you
she said before kissing her
Jhené: Love you too.
She said then kissed her again and went out the door. Nicki hit Candi on the head as she walked past her and head to the kitchen
Candi: 5... 4... 3....
Nicki: CANDI!!
Candi: took you long enough
She said as she head to the kitchen
Nicki: What's all this
She asked before Candi could walk in properly
Candi: ask Kela
Nicki: dont even fucking start...
******
Jhené: hey did you get that info for me?
She asked the female on the other end of the phone call as she sat in the car outside the restaurant she was meeting with her dad
Female:Yes I did... Dr. Kela Harrison.
Jhené: what kind of doctor?
Female: Pediatrician. Born in Bridgetown Barbados lives in Miami Florida. Ooh and she's got a daughter Kaetarah Shahneek Williams. Cute lil thing good thing she doesnt look too much like her daddy. Im emailing info to you right now
Jhené: wait.. Williams?? And does that include a number
Female: Mmmhm same Williams from that case I did. And yes. cell, house and work. Addresses too.
Jhené: ok thank you. We'll talk later
Female: Anytime. Later darling.
*****
When Jhené got home Candi had left and Nicki was nowhere downstairs so she head upstairs to look for her. As she got to the bedroom she could hear the shower running. She put her phone on the bed removed her jacket and walked into the bathroom.
Nicki: hey baby. Im almost done. Unless you wanna join me but then we might end up not leaving the house
She said talking above the sound of the shower running.
Jhené: where are we going?
Nicki turned the water off.
Nicki: out for drinks. Just me and you.
She said as she stepped out water running down her body and put her arms around Jhené. Jhené kissed her.
Jhené: Ok but after you get something to eat.
They kissed again
Nicki: you still mad at me?
Jhené: what made you think I was mad at you
Nicki: package
Jhené: look baby I trust you ok and with the way you behave in the bedroom *smiles* I know have absolutely nothing to worry about
Nicki blushed and giggled
Jhené: but I'm not comfortable with Doctor Harrison sending you shit when yall don't even know each other.
Nicki: wait... how you know she's a doctor... baby what did you do?
Jhené: I got some info that's all.
She kissed Nicki as she let go and began undressing
Nicki: got some info?
She asked as she got a towel
Jhené: yes. So later you can call doc up and find out about that box
Nicki: you got her number?
Jhené: numbers, addresses, kids name
Nicki stood looking at her with her mouth open as she stepped into the shower
Jhené: your welcome she said as she closed the door
Nicki: you're crazy
she said and walked out to the bedroom
Nicki: so who did you get this info from?
She asked as she sipped her fourth margarita
Jhené: friend of mine in Florida
Nicki: she FBI or something cause...?
Jhené: *laughs* No. She's a lawyer
Nicki: you probably got more information than you told me
Jhené opened the email on her phone and handed it to her
Nicki: wow! Pictures of her kid J?
Nicki shook her head.
Nicki: you really are crazy
Jhené: Im concerned. So are you going to call or do I have to?
Nicki: Now?!
Jhené: why not?
Nicki shook her head and took her phone out. She dialled the cell phone number from the email and put the phone to her ear
*In Florida*
Kela, Safaree and Tarah were in his car on their way to her home from the movies when her phone began ringing and startled Tarah waking her.
Kela: Hello
she answered as Safaree pulled into the driveway.
Nicki: Hello
She heard the baby crying in the background and a male voice saying "I'll get her"
Nicki: I'm sorry is it a bad time?
Kela: No it's ok. Who is this?
Nicki: Ok. It's Nicki well Onika since you had used my government, I received a packages from you. Does that ring a bell?
She said and then she heard his voice in the back ground
Safaree: She's in her bedroom and she needs changing are you getting out?
Kela: Yes I'll be in in a minute. Nicki about the package.. *looks at Safaree*
He shook his head, ran his hand over his face and asked her for the phone
Kela: hold a sec please
Nicki: ok
She handed it to him
Safaree: are you serious right now? how'd you get her number?
Nicki: Safare I-
Safaree: The package was from me ok. I just asked her to send it for me since she got back before me. If you don't want it you can throw them out It really doesnt matter.
Nicki: I never s-
Safaree: lose the number... Good bye Nicki
He said and hung up
Kela: you really didnt have to-
Safaree: I dont want talk about it right now.
He said as she got out the car
Kela: ok
He walked her to the door
Kela: Good night we had a really good time
She said and hugged him
Safaree: Good Night
He said as she locked the door
*Nicki and Jhené*
Nicki looking at Jhené speechless
Jhené: well?
She asked
Nicki: The package was from Safaree.
Jhené: oh ok. So she's his...
Nicki: I... I dont know. I really dont wanna get into it.
She said not looking very happy
Jhené: babe, did she say something to you?
Nicki: No. No she didnt. can.. can we go?
Jhené: sure.
Jhené took care of their bill and they left for home.
As they walked through the front door Nicki's phone vibrated in her pocket. She took it out and unlocked the screen then opened the message
I'm sorry I didn't let you know it was from me. I thought you would have figured after all I did tell you where I was. But now you know so you can lose her number and like I said if you dont want them you can throw them out. I just thought you'd like them especially the spices
She responded
Im not gonna throw them out Safaree I like them and thank you. So what she's your girlfriend?
He replied
Im happy Nic... That's all you need to know. Take care.
She sighed placed her phone back in her pocket and head up to the bedroom.
Jhené: you ok baby
She asked as she walked over to the bed. Nicki took her jacket off, her shoes, unzipped her dress and slid it down her body then got in bed beside Jhené and after placing her arms around her and burying her face in her neck she responded
Nicki: Im ok now.
*******
Candi: did you check out that package yet?
Nicki: No... Didn't even remember about. It's probably just from a fan
Candi: a fan who has your address Nic? come on
Nicki didn't say anything
Candi: Right... You need to at least get it checked out. I'll do it for u when we get back to yours
Nicki: Whatever you wanna do with it
Candi: and you're not interested to know. I mean how did this chick get your address?
Nicki was still silent
Candi: OK see I know you. What's wrong? What happened? Is it Jhené did she do something? say something? did y'all have a fight?
Nicki: Safaree called?
Candi: Ohhhh.... umm is he OK?
Nicki: Yeah he is.
Candi: but... when's he coming home?
Nicki: but nothing and I don't know.
Her phone rang.
Nicki: hello
Jhené: hey baby, still at the studio?
Nicki: No I just left. What's up?
Jhené: was gonna stop by. Meet you at home?
Nicki: OK
Jhené: K, see you in a bit
Nicki looked across after she hung up to see Candice staring at her
Nicki: It was J *rolls eyes*
Candi: I never said anything
Nicki: whatever
She mumbled.
****
Wanita: I didn't mean to upset you yesterday sis it's just u gotta think about what's best for u and them
Shanell: ........ I'm gettin' real sick of this bed rest crap. Only place I get to go is to the bathroom. I'm even more sick of you here babying me and shit like, can you come by any less?
Wanita: right ignore what I have to say and You should be glad your ass got me here babying you. Ungrateful.
Shanell rolled her eyes.
Wanita: have u decided to call Safaree yet?
Shanell: the fuck is it with you?! Can you just not mention... him... Please. You been here five minutes and you're at it already
Wanita: ok ok. I won't ask you about it or mention him anymore. For today.
Shanell hissed her teeth
Wanita: but here
She handed her sister a piece of paper
Shanell: what's this?
Wanita: new number
Shanell: you just said you wouldn't mention him and how'd you even get this?
Wanita: all I did was give you the paper and don't worry about how I got it. I got it.
Shanell shook her head
****
Candi sat going through the box Nicki had got while Nicki was upstairs with Jhene
Candi: Ooop Jhené got some competition
She said holding up a very revealing knitted bikini of Jamaican flag colors and laying them next to black handmade slippers that were just Nicki's size. After going through the box she took the bottled spices to the kitchen and replaced the other items in the box. She sat in the living room box in her lap waiting for Nicki to come downstairs.
As she sat with her phone at her ear smiling away at whatever the person on the line was telling her she heard giggles then Nicki and Jhené's voice getting closer as they made their way down the stairs.
Nicki: And who's got your ass in here smiling like an idiot?
Nicki asked laughing. Candi put up her middle finger and cut her eye. Nicki returned giving Candi both her middle fingers as she sat on Jhené's lap.
Candi: what the chairs not big enough for your ass?
Nicki: bitch I aint sitting on you. Do you hear my baby complaining? No! If she aint complain when Im on her face she aint gon complain when Im on her lap. Now shut up.
Nicki said laughing. Jhené shook her head
Candi: Ummmm... ok... then. So-
Jhené's phone began to ring and Nicki got up as she answered leaving the room to talk.
Nicki: you were saying? And why are you hugging on that box like yall together?
Candi: I thought you didn't know Kela?
Nicki: I don't!
Candi: Nic we best friends if your cheating you can tell me.
Nicki: What the fuck are you talking about? Do I look like I have a reason to cheat?
Candi: I don't know its just.. why is some other woman sending you sexy shit?
Nicki looked at her confused. Candi open the box and pulled out the bikini and held it up. Nicki's eyes got wide. Right then Jhené walked in
Jhené: Nice piece Candi. Its sexy. I like.
Candi: It's not mine. It's Nic's
Jhené: oh who from?
She asked as she stood going through her handbag
Nicki eyed Candi
Nicki: Are you heading out?
Jhené: yeah have to go meet with my dad. So who's the *looks at Candi* box from?
Nicki: I dont know there's know return address but this one insisted on opening it
She said eyeing Candi
Jhené: Is there a name?
Candi: yeah Kela Harrison
Jhené: Oh?
She said looking at Nicki. Nicki rolled her eyes
Jhené: Stamp?
She asked looking back at Candi
Candi: uh.. Florida
Jhené looked back at Nicki
Nicki: Are you gonna be gone for long?
She asked getting up as Jhené walked to the door. She turned around to face her
Jhené: Im not sure but I'll call you if Im going to be.
Nicki: Ok I love you
she said before kissing her
Jhené: Love you too.
She said then kissed her again and went out the door. Nicki hit Candi on the head as she walked past her and head to the kitchen
Candi: 5... 4... 3....
Nicki: CANDI!!
Candi: took you long enough
She said as she head to the kitchen
Nicki: What's all this
She asked before Candi could walk in properly
Candi: ask Kela
Nicki: dont even fucking start...
******
Jhené: hey did you get that info for me?
She asked the female on the other end of the phone call as she sat in the car outside the restaurant she was meeting with her dad
Female:Yes I did... Dr. Kela Harrison.
Jhené: what kind of doctor?
Female: Pediatrician. Born in Bridgetown Barbados lives in Miami Florida. Ooh and she's got a daughter Kaetarah Shahneek Williams. Cute lil thing good thing she doesnt look too much like her daddy. Im emailing info to you right now
Jhené: wait.. Williams?? And does that include a number
Female: Mmmhm same Williams from that case I did. And yes. cell, house and work. Addresses too.
Jhené: ok thank you. We'll talk later
Female: Anytime. Later darling.
*****
When Jhené got home Candi had left and Nicki was nowhere downstairs so she head upstairs to look for her. As she got to the bedroom she could hear the shower running. She put her phone on the bed removed her jacket and walked into the bathroom.
Nicki: hey baby. Im almost done. Unless you wanna join me but then we might end up not leaving the house
She said talking above the sound of the shower running.
Jhené: where are we going?
Nicki turned the water off.
Nicki: out for drinks. Just me and you.
She said as she stepped out water running down her body and put her arms around Jhené. Jhené kissed her.
Jhené: Ok but after you get something to eat.
They kissed again
Nicki: you still mad at me?
Jhené: what made you think I was mad at you
Nicki: package
Jhené: look baby I trust you ok and with the way you behave in the bedroom *smiles* I know have absolutely nothing to worry about
Nicki blushed and giggled
Jhené: but I'm not comfortable with Doctor Harrison sending you shit when yall don't even know each other.
Nicki: wait... how you know she's a doctor... baby what did you do?
Jhené: I got some info that's all.
She kissed Nicki as she let go and began undressing
Nicki: got some info?
She asked as she got a towel
Jhené: yes. So later you can call doc up and find out about that box
Nicki: you got her number?
Jhené: numbers, addresses, kids name
Nicki stood looking at her with her mouth open as she stepped into the shower
Jhené: your welcome she said as she closed the door
Nicki: you're crazy
she said and walked out to the bedroom
Nicki: so who did you get this info from?
She asked as she sipped her fourth margarita
Jhené: friend of mine in Florida
Nicki: she FBI or something cause...?
Jhené: *laughs* No. She's a lawyer
Nicki: you probably got more information than you told me
Jhené opened the email on her phone and handed it to her
Nicki: wow! Pictures of her kid J?
Nicki shook her head.
Nicki: you really are crazy
Jhené: Im concerned. So are you going to call or do I have to?
Nicki: Now?!
Jhené: why not?
Nicki shook her head and took her phone out. She dialled the cell phone number from the email and put the phone to her ear
*In Florida*
Kela, Safaree and Tarah were in his car on their way to her home from the movies when her phone began ringing and startled Tarah waking her.
Kela: Hello
she answered as Safaree pulled into the driveway.
Nicki: Hello
She heard the baby crying in the background and a male voice saying "I'll get her"
Nicki: I'm sorry is it a bad time?
Kela: No it's ok. Who is this?
Nicki: Ok. It's Nicki well Onika since you had used my government, I received a packages from you. Does that ring a bell?
She said and then she heard his voice in the back ground
Safaree: She's in her bedroom and she needs changing are you getting out?
Kela: Yes I'll be in in a minute. Nicki about the package.. *looks at Safaree*
He shook his head, ran his hand over his face and asked her for the phone
Kela: hold a sec please
Nicki: ok
She handed it to him
Safaree: are you serious right now? how'd you get her number?
Nicki: Safare I-
Safaree: The package was from me ok. I just asked her to send it for me since she got back before me. If you don't want it you can throw them out It really doesnt matter.
Nicki: I never s-
Safaree: lose the number... Good bye Nicki
He said and hung up
Kela: you really didnt have to-
Safaree: I dont want talk about it right now.
He said as she got out the car
Kela: ok
He walked her to the door
Kela: Good night we had a really good time
She said and hugged him
Safaree: Good Night
He said as she locked the door
*Nicki and Jhené*
Nicki looking at Jhené speechless
Jhené: well?
She asked
Nicki: The package was from Safaree.
Jhené: oh ok. So she's his...
Nicki: I... I dont know. I really dont wanna get into it.
She said not looking very happy
Jhené: babe, did she say something to you?
Nicki: No. No she didnt. can.. can we go?
Jhené: sure.
Jhené took care of their bill and they left for home.
As they walked through the front door Nicki's phone vibrated in her pocket. She took it out and unlocked the screen then opened the message
I'm sorry I didn't let you know it was from me. I thought you would have figured after all I did tell you where I was. But now you know so you can lose her number and like I said if you dont want them you can throw them out. I just thought you'd like them especially the spices
She responded
Im not gonna throw them out Safaree I like them and thank you. So what she's your girlfriend?
He replied
Im happy Nic... That's all you need to know. Take care.
She sighed placed her phone back in her pocket and head up to the bedroom.
Jhené: you ok baby
She asked as she walked over to the bed. Nicki took her jacket off, her shoes, unzipped her dress and slid it down her body then got in bed beside Jhené and after placing her arms around her and burying her face in her neck she responded
Nicki: Im ok now.
*******
Friday, 24 May 2013
Chapter 31 --> Something New, Something Different
Safaree's POV
He sat on the beach looking out at the beautiful view of the Caribbean Sea. It was late evening and the sun was setting a half of it already hidden by the sea. He ignored the person who came and sat down next to him. By the perfume he could tell it was a female, probably that beautiful Bajan (Barbadian) from the beach cottage. He chose a beach house up on the hill because he didnt really want to be around people, but this evening he felt like sitting on the beach so he walked down hoping he would just be left alone. He could feel her eyes on him and he was hoping she'd stop staring. She didn't though, instead she chose to try talking to him
"This is such a beautiful view" She said. He wanted continue ignoring her but was unable to stop the words that escaped his lips. "yeah" he replied. "My name's Kela"
SB: Lloyd
Kela: How come your sitting out here all by yourself?
She asked but he didnt answer. Wasnt my name enough for you he thought to himself
"Kela!Kela!" He heard someone call from up the beach it was the voice of another female.
Kela: Hope to see you tomorrow Lloyd
She said as she got up.
SB: probably her girlfriend. you never know these days
He mumbled. When he looked back she was walking towards a woman standing a little way from her cottage. He was intrigued by her sun kissed skin, toned body, and bouncing crazy curls, he wanted to see her face. She was wearing a very cute knitted green dress with a very bright yellow bikini beneath it. He kept looking but she didnt look back. Minutes later he returned to his place. They had started setting up for a party that was happening on the beach that night, a party he wanted no part of.
He could hear the music, the laughter of the island people echoing through the trees as he sat in the living room of his temporary house. He had the phone in his hand with her number on the screen wondering if he should send the call or not. There was a knock on his door which startled him. He wasn't expecting anyone, he hadn't invited anyone so who could it be. He put the phone down and walked over to the door. He could see a female through the glass in the middle with her back to the door but he knew those curls on her head he had seen them earlier today. She turned as the door swung open a beautiful smile plastered on her face.
Kela: Hi
SB: hi
Kela: Missed you at the party so I thought I'd come see if you're ok
SB: I'm good thanks.
Kela: uhhhh ok.
They stood just looking at each other
Kela: oh I uh.. I brought drinks
She said and held up a six pack of miller light
Kela: have a drink with me... just one. we don't even have to talk if you don't want to and I'll leave you alone right after.
He ran his hand over his face
SB: ok... come in.
They were sitting quietly out back on their second beer each. They hadnt exchanged a word since they spoke at the door.
SB: what do you do?
He said and looked at her
SB: I mean you know for a living
Kela: I'm a doctor. A pediatrician to be exact.
SB: ok cool. Where do u stay at?
Kela: Well I'm living in Florida but from my accent I bet you can tell Im from Barbados
SB: yeah i could
Kela: so how come you're here alone?
SB: long story
Kela: things not going so well with you and her?
He took a sip of his beer.
SB: her who?
Kela: Nicki... I mean you use to be around her all the time now its that Jhené chick
He was quiet.
SB:... you know who I am?
Kela: Takes a lot to know someone. So no I don't know who you are but I know your face, a little about you, your name and that you were always around Nicki. It's said you too were dating but I'm not one for rumors.
He looked at her.
Kela: I can tell you this. Im not one of those little groupie chicks hanging around cause your famous and Im not fishing for information like the press. I just thought you could use some company so we don't even have to talk about you and Nicki anymore. We could talk about.. I dont know trees or something *smiles*
SB: *chuckles* Its cool we don't have to change the subject.
Kela: ok
SB: so what do you wanna know?
Kela: Its not about what I want its about what you want to talk about. You seen to have a few things on your mind.
SB: you sure you're not a shrink too?
She laughed
Kela: well I did minor in psych sooooo
He chuckled
SB: ... yeah Nic and I used to date but its been a good while since we've been apart. She's dating someone else. I was dating someone else.
Kela: so the rumors are true
SB: some of them. what's the latest?
Kela: That she's dating Jhené, that you and Shanell were together, that... yeah
He looked at her and her smile had gone. Did she know? Was it in the press and if so how did they even find out?
SB: That??
Kela: so are Nicki and Jhené together?
SB: *looks away* yeah they are and the other rumor was true too
Kela: what happened?
He didnt answer but she could see him getting angry. She got up, put her beer down and sat beside him rubbing his back
Kela: It helps to talk about it
He still didnt say anything and she just sat quietly with him for a while.
Kela: Ok how about we talk about so-
SB: she had an abortion!! I didnt even know she was pregnant, she didnt even give me a chance to change her mind. I mean if she wasnt ready then fine I understand but that was my baby too. I would have taken care of it.
Kela: I... I'm so sorry.
She said and pulled him in for a hug as she saw him tearing up.
*****
She came home exhausted from the studio and rehearsals for her mini tour that was coming up.. As soon as she got through the front door she was hit by candles that were lit making a path up the stairs, she smiled, placed her bag and her keys on the mini table at the entrance, took her jacket off and made her way up the stairs following the pathway. The candles lead to her room and into her bathroom where the tub was filled with warm water, candles around it lit and the petals of the Japanese Cherry Blossom tree afloat, there scent filing the room. She felt hands wrap around her waist and a kiss on her neck
Jhené: are you gonna get in or just stare at the tub the whole time
She asked with a giggle. Nicki smiled
Nicki: Babe you didnt need to do all this
Her voice was a bit hoarse.
Jhené: yes I did. You've been working very hard and you've been really worried about Safaree. I want you to relax a bit. Sooo, you're gonna get in and when you're done I'm gonna to give you a massage, then we're gonna eat and we can chill and watch a movie or something.
Nicki: a massage?
Jhené: mmhm. did a little research and learned a few things on my trip. By the way I cleared your schedule for tomorrow so no need to worry about getting up early
Nicki: you're joking right?
Jhené: Nope! Get in.
she said as she walked out closing the door behind her and not allowing Nicki to respond
Nicki: Thank you... I feel so much better. The massage was everything, you sure you just learnt that?
Jhené: mmhmm, just for you *kisses her neck* Ima take the dishes down to the kithchen ok
Nicki: mmhm
She said in a sleepy voice. When Jhené got back Nicki had already fallen asleep. She got in and pulled the covers up over them.
9:45 am Jhené was already up and down in the kitchen looking after breakfast. Nicki groaned and as her phone vibrated on the bedside table, she reached around grabbing it and with eyes still closed she answered. Her eyes bucked when his voice boomed through the speakers
Nicki: SAFAREE?!!!
Jhené was on a phone call in the kitchen, a cup of tea next to her on the counter when Nicki walked in
Jhené: Crystal, forward that email to me and I'll get back to you as soon as I check it.... Good Morning
Nicki: morning
Jhené: would you like some tea?
Nicki: sure
She walked over and got a cup from the cupboard
Jhené: was really expecting you to be in a better mood. What's on your mind?
Nicki:.... he called
Jhené: he?
Nicki: Safaree, he just called me
she said looking over at her.
Jhené: is he ok? where is he?
Nicki: says he's ok, he didnt really sound it after we spoke for a bit. He asked me not to tell anyone where he is
Jhené: I can respect that.... well is he coming back?
Nicki: he wouldnt say. Just asked me to tell his mom and everyone else that he's ok then he said he had to go
Jhené: oh... well at least he called now we know he's ok. Maybe he just needs some more time
she said as she sat down by Nicki
Nicki: yeah maybe
She took a sip of her tea
*****
They sat talking and laughing hard, enjoying each other's company as the rain came down
SB: So how come you're single? I mean that's very rare when you come across gorgeous women these days
Kela: I... need a break from.. the lies, the cheating, I need some me time. Some time to take care of mine. Need time to discover who I am again and then I can go from there. I wanna meet some great people, build a few great friendships then later I can worry about dating again.
SB: what did he do?
Kela: cheated. on more than one occasions, lied about it and walked out on us
SB: us?
Kela: my daughter and I
SB: how old is she?
Kela: a year and 2 months. he left when she was just 5 weeks
SB: wow... well for the record you deserve better than a nigga that would walk out on his kid.
She smiled.
SB: she the one I saw someone holding as you walked up the other day?
Kela: yes.. that's my sugar ball *giggles*
SB: I'd like to meet her
She looked at him
SB: if that's ok with you
Kela: ummm yes sure its fine with me.
*later that eve*
The rain had stopped and he walked her back to her room.
SB: I really had a great day thanks to you.
Kela: hey it was nothing... you're a great guy. haven't been able to talk to a guy lately without him tryna get with me.
SB: pigs... but thank you.
Kela: *smiles* k lets go in see if Tarah is still awake
SB: Tarah?
Kela: Its short for Kaetarah. That's my middle name
SB: I like it. It's beautiful.
He said as they walked through the doors.
****
He sat on the beach looking out at the beautiful view of the Caribbean Sea. It was late evening and the sun was setting a half of it already hidden by the sea. He ignored the person who came and sat down next to him. By the perfume he could tell it was a female, probably that beautiful Bajan (Barbadian) from the beach cottage. He chose a beach house up on the hill because he didnt really want to be around people, but this evening he felt like sitting on the beach so he walked down hoping he would just be left alone. He could feel her eyes on him and he was hoping she'd stop staring. She didn't though, instead she chose to try talking to him
"This is such a beautiful view" She said. He wanted continue ignoring her but was unable to stop the words that escaped his lips. "yeah" he replied. "My name's Kela"
SB: Lloyd
Kela: How come your sitting out here all by yourself?
She asked but he didnt answer. Wasnt my name enough for you he thought to himself
"Kela!Kela!" He heard someone call from up the beach it was the voice of another female.
Kela: Hope to see you tomorrow Lloyd
She said as she got up.
SB: probably her girlfriend. you never know these days
He mumbled. When he looked back she was walking towards a woman standing a little way from her cottage. He was intrigued by her sun kissed skin, toned body, and bouncing crazy curls, he wanted to see her face. She was wearing a very cute knitted green dress with a very bright yellow bikini beneath it. He kept looking but she didnt look back. Minutes later he returned to his place. They had started setting up for a party that was happening on the beach that night, a party he wanted no part of.
He could hear the music, the laughter of the island people echoing through the trees as he sat in the living room of his temporary house. He had the phone in his hand with her number on the screen wondering if he should send the call or not. There was a knock on his door which startled him. He wasn't expecting anyone, he hadn't invited anyone so who could it be. He put the phone down and walked over to the door. He could see a female through the glass in the middle with her back to the door but he knew those curls on her head he had seen them earlier today. She turned as the door swung open a beautiful smile plastered on her face.
Kela: Hi
SB: hi
Kela: Missed you at the party so I thought I'd come see if you're ok
SB: I'm good thanks.
Kela: uhhhh ok.
They stood just looking at each other
Kela: oh I uh.. I brought drinks
She said and held up a six pack of miller light
Kela: have a drink with me... just one. we don't even have to talk if you don't want to and I'll leave you alone right after.
He ran his hand over his face
SB: ok... come in.
They were sitting quietly out back on their second beer each. They hadnt exchanged a word since they spoke at the door.
SB: what do you do?
He said and looked at her
SB: I mean you know for a living
Kela: I'm a doctor. A pediatrician to be exact.
SB: ok cool. Where do u stay at?
Kela: Well I'm living in Florida but from my accent I bet you can tell Im from Barbados
SB: yeah i could
Kela: so how come you're here alone?
SB: long story
Kela: things not going so well with you and her?
He took a sip of his beer.
SB: her who?
Kela: Nicki... I mean you use to be around her all the time now its that Jhené chick
He was quiet.
SB:... you know who I am?
Kela: Takes a lot to know someone. So no I don't know who you are but I know your face, a little about you, your name and that you were always around Nicki. It's said you too were dating but I'm not one for rumors.
He looked at her.
Kela: I can tell you this. Im not one of those little groupie chicks hanging around cause your famous and Im not fishing for information like the press. I just thought you could use some company so we don't even have to talk about you and Nicki anymore. We could talk about.. I dont know trees or something *smiles*
SB: *chuckles* Its cool we don't have to change the subject.
Kela: ok
SB: so what do you wanna know?
Kela: Its not about what I want its about what you want to talk about. You seen to have a few things on your mind.
SB: you sure you're not a shrink too?
She laughed
Kela: well I did minor in psych sooooo
He chuckled
SB: ... yeah Nic and I used to date but its been a good while since we've been apart. She's dating someone else. I was dating someone else.
Kela: so the rumors are true
SB: some of them. what's the latest?
Kela: That she's dating Jhené, that you and Shanell were together, that... yeah
He looked at her and her smile had gone. Did she know? Was it in the press and if so how did they even find out?
SB: That??
Kela: so are Nicki and Jhené together?
SB: *looks away* yeah they are and the other rumor was true too
Kela: what happened?
He didnt answer but she could see him getting angry. She got up, put her beer down and sat beside him rubbing his back
Kela: It helps to talk about it
He still didnt say anything and she just sat quietly with him for a while.
Kela: Ok how about we talk about so-
SB: she had an abortion!! I didnt even know she was pregnant, she didnt even give me a chance to change her mind. I mean if she wasnt ready then fine I understand but that was my baby too. I would have taken care of it.
Kela: I... I'm so sorry.
She said and pulled him in for a hug as she saw him tearing up.
*****
She came home exhausted from the studio and rehearsals for her mini tour that was coming up.. As soon as she got through the front door she was hit by candles that were lit making a path up the stairs, she smiled, placed her bag and her keys on the mini table at the entrance, took her jacket off and made her way up the stairs following the pathway. The candles lead to her room and into her bathroom where the tub was filled with warm water, candles around it lit and the petals of the Japanese Cherry Blossom tree afloat, there scent filing the room. She felt hands wrap around her waist and a kiss on her neck
Jhené: are you gonna get in or just stare at the tub the whole time
She asked with a giggle. Nicki smiled
Nicki: Babe you didnt need to do all this
Her voice was a bit hoarse.
Jhené: yes I did. You've been working very hard and you've been really worried about Safaree. I want you to relax a bit. Sooo, you're gonna get in and when you're done I'm gonna to give you a massage, then we're gonna eat and we can chill and watch a movie or something.
Nicki: a massage?
Jhené: mmhm. did a little research and learned a few things on my trip. By the way I cleared your schedule for tomorrow so no need to worry about getting up early
Nicki: you're joking right?
Jhené: Nope! Get in.
she said as she walked out closing the door behind her and not allowing Nicki to respond
Nicki: Thank you... I feel so much better. The massage was everything, you sure you just learnt that?
Jhené: mmhmm, just for you *kisses her neck* Ima take the dishes down to the kithchen ok
Nicki: mmhm
She said in a sleepy voice. When Jhené got back Nicki had already fallen asleep. She got in and pulled the covers up over them.
9:45 am Jhené was already up and down in the kitchen looking after breakfast. Nicki groaned and as her phone vibrated on the bedside table, she reached around grabbing it and with eyes still closed she answered. Her eyes bucked when his voice boomed through the speakers
Nicki: SAFAREE?!!!
Jhené was on a phone call in the kitchen, a cup of tea next to her on the counter when Nicki walked in
Jhené: Crystal, forward that email to me and I'll get back to you as soon as I check it.... Good Morning
Nicki: morning
Jhené: would you like some tea?
Nicki: sure
She walked over and got a cup from the cupboard
Jhené: was really expecting you to be in a better mood. What's on your mind?
Nicki:.... he called
Jhené: he?
Nicki: Safaree, he just called me
she said looking over at her.
Jhené: is he ok? where is he?
Nicki: says he's ok, he didnt really sound it after we spoke for a bit. He asked me not to tell anyone where he is
Jhené: I can respect that.... well is he coming back?
Nicki: he wouldnt say. Just asked me to tell his mom and everyone else that he's ok then he said he had to go
Jhené: oh... well at least he called now we know he's ok. Maybe he just needs some more time
she said as she sat down by Nicki
Nicki: yeah maybe
She took a sip of her tea
*****
They sat talking and laughing hard, enjoying each other's company as the rain came down
SB: So how come you're single? I mean that's very rare when you come across gorgeous women these days
Kela: I... need a break from.. the lies, the cheating, I need some me time. Some time to take care of mine. Need time to discover who I am again and then I can go from there. I wanna meet some great people, build a few great friendships then later I can worry about dating again.
SB: what did he do?
Kela: cheated. on more than one occasions, lied about it and walked out on us
SB: us?
Kela: my daughter and I
SB: how old is she?
Kela: a year and 2 months. he left when she was just 5 weeks
SB: wow... well for the record you deserve better than a nigga that would walk out on his kid.
She smiled.
SB: she the one I saw someone holding as you walked up the other day?
Kela: yes.. that's my sugar ball *giggles*
SB: I'd like to meet her
She looked at him
SB: if that's ok with you
Kela: ummm yes sure its fine with me.
*later that eve*
The rain had stopped and he walked her back to her room.
SB: I really had a great day thanks to you.
Kela: hey it was nothing... you're a great guy. haven't been able to talk to a guy lately without him tryna get with me.
SB: pigs... but thank you.
Kela: *smiles* k lets go in see if Tarah is still awake
SB: Tarah?
Kela: Its short for Kaetarah. That's my middle name
SB: I like it. It's beautiful.
He said as they walked through the doors.
**
SB: how are you?
Kela: tired just got in like half an hour ago and Tarah is fussy.. How come you're calling from a private number?
SB: new phone... maybe she wants to go out a bit. you know how we use to walk her down by the beach. Maybe if you just take her for a drive or something
Kela: well mommy cant handle that right now
SB: that's too bad then. Wonder if she wants just me and her to go
Kela: *giggles* mmm that'd be sweet but she's too young to be going out with older men
SB: *laughs* aye we'd just be going out for a snack but anyway guess that means mommy's coming too? I really think she could use a nice drive for a couple blocks and maybe some icecream
Kela: we would love that but you're not here to take us anyway soooo...
SB: open the door
Kela: Safaree dont play
SB: open the door
Kela: we all know you're not in Miami... are you?
SB: walking back to my car
Kela: aahhh
she screamed in excitement as she ran to the door with the baby on her hip. She swung it open and halfway down the driveway he turned around
SB: oh? after you done had a nigga standing out here
Kela: I didnt... you didnt tell me ... ugh!! *laughs* I left you in Jamaica 3 weeks ago dude
SB: yeah and I did some thinking, decided Miami may just be the place to start over so I got to work
He said taking the baby who was stretching for him
Kela: you're moving here?
SB: I moved here abooooout day before yesterday *smiles*. What you say coonette, you think its cool uncle moved closer to you?
Kela: you'ere serious, arent you?
SB: wait.. arent we suppose to be going out
Kela: you're freaking serious
SB: *covers Tarah's ears* dnt curse... *looks at baby* guess we're leaving mommy
He said walking towards the car, then he stopped
SB: car seat munchkin.... Is it in your car?
he asked her
Kela: I'll get it
she said with a big smile still not able to grasp the fact that he really moved to Miami.
****
Candi: Nic you have a package
Nicki: just sign for it
she shouted from upstairs. Candi closed the door and inspected the brown box. Name but no return address just a stamp letting her know it was coming from Florida. She walked into Nicki's room box in hand and a puzzled look on her face
Candi: Kela Harrison... Who's that?
Nicki: NO clue! return address?
Candi: Nope but it's from Florida
Nicki: Florida??
Candi: yeah, that's what I thought. It's kinda heavy. Opening?
Nicki: We dont even know who its from or have an idea of what's in there
Candi shook the box
Candi: well it's not a bomb
Nicki: -___- no. Bring it back downstairs I'll have security open it when I''m ready
Candi: seriou--
Nicki: Candice please!
Shanell: How much longer do I need to stay in this hospital? I have work to get done
She said through gritted teeth with her fingers tangled in her hair
Wanita: work is the reason you in here. you've been doing too much and I keep telling you to slow down.
Shanell: D dont start!
Wanita: dont start what sis? All I ever do is tell you the truth
Shanell: why does every conversation we have have to come down to this?
Wanita: because he needs to know. you could have lost the babies. All the stressing and overworking helped cause that.. Now you're back here because your cervix was opening. you're not even near due. if he was here-
Shanell: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW?!!!
Wanita: yes!!!!!!!!!!! you know things would be different.
Shanell: yeah well he's not
Wanita: but that's all on you....
Shanell wiped at the tears on her cheek..
tbc
Sunday, 28 April 2013
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OK so I know y'all are waiting on me to post :) buuuut, I've been studying my little head off. I will post the weekend after my exam. My exam is on Wednesday morning :) (WISH ME LUCK). I'm invigilating exams Wednesday afternoon and all day Thursday so hopefully I can finish up and give you guys two posts on Sunday. OK? OK :)
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Monday, 15 April 2013
#TimeMachine3
She was fighting the tears as she drove home. Wayne had told he he wanted no part in telling Safaree about RiRi but that she needed to do it right away. He also told her that if she wanted to find where Safaree in she needed to go to Nicki and she new damn well that was not going to go down well.
When she got home RiRi was a sleep in her booster seat. She sighed and wiped at the tears that had finally made their escape and ran down her cheeks. As she got inside she used her foot to close the door., shifted Ri to her left hand and set the alarm then made her way up the stairs. She made it to her room and put Ri in the middle of the bed before getting her phone from her bag, then her purse as she searched for the card he had written Nicki's number on for her. She typed the first two number and she couldnt type anymore. Her hands began shaking, her heart racing, she dropped the phone on the bed and her face fell into her palms. She knew she had made the biggest and stupidest mistake of her life by leaving him and telling him she had an abortion. Now she had to tell him he has a five year old daughter. She took a deep breath and turned onto her back. She took the phone up and dialed the number putting the phone to her ear as it rang, There was an answer at the third ring
Nicki: hello... hello
she sounded like she had just woken up from a nap,
Nicki: *sucks teeth* look I aint got the time for games
she said before hanging up. The words wouldnt come out when Shanell tried to respond and she couldnt find the courage to call back.
It was a rainy morning and she stood by the stove making pancakes as Ri sat sipping warm milk at the table. Her phone rang and Ri was quick to answer
RiRi: hello, good morning
she said with a big smile as if the person on the other end could see her
Nicki: hello... who is this?
RiRi: who is this ??
RiRi asked with a giggle. Shanell flipped the pancakes as she looked at Ri suspiciously. Her aunt or grandma usually did that when they called and she answered so she thought it was one of them
Nicki: Im Nicki.. What's your name?
RiRi: Aaria Shae-Elle Samuels
The fact that she just told someone her full name meant that wasnt her grandma or aunt so Shanell quickly turned the stove off and rushed around the counter
Shanell: RiRi who is that? *grabs phone*
RiRi: Nicki
She responded getting ready to cry because of the way her mom had spoken to her and grabbed the phone from her hands.
Shanell: *sigh* mommy's sorry pumpkin.. its just you know I dont like you telling strangers your full name.
She hugged her all this time not realizing she hadnt ended the call. Nicki was on the other end listening. She heard the voice and there was something familiar about it so she hung up and went to check the number out.
1:30 pm exactly when she received the text message from Nicki
"I would strongly suggest you answer the phone when you see me calling you back"
she ran her hand through her hair. She was sitting watching ri play in the tub. She had asked for some extra time to play with her bath toys.
Shanell: 10 more minutes Aaria
she shook her head and the phone began to ring
Shanell: hello
Nicki: that lil girl had better be your niece and if she's not it BETTER be a damn coincidence that her last name is Samuels. How old is she?? START TALKING!
Shanell: she's... not my niece and she's 5 years old....
OOOHHHHH OOOHHHHH OHHH lmaooooooooooooo Shiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!
When she got home RiRi was a sleep in her booster seat. She sighed and wiped at the tears that had finally made their escape and ran down her cheeks. As she got inside she used her foot to close the door., shifted Ri to her left hand and set the alarm then made her way up the stairs. She made it to her room and put Ri in the middle of the bed before getting her phone from her bag, then her purse as she searched for the card he had written Nicki's number on for her. She typed the first two number and she couldnt type anymore. Her hands began shaking, her heart racing, she dropped the phone on the bed and her face fell into her palms. She knew she had made the biggest and stupidest mistake of her life by leaving him and telling him she had an abortion. Now she had to tell him he has a five year old daughter. She took a deep breath and turned onto her back. She took the phone up and dialed the number putting the phone to her ear as it rang, There was an answer at the third ring
Nicki: hello... hello
she sounded like she had just woken up from a nap,
Nicki: *sucks teeth* look I aint got the time for games
she said before hanging up. The words wouldnt come out when Shanell tried to respond and she couldnt find the courage to call back.
It was a rainy morning and she stood by the stove making pancakes as Ri sat sipping warm milk at the table. Her phone rang and Ri was quick to answer
RiRi: hello, good morning
she said with a big smile as if the person on the other end could see her
Nicki: hello... who is this?
RiRi: who is this ??
RiRi asked with a giggle. Shanell flipped the pancakes as she looked at Ri suspiciously. Her aunt or grandma usually did that when they called and she answered so she thought it was one of them
Nicki: Im Nicki.. What's your name?
RiRi: Aaria Shae-Elle Samuels
The fact that she just told someone her full name meant that wasnt her grandma or aunt so Shanell quickly turned the stove off and rushed around the counter
Shanell: RiRi who is that? *grabs phone*
RiRi: Nicki
She responded getting ready to cry because of the way her mom had spoken to her and grabbed the phone from her hands.
Shanell: *sigh* mommy's sorry pumpkin.. its just you know I dont like you telling strangers your full name.
She hugged her all this time not realizing she hadnt ended the call. Nicki was on the other end listening. She heard the voice and there was something familiar about it so she hung up and went to check the number out.
1:30 pm exactly when she received the text message from Nicki
"I would strongly suggest you answer the phone when you see me calling you back"
she ran her hand through her hair. She was sitting watching ri play in the tub. She had asked for some extra time to play with her bath toys.
Shanell: 10 more minutes Aaria
she shook her head and the phone began to ring
Shanell: hello
Nicki: that lil girl had better be your niece and if she's not it BETTER be a damn coincidence that her last name is Samuels. How old is she?? START TALKING!
Shanell: she's... not my niece and she's 5 years old....
OOOHHHHH OOOHHHHH OHHH lmaooooooooooooo Shiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!
Saturday, 23 March 2013
#TimeMachine2
She looked back at her baby girl pouting in the back seat pouting. "what's wrong RiRi?" she didnt respond she kept glancing at her in the rear view mirror until they got to the house. When they got inside Aaria went straight for the stairs and went up to her room. She couldnt understand. She was fine this morning before she went to daycare. Her mom would sent her to day care on days she had to go to the studio. She put her bags down and went up to check on her. She was sitting by her window hugging her favorite doll. She walked over and sat by her in her little chair. "Aaria what's wrong?" She didnt answer? "baby you have to tell mommy so she can fix it" "mommy do you love me?" "of course mommy loves you. you mean the world to me" "does my daddy love me too?" She was shocked. Where was this coming from all of a sudden. "of course he does baby he loves you to death" "where is my daddy? how come he doesnt live with us?" She didnt even know what to say for the first time her daughter had asked her questions and left her speechless. How could she tell her little girl that her father doesnt know she exists. " baby you never asked about daddy before did something happen?" "Asia says my daddy dont live with us cause I'm ugly and he doesnt love me" She began to sniff as a tear ran down her little cheek " *sigh* baby you know that's not true. You are beautiful inside and out. I tell you that everyday and your dad not living with us doesnt mean that he doesnt love you" it just means mommy was fucking stupid and fucked it all up when she found out she was pregnant she thought "can I go see my daddy?" fuck why the fuck now I swear I could strangle that little bitch at that daycare "tell you what. I'll call and speak with him ok" "ok" she said as she wiped at her face. Her mom picked her up and stood holding her as she looked out the window.
She was at the studio waiting on Wayne to come by to see her Aaria was with her sitting inside playing a Dora game on her ipad. She had told him she wanted to speak to him about something but not what. She told RiRi she would be back in a few and went out front to get some fresh air. As soon as she walked out the door there was Wayne's car driving in. Her palms were sweating. He walked over and hugged her "why do you like so scared?" She looked away "I have to tell you something and I'm not sure... how you're gonna react" "It's that serious?" "More serious than you think" "how about we go inside then?"
"umm no Can we just talk out here please" "ok" she took a deep breath and closed her eyes "Ima just come out and say it" "ok when-" "I have a daughter she's inside, the time I told you i needed away was because i was pregnant I know I should have told you but I couldnt I didnt want her father finding out" he stood there in shock "what?" "Wayne just... come on" she lead him inside and to where RiRi was sat. Wayne looked at Aaria, back at her mom then at RiRi again "are you fucking kidding me right now?" "mommy he said a curse word" Aaria said staring Wayne in the face with a pout. "wait... that's really your kid?" "Im sorry i didnt tell you" "nah man.. how you do me like that? she's like 5" "Im four nd a half" Aaria blurted out then went back to her game. "man i cant even believe this man. who else knows" "my mom, my sister, owner of her daycare" Wayne shook his head "so why now? why'd have you just decided to tell me?" "she's asked about her dad I dont know what to do" "what does that have to do with me?" he asked pointing at himself with both hands. "I have no contact with him I need your help" "how would I have contact with her father?" she dead faced him "wait... you said you took a break because you were pregnant and..." his eyes got wide and he looked at Aaria again and shook his head "I told him I had a you know what when he found out" she said not wanting o say abortion infront of her daughter. She knew the questions wouldnt end when they got home. Wayne took a seat and pulled answered his phone that was ringing. It was his daughter asking if the driver could take her to get something to eat he told her to come get the money then hung up. "was that Reginae?" "yeah she going to get food" "who's going with her?" " bodyguard and the driver why?" "I'd send RiRi" just then Nae walked in with a big smile "Hi aunty" she said hugging Shanell "hey baby" "awe who's baby?" she asked looking at Aaria who sat pouting cause she was hugging her mom "what are you going to get to eat?" her dad asked changing the subject "wings, some cheesy fries and orange juice. so who's baby" "do you wanna take her with you you can just get her something to eat too" Shanell asked "sure. if she'll come" "RiRi do you wanna go get something to eat?" she shook her head yes. "are you gonna come too?" Ri asked "No im gonna stay with uncle Wayne and talk" she poked her dimple as she seemed to be thinking about it "I have to go with her?" she asked pointing at Reginae "yes baby. its ok if you dont want to though" "no its otay" When they were out the door Wayne went right back to their convo "see this the problem with ya'll I never know about shit till it needs fixing. How do you propose you tell Safaree about this lil girl after you done told him you had an abortion?" she didnt know what to say./
Chapter 30 --> Get Away
As she opened the front door Lauren stepped past her.
Lauren: what the fuck Nicki?
Nicki: as you can see my door is still open so if you're coming in here with that bullshit about why I shouldn't have told Safaree you can leave. I've heard enough of it.
Lauren: Nicki come on
Nicki: Laur he deserved to know
Lauren: and I'm not arguing with you on that. I wanted to tell him myself but I didnt cause it wasnt my place it wasnt for me to do.
Nicki slammed th front door and head for the stairs
Lauren: I got a call today from his sister. Shanell had the abortion.
She stopped in her place on the stairs. She truly felt hurt for him. She knew that's something that will rip him apart and she just stood there for a while before she took another step. Lauren called to her and she stopped again
Nicki: what Laur?
Lauren: Go see him. Talk to him. he needs... a friend.
Nicki: so why don't you go see him
Lauren: you know he's not gonna want to see me.
Nicki: Ha! and you think he's gonna want to see me?!
Lauren: will you at least try
She asked looking up at her best-friend.
Nicki: lock the door on your way out
She responded and turned continuing up the stairs. Lauren sighed as she turned to leave.
When Jhené got home Nicki in the living room writing. She had her headphones over her ear listening to a beat as she wrote in her notebook. She closed the door, put her bag by the stairs and walked over to her. She gave her a kiss on the forehead
Jhené: hey baby
She said then head for the kitchen. Nicki had totally ignored her but she knew that's how she was when she was writing. It wasnt until after she had ate showered and was laying in bed that she actual felt like something was wrong she walked down to the living room to where she was sitting before but she was no longer there. She walked around looking for her but didnt find her anywhere. She was in the kitchen and notice the glass doors that lead out to the back were open. She walked out and noticed her sitting on one of the lounge chairs out by the pool. She walked out to her with her arms crossed. Nicki had her eyes closed
Jhené: are you ok?
Nicki: yeah I'm good
Jhené: you gonna come inside
Nicki: yea in a bit
Jhené rolled her eyes and went back inside. She knew her behavior had to do with this whole Safaree Shanell issue.
Nicki came to bed about an hour after Jhené had spoken to her downstairs. She walked in layed down and turned her back to Jhené.
Jhené: You know Im getting tired of you moping around about him
Nicki: what??
She said turning around
Nicki: Im not moping over Safaree!
Jhené: then what the fuck do you call it?!
She yelled. She looked away and took a deep breath
Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!
She said hitting the bed as her tears ran down her cheek. After crying for what seemed like over an hour she pulled her self together. She got up went to the bathroom and washed her face. She pat her face dry and stood looking at her self in the mirror. She took a deep breath then walked out the bathroom to go find Jhené.
When she got to the guest bedroom the overhead light was off and she had candles lit around the room. Vanilla scented candles. Jhené was on her back at the foot of the bed blowing smoke from her mouth, a lit cigar in her hand hanging off the bed above an ash tray that was placed on the floor. Nicki walked over and took the cigar from between her fingers then crushed it in the ash tray. She straddled her hips and pinned her hands above her head Jhené turned her head to the side.
Nicki: you don't smoke... look at me
she said with a hoarse voice. Jhené sighed then turned to look up at her
Nicki: I'm over him. I see him as a friend nothing more ok
She didnt respond
Nicki: ok?
Jhené: ok
Nicki: It's just... *sigh* with everything that happened with my mom I just... Im tired. I want everything to be ok.
She said tearing up again
Nicki: Yeah I havnt been ok with Safaree being with Shanell but only because he's my best friend and I do care about him. I dont think she's th right girl for him.
Jhené: but baby that's not your decision to make. He has to be able to choose who he wants to be with.
Nicki: I know that.... The fact that she found out she was pregnant and aborted his baby just makes it all worst. I just, I know he's hurting.
Jhené: and Im not saying you can't care or feel for him in that aspect but not to the point where I feel like Im just going through my day with you here but not really here.
Nicki: I really am sorry baby. Promise I'll change my attitude.
She said as she bent and kissed her.
Nicki: I love you
She said in a soft voice
Jhené: I love you too you know that
Nicki: but...
Jhené: but nothing.
Nicki: you still dont think I'm being completely honest about my feelings...
Jhené just looked at her
Nicki: baby I dont play games when it comes to my feeling. Yes I love Safaree, he's my best friend always will be. I told you that before, but that's it. Who's arms do I go to bed in at nights? Who's arms do I wake up in in the mornings? Who is it that I can't sleep without? I only want you. Just you.
Jhené ran her finger across Nicki's lips and she kissed them. She then pulled her in for a kiss. They stayed cuddled with each other for the whole night. Jhené didn't close her eyes one bit. She stayed watching Nicki sleep as she stroked her hair.
****
Neeqa: Safaree
Shaneeqa called outside his bedroom door but he didnt answer. it had been a week and he hadnt come out, not even to eat and if he did eat it was when she wasnt around.
Neeqa: Safaree!! *sigh* you can't stay in there forever
She said again before walking off. She had to get to work . Later when she got home his door was open but he wasnt home. She tried his phone but got his voice mail. She tried Lauren, Candi all the Vaks but no one had seen him. She tried their mom but she hadnt seen him either. She tried Nicki but she didnt answer her phone so she left a message. Later she got a text back to let her know she hadnt seen him. She went through stuff in his room for a clue as to where he could have gone but there was nothing. His car keys were on the bedside table but his clothes, shoes and jewellery were gone. She tried his phone one more time but it still went straight to voice mail. He had left without telling her a word.
****
Candi: hey girlie I missed you.
She said as she hugged Nicki. They meeting up to have lunch then head back to Nicki's place.
Nicki: I missed you more
Candi: so where'd you say wifey had to go?
Nicki: Italy with her dad for some business *sad face*
Candi: awwwee for how long
Nicki: a whole fucking week. Ima go crazy! Anyway enough about me. What's been going on with you? How'd you sort out th whole Tay and JB issue? Where is she by the way?
Candi: sorting out school stuff. JB and I are just fine. He... asked me to choose. It was either him or Tay, which just wasnt fair but I didnt wanna lose him so...
Nicki: So you and Tay broke up?
Candi: as far as he knows we are but-
Nicki: plainly put you never broke iit off with her and you're still fucking her behind his back
Candi: *covers face* i know its wrong I just can't stop. Im fucking addicted to her
Nicki: oh My g *laughs* What if he finds out?
Candi: He wont. Just make sure you dont say nothing. Now have you heard from Safaree?
Nicki: How you just gon change th subject? *shakes head* No I haven't. Have you?
Candi: no. I tried calling him, his phone doesnt work anymore. He changed the number or something.
Nicki: oh?... and no one's seen him still? Not even the Vaks?
Candi: not even his mother. Yo Shanell was so wrong for what she did though, on so many levels.
Nicki: I dont even wanna talk about her righth now to be quite fucking honest.
She took a sip of her pineapple juice and ate the last bit from her plate.
Candi: I just hope he doesnt go do anything stupid we all know his brain doesnt function the right way when he's upset.
When they got back to the house it was after four she went to change into something more comfy, grabbed her mac book and plopped down on the couch, Candi had gone to shower. She was just about to log in to twitter when she got a skype call from Jhené she was all smiles.
Nicki: arent youo suppose to be sleeping right now?
Jhené: oh so u dont wanna talk to me
Nicki: *giggles* of course I do baby
Jhené: how was ur day?
Nicki: * licks lips* was good.*licks lips again*
Jhené: *smiles* You miss me
Nicki: like you cant fucking imagine
She said biting her bottom lip
Jhené: I miss you too. Couldnt concentrate in my meeting today cause all i could think about was you.
Nicki: awe *smiles*
Jhené: It's so beautiful out here. I need to come back. Just me and you though
Nicki: Yaay I'd love that.
Jhené: *giggles* you home alone?
Nicki: Candi is here. she's upstairs though
Jhené: ok I want u to go up to ur room, lock the door and call me back.
Nicki: *laughs* ok freak
Candi was in the kitchen making a snack when Nicki walked in smiling
Candi: Oh yall naaaaaaaaaasty
Nicki burst into her little obnoxious laugh
Nicki: say that one mo time see if i dont put you out. why would you even be at my door listening?
Candi: Im nosy
She said and laughed as she bit into her sandwich
Candi: k what we gon do for the night?
she said while chewing
Nicki: watch scary movies
Candi: ha! you not bout to sleep beside me tonight! talkin bout watch scary movies
Nicki: this my house I sleep where I wanna!
She responded popping her on the forehead before running out the kitchen.
****
He stood looking out at his view.
He had no choice he needed to get away. he needed space, needed to think. What had he done to her for her to do something so cruel and unjust to him. He had done nothing but love her for the short period they were together. How could she abort his baby? He sat as his eyes began to get blurry with tears again and he closed them letting them run down his cheeks. She had killed something in him and as he sat thinking about what she had done he began to break down again.
Lauren: what the fuck Nicki?
Nicki: as you can see my door is still open so if you're coming in here with that bullshit about why I shouldn't have told Safaree you can leave. I've heard enough of it.
Lauren: Nicki come on
Nicki: Laur he deserved to know
Lauren: and I'm not arguing with you on that. I wanted to tell him myself but I didnt cause it wasnt my place it wasnt for me to do.
Nicki slammed th front door and head for the stairs
Lauren: I got a call today from his sister. Shanell had the abortion.
She stopped in her place on the stairs. She truly felt hurt for him. She knew that's something that will rip him apart and she just stood there for a while before she took another step. Lauren called to her and she stopped again
Nicki: what Laur?
Lauren: Go see him. Talk to him. he needs... a friend.
Nicki: so why don't you go see him
Lauren: you know he's not gonna want to see me.
Nicki: Ha! and you think he's gonna want to see me?!
Lauren: will you at least try
She asked looking up at her best-friend.
Nicki: lock the door on your way out
She responded and turned continuing up the stairs. Lauren sighed as she turned to leave.
When Jhené got home Nicki in the living room writing. She had her headphones over her ear listening to a beat as she wrote in her notebook. She closed the door, put her bag by the stairs and walked over to her. She gave her a kiss on the forehead
Jhené: hey baby
She said then head for the kitchen. Nicki had totally ignored her but she knew that's how she was when she was writing. It wasnt until after she had ate showered and was laying in bed that she actual felt like something was wrong she walked down to the living room to where she was sitting before but she was no longer there. She walked around looking for her but didnt find her anywhere. She was in the kitchen and notice the glass doors that lead out to the back were open. She walked out and noticed her sitting on one of the lounge chairs out by the pool. She walked out to her with her arms crossed. Nicki had her eyes closed
Jhené: are you ok?
Nicki: yeah I'm good
Jhené: you gonna come inside
Nicki: yea in a bit
Jhené rolled her eyes and went back inside. She knew her behavior had to do with this whole Safaree Shanell issue.
Nicki came to bed about an hour after Jhené had spoken to her downstairs. She walked in layed down and turned her back to Jhené.
Jhené: You know Im getting tired of you moping around about him
Nicki: what??
She said turning around
Nicki: Im not moping over Safaree!
Jhené: then what the fuck do you call it?!
She yelled. She looked away and took a deep breath
Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!
She said hitting the bed as her tears ran down her cheek. After crying for what seemed like over an hour she pulled her self together. She got up went to the bathroom and washed her face. She pat her face dry and stood looking at her self in the mirror. She took a deep breath then walked out the bathroom to go find Jhené.
When she got to the guest bedroom the overhead light was off and she had candles lit around the room. Vanilla scented candles. Jhené was on her back at the foot of the bed blowing smoke from her mouth, a lit cigar in her hand hanging off the bed above an ash tray that was placed on the floor. Nicki walked over and took the cigar from between her fingers then crushed it in the ash tray. She straddled her hips and pinned her hands above her head Jhené turned her head to the side.
Nicki: you don't smoke... look at me
she said with a hoarse voice. Jhené sighed then turned to look up at her
Nicki: I'm over him. I see him as a friend nothing more ok
She didnt respond
Nicki: ok?
Jhené: ok
Nicki: It's just... *sigh* with everything that happened with my mom I just... Im tired. I want everything to be ok.
She said tearing up again
Nicki: Yeah I havnt been ok with Safaree being with Shanell but only because he's my best friend and I do care about him. I dont think she's th right girl for him.
Jhené: but baby that's not your decision to make. He has to be able to choose who he wants to be with.
Nicki: I know that.... The fact that she found out she was pregnant and aborted his baby just makes it all worst. I just, I know he's hurting.
Jhené: and Im not saying you can't care or feel for him in that aspect but not to the point where I feel like Im just going through my day with you here but not really here.
Nicki: I really am sorry baby. Promise I'll change my attitude.
She said as she bent and kissed her.
Nicki: I love you
She said in a soft voice
Jhené: I love you too you know that
Nicki: but...
Jhené: but nothing.
Nicki: you still dont think I'm being completely honest about my feelings...
Jhené just looked at her
Nicki: baby I dont play games when it comes to my feeling. Yes I love Safaree, he's my best friend always will be. I told you that before, but that's it. Who's arms do I go to bed in at nights? Who's arms do I wake up in in the mornings? Who is it that I can't sleep without? I only want you. Just you.
Jhené ran her finger across Nicki's lips and she kissed them. She then pulled her in for a kiss. They stayed cuddled with each other for the whole night. Jhené didn't close her eyes one bit. She stayed watching Nicki sleep as she stroked her hair.
****
Neeqa: Safaree
Shaneeqa called outside his bedroom door but he didnt answer. it had been a week and he hadnt come out, not even to eat and if he did eat it was when she wasnt around.
Neeqa: Safaree!! *sigh* you can't stay in there forever
She said again before walking off. She had to get to work . Later when she got home his door was open but he wasnt home. She tried his phone but got his voice mail. She tried Lauren, Candi all the Vaks but no one had seen him. She tried their mom but she hadnt seen him either. She tried Nicki but she didnt answer her phone so she left a message. Later she got a text back to let her know she hadnt seen him. She went through stuff in his room for a clue as to where he could have gone but there was nothing. His car keys were on the bedside table but his clothes, shoes and jewellery were gone. She tried his phone one more time but it still went straight to voice mail. He had left without telling her a word.
****
Candi: hey girlie I missed you.
She said as she hugged Nicki. They meeting up to have lunch then head back to Nicki's place.
Nicki: I missed you more
Candi: so where'd you say wifey had to go?
Nicki: Italy with her dad for some business *sad face*
Candi: awwwee for how long
Nicki: a whole fucking week. Ima go crazy! Anyway enough about me. What's been going on with you? How'd you sort out th whole Tay and JB issue? Where is she by the way?
Candi: sorting out school stuff. JB and I are just fine. He... asked me to choose. It was either him or Tay, which just wasnt fair but I didnt wanna lose him so...
Nicki: So you and Tay broke up?
Candi: as far as he knows we are but-
Nicki: plainly put you never broke iit off with her and you're still fucking her behind his back
Candi: *covers face* i know its wrong I just can't stop. Im fucking addicted to her
Nicki: oh My g *laughs* What if he finds out?
Candi: He wont. Just make sure you dont say nothing. Now have you heard from Safaree?
Nicki: How you just gon change th subject? *shakes head* No I haven't. Have you?
Candi: no. I tried calling him, his phone doesnt work anymore. He changed the number or something.
Nicki: oh?... and no one's seen him still? Not even the Vaks?
Candi: not even his mother. Yo Shanell was so wrong for what she did though, on so many levels.
Nicki: I dont even wanna talk about her righth now to be quite fucking honest.
She took a sip of her pineapple juice and ate the last bit from her plate.
Candi: I just hope he doesnt go do anything stupid we all know his brain doesnt function the right way when he's upset.
When they got back to the house it was after four she went to change into something more comfy, grabbed her mac book and plopped down on the couch, Candi had gone to shower. She was just about to log in to twitter when she got a skype call from Jhené she was all smiles.
Nicki: arent youo suppose to be sleeping right now?
Jhené: oh so u dont wanna talk to me
Nicki: *giggles* of course I do baby
Jhené: how was ur day?
Nicki: * licks lips* was good.*licks lips again*
Jhené: *smiles* You miss me
Nicki: like you cant fucking imagine
She said biting her bottom lip
Jhené: I miss you too. Couldnt concentrate in my meeting today cause all i could think about was you.
Nicki: awe *smiles*
Jhené: It's so beautiful out here. I need to come back. Just me and you though
Nicki: Yaay I'd love that.
Jhené: *giggles* you home alone?
Nicki: Candi is here. she's upstairs though
Jhené: ok I want u to go up to ur room, lock the door and call me back.
Nicki: *laughs* ok freak
Candi was in the kitchen making a snack when Nicki walked in smiling
Candi: Oh yall naaaaaaaaaasty
Nicki burst into her little obnoxious laugh
Nicki: say that one mo time see if i dont put you out. why would you even be at my door listening?
Candi: Im nosy
She said and laughed as she bit into her sandwich
Candi: k what we gon do for the night?
she said while chewing
Nicki: watch scary movies
Candi: ha! you not bout to sleep beside me tonight! talkin bout watch scary movies
Nicki: this my house I sleep where I wanna!
She responded popping her on the forehead before running out the kitchen.
****
He stood looking out at his view.
Thursday, 14 March 2013
Snip! Snip!
Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
#TimeMachine1
Aaria
"Riri Grandma is going to be mad at me for those earrings" "they were big *smiles*" "yes they were" "I love my new pictures mommy" "do you wanna get them put in your room?" "yeeeeeeesss! and I wanna give everybody one" "remember we can only give a few people" "otay. Mommy may I have pizza for dinner?" "okay baby". They stopped by pizza hut and her mom bought her a small pizza with all the toppings she wanted; extra cheese, pineapples and pepperoni. Her mom took the first slice and she ate one while her mom drove. She was careful not to make a mess. They stopped at the supermarket so she could get snacks for Riri and regular grocery for the house. She put her shades and hat on before getting out and letting riri out from the back. Riri pulled the big bottle of laundry detergent to the cart "you're getting so strong" "yeah, look mommy I have muscles" "*gigggles* yes you do baby" "ok let's go get you cereal and we are ready to go".
By the time they got home Riri had three slices of pizza and a small bottle of Dasani and had fallen asleep in her booster seat. Her mom took her out first and brought her to the master bedroom then went back down to get the groceries from the car. When she was done she made sure all the doors were locked then went upstairs. She stripped Riri down to underwear, got her rag and cleaned up her face and hands and put on one of her Nicki t-shirts. She then changed into a T-shirt herself and climbed into bed pulling her baby girl close. "Is this what I almost gave up?" she asked just before she too fell asleep.
Monday, 4 March 2013
Chapter 29 --> How To Break A Man
Kept y'all waiting forever for this chapter I know y'all are gonna tell me is short -__-. Been REALLY busy sorry. I love y'all and I do hope you enjoy my short chapter. Excuse any misspellings or other typo's. I'm tired.
Nicki tried calling her again and as the phone rang Jhené looked at the screen and put it back down. Terrence's eyes met hers in the mirror
Terrence: J... just answer her
She sighed and caught the phone before it stopped ringing.
Jhené: yeah
Nicki: where are you?
Jhené: did you eat?
Nicki: no. where are you?
Jhené: baby you need to eat.
Nicki: you need to tell me where you are
Jhené: T's room getting my hair done
She heard Nicki sigh
Nicki: oh...
Jhené: I'll be done in a few
Nicki: ok
When Terrence finished her hair she thanked him and took her time getting back to the suite she shared with Nicki. As she opened the door she saw her standing by the window talking on the phone. She turned around to her as she closed the door and ended the call. Nicki didn't say word to her.
Jhené: did you need me for something?
She didnt answer.
Jhené: so it's ok to speak to me over the phone but you can't speak to me face to face? *sigh* fine text or call me when you're ready to say what's on your mind.
Nicki still didnt say anything to her until she was in the car on the way to rehearsal.
Nicki: did she try to hurt you in anyway?
She asked while looking out the window.
Jhené: no babe like I said before
Nicki: did she try to kiss you?
Jhené: *sigh* no
Nicki: did you feel anything at all for her while you were there?
Jhené: hell no! I didn't!
Nicki looked at her
Nicki: you could have told me you were going to see her
Jhené: like you could have told me you have a private investigator on her. You would not have wanted me to go or you would have wanted me to come with me. We both know how that would've turned out.
Nicki rolled her eyes
Nicki: why did you leave before I woke up?
Jhené: I didnt wanna wake you, you need the rest and I knew Terrence would be busy later.
She turned her head away looking through the window. They were almost there.
Jhené: I feel like it's more to this behavior and you're not telling me but I'm here when you're ready to talk.
She said as the car came to a stop.
The crowd was live she seemed to have a lot of fun on stage but as soon as she got off it was back to her bad mood. She had told Terrence and Lauren to make sure everything was packed to go before her set knowing she'd want to leave immediately after the show. So they went ahead of her as they walked back to her dressing room and got the bags taking them to the cars. Her body guards stood by the back exit. She had stopped in the hallway to take her heels off when she heard his voice say her name
SB: Nicki
She turned around
SB: may I speak to you for a minute
Nicki: *folds arms* go ahead.
SB: in private? please?
She looked over at Jhené who bent and took her shoes up and head for the dressing room door she came back out with hers and Nicki's bags and dropped her hello kitty slippers for her to put on.
Jhené: I'll be in the car.
Nicki: Just wait out here. *takes her bag* I'ma change when I'm done.
She opened the dressing room door and dropped her bag on the couch as he closed the door. Jhené want down to stand by the exit so she wouldn't hear what they were talking about. She was scared she'd hear something that would leave her hurting.
SB: you were great up there
Nicki: Thanks
SB: How have you been?
Nicki: fine Safaree. Just perfect. You?
SB: I'm good. Been better... Nic there's something I need to speak to you about?
Nicki: what's that? oh.... wait... If you're gonna tell me you're fucking Shanell I already know just a heads up so you dont waste you're time. Annnnd if you were thinking I was gonna care, I DONT.
SB: should have known Lauren would tell you.
Nicki: Even though she did say it too me I had already known so don't go blaming her. Is that all? cause I need to change.
SB: I didn't even come to... you know what, just forget it *shakes head* Bye Nicki
Nicki: Bye... Oh and congrats daddy.
He stopped in the doorway and turned looking at her
SB: What did you just say?
Nicki: Bye Safaree
SB: No be straight with me Onika... Are you pregnant?
Nicki: Safaree leave or I'm calling security
SB: Nic??
Nicki: I SAID LEAVE!!
He shook his head looking at her at he walked backwards out the door. He looked at Jhené chest heaving before he walked out.
****
Jhené walked out the bathroom into the bedroom and saw her across the bottom of the bed staring at the ceiling. She walked over and crawled between her legs then kissed her.
Jhené: you ready to tell me what's really going on?
Nicki took a deep breath and closed her eyes before speaking
Nicki: she's pregnant
she said opening her eyes again and looking up at Jhené
Jhené: who's pregnant?
Nicki: Shanell, the girl he was with at the show tonight
Jhené: for him?
Nicki: yup
she said looking away
Jhené: is that what he wanted to talk to you about?
Nicki: No. He doesnt know she is and she's aborting it.
Jhené: What?!!
(same time)
He had been sitting on the couch staring at the blank tv since they got back to her place. She walked out the bedroom clad in her robe and went to sit by him.
Shanell: *pouts* are you ok babe?
She asked rubbing his back in small circles
SB: She's pregnant
Shanell froze.
SB: she's pregnant and she didnt tell me
He ran his hand over his face and Shanell slowly pulled her hand away from him. Her mind was going a mile a minute. She had feared losing him back to her before but now she was absolutely terrified. He was still speaking to her but she heard nothing of what he said. All she could think about was that fact that not only was she carrying his child but so was Nicki. His voice calling her pulled her from her thoughts.
SB: baby are you ok?
All she did was shake her head yes slowly without even looking over at him.
SB: I'm gonna go out for a little bit ok
Shanell: ok
She managed to get out. He kissed her forehead and ran his fingers over her cheek before he left. He knew Nicki wouldn't see him again so he needed to go see his sister.
**
They were getting dressed to go see Mama Carol when Nicki's phone rang. She answered without looking at the caller ID
Nicki: hello
Neeqa: we need to talk
Nicki: what about?
Neeqa: you'll find out when I get up to your suite.
She said and hung up. Nicki just put the phone back down and continued getting dressed. A good few minutes later she was putting a few things in her bag when Jhené walked back in.
Jhené: you have a visitor
She said with a hint of attitude and Neeqa rolled her eyes and walked past her over to Nicki;
Neeqa: when were you gonna tell him? Is that the reason you've been dressing this way lately? loose fitting tops, performing in flats? and oh what a glow your skin has.
Nicki: what are you talking about?
Neeqa: just stop!! You know exactly what I'm talking about Nicki. What you expect him to just stand aside, let you do whatever you please like this isnt his child growing inside of you.
Jhené's eyed Nicki with curiosity as she burst out laughing
Nicki: girl you really need to leave. If that is seriously what you came here to get on my case about. You need to go.
She said while laughing
Neeqa: oh it's a joke to you
Nicki: you fucking right it's a joke. That's why I'm laughing.
Shaneeqa just shook her head at her then turned and left. When she was out the door Jhené came back nd stood in the doorway arms folded across her chest looking at her sitting on the bed
Jhené: you told him you're pregnant?
She looked around at Jhené
Nicki: no... he assumed
Jhené: Why didnt you correct him?
Nicki: Idk.. I wasnt thinking.
Jhené: You weren't thinking... *chuckles* ok Onika. Are you ready to go?
She said a hint of anger in her voice
Nicki: I'm sor-
Jhené: Let's just go.. please
She said taking her bag up and heading for the door.
**
They were walking up the driveway when the front door flew open and Macaiah came running out.
Nicki: Whoa!! Hey lambchop!! i missed you!! *big smile*
Caiah:" I missed you too sis!
He kissed her cheek then pulled away and went to hug Jhené
Nicki: You cutting my hugs short now boy
Caiah: Nic you aren't the only one I have to hug
Nicki: Jhen don't want your hugs
Caiah: dead at you thinking you're the only one she loves
Nicki: Oh... Oop! Well excuse me. Where's mama at?
They all laughed
Caiah: making lunch
He said as they walked in the front door.
Nicki: ooh spaghetti I bet
She said running off to the kitchen
Caiah: Aint you feeding her?
He asked Jhené
Jhené: of course I am. But you know how you're sister is
Caiah: wait.. whoa!! pauz!! Double pauz!! never mind forget I even asked
he said walking towards the kitchen leaving her. Jhené's jaw dropped as she realized what he was getting at. When they got to the kitchen Nicki was standing by the sink talking to her mom. She stopped talking as soon as Jhené walked in
Jhené: Mrs Maraj *smiles*
Carol: hello, how have you been?
Jhené: I've been good. You?
Carol: I've been better
Nicki eyed her mother. Carol smiled at Jhené
Carol: are you ladies going to eat?
Nicki: yes mom. you hungry babe?
She asked Jhené and Carol's facial expression changed as the words left Nicki's lips.
Jhené: Not really but I'll have some of her famous spaghetti.
Nicki: It tastes just like mine
Jhené: I doubt it! She taught you! *giggles*
Carol: That's right and yours will never taste better than mine ms thing.
She said with a little giggle as she made them plates. Caiah sat between the too at the table eating. While they were eating the doorbell rang and Carol left them to go see who it was. It was when they were finishing up the dishes that Carol walked back in and asked to speak with Nicki. Jhené stayed with Caiah as she walked out behind her mother to the living room. Nicki froze when she walked in and saw Safaree sitting on her mother's couch.
Carol: Is there something you want to tell me Onika?
Nicki: a-about what?
She asked and stuttered as her eyes shifted from Safaree's to her mom's. Carol folded her arms and Nicki took a deep breath.
Nicki: whatever he told you, It's a lie
She looked at him a rolled her eyes
Carol: and why would he just blatantly come here to lie to me Nicki?
Nicki: because he wants attention *sucks teeth*. Safaree why are you here?
Carol: I know you did not just hiss at me
Nicki: no ma I didn't
She said unfolding her arms.
Carol: are you pregnant?
She didnt respond. Carol walked over to her and stood looking into her eyes
Carol: are you pregnant?
Nicki: how old am I 16?
Carol: dont get smart with me answer the question.
Nicki: I'm not pregnant. You of all people would have known if I was
Carol: or maybe I wouldnt cause lately I've been finding hard to see the daughter I raised.
Nicki: mom...
Carol turned around to Safaree and he stood up
SB: she's lying
he said in a soft but angry voice
Nicki: the fuck!!
Carol spun around and faced her daughter
Nicki: No Im sorry mom but how's he just gonna stand there and say that?
SB: Because you are!! You told me!! You know better than to play with me about something like this Nicki!! Gaahh!!! why are you doing this?! What you think you're gonna keep me away from my kid so you can raise him with Jhené?!
Nicki: FIRST OF ALL I DIDNT TELL YOU SHIT!! YOU ASSUMED!!! SECONDLY, I'M NOT FUCKING PREGNANT SAFAREE!!!
SB: JUST STOP LYING!!!
She bit her lip to stop herself from telling him the paragraph of bad words she wanted to throw his way and took a deep breath.
Nicki: For the last.. fucking.. time. I'm NOT pregnant.
SB: you...
Nicki: Shanell is.
A deathly silence fell over the room. Jhené had heard the commotion and walked in to see what was going on, Caiah was right behind her. Nicki turned towards the kitchen doorway
Nicki: we're leaving.
She walked over to her little brother, hugged and kissed him. She walked over to her mom
Nicki: I'm sorry for all of this I really am and I'm sorry that you dont see who you wanna see in me anymore when really nothings changed but the gender of the person that I love.
She said tearing up. She hugged her mom then walked out the front door.
Carol: Onika...
She called softly but said no more as her daughter disappeared out the door.
Jhené: I'm sorry. It was great seeing you again.
She gave Carol a hug and left. Safaree still hadn't said another word or stopped looking at the wall
Carol: are you ok?
She asked but he didnt hear her.
****
He couldn't face her, so he stayed away for a few weeks or what seemed like a few weeks. He didnt come out unless it was to eat he didnt go anywhere he didnt speak to anyone except Shaneeqa and when he did, it was no more than 2 or 3 words a day. he didnt call Shanell, didnt text her. All this time, she'd been hiding something this important from him. When he finally decided to see her, he got to her place and she wasnt there. He called her phone but got no answered so he decided to sit in his car and wait for her to come back. He waited until he fell sleep. When he woke up it was after 6 the next morning. Her car still wasnt in the driveway and he reached onto the passenger seat for his phone to call her number a few more times. It was on the sixth call and second ring that he got answer from a very sleepy voice.
D: hello
SB: hello
D: how may I help you
SB: Shanell?
D: no. she's sleeping. can i take a message?
SB: just tell her to call Safaree
D: sure
She said and hung up. He took a deep breath, took his hat off and ran his hand over his head. All day he waited for her phone call and got none. 9:30pm and he was sitting in the living room staring at his phone that sat on the coffee table. When he couldn't wait anymore he grabbed it and dialed her number. She asnwered on the fourth ring
Shanell: what do you want?
SB: Is that how you great the father of your unborn child? Where are you?
She fell silent over the phone
SB: you didnt think that it was important enough to tell me you were pregnant?
She still didnt answer
SB: ANSWER ME!!
He yelled and he heard her gasp.
SB: Where are you?
Shanell: You dont need me Safaree you have her and her baby.
He sighed
SB: She's not pregnant... Look where are you I need to see you.
Shanell: Faree I cant... It's been a month and two days since I've heard from you, seen you. All this time you were worried about her. You would never choose me over her. I had to make choices that were best suitable for me and my career.
SB: What kinda choices Shanell? Not telling me you are carrying my child? Running off to stay with your sister?
Shanell: was... carrying your child.
SB: Wh-what the Fuck did you just say?!
Shanell: I'm sorry Faree.
She said before she hung up.
SB: NO!! NO!
He yelled over and over again as he smashed the glass on the coffee table and threw his phone at the wall. His chest tightened as he fell to his knees crying.
Po Faree :(!! LEAVE A COMMENT!!
Nicki tried calling her again and as the phone rang Jhené looked at the screen and put it back down. Terrence's eyes met hers in the mirror
Terrence: J... just answer her
She sighed and caught the phone before it stopped ringing.
Jhené: yeah
Nicki: where are you?
Jhené: did you eat?
Nicki: no. where are you?
Jhené: baby you need to eat.
Nicki: you need to tell me where you are
Jhené: T's room getting my hair done
She heard Nicki sigh
Nicki: oh...
Jhené: I'll be done in a few
Nicki: ok
When Terrence finished her hair she thanked him and took her time getting back to the suite she shared with Nicki. As she opened the door she saw her standing by the window talking on the phone. She turned around to her as she closed the door and ended the call. Nicki didn't say word to her.
Jhené: did you need me for something?
She didnt answer.
Jhené: so it's ok to speak to me over the phone but you can't speak to me face to face? *sigh* fine text or call me when you're ready to say what's on your mind.
Nicki still didnt say anything to her until she was in the car on the way to rehearsal.
Nicki: did she try to hurt you in anyway?
She asked while looking out the window.
Jhené: no babe like I said before
Nicki: did she try to kiss you?
Jhené: *sigh* no
Nicki: did you feel anything at all for her while you were there?
Jhené: hell no! I didn't!
Nicki looked at her
Nicki: you could have told me you were going to see her
Jhené: like you could have told me you have a private investigator on her. You would not have wanted me to go or you would have wanted me to come with me. We both know how that would've turned out.
Nicki rolled her eyes
Nicki: why did you leave before I woke up?
Jhené: I didnt wanna wake you, you need the rest and I knew Terrence would be busy later.
She turned her head away looking through the window. They were almost there.
Jhené: I feel like it's more to this behavior and you're not telling me but I'm here when you're ready to talk.
She said as the car came to a stop.
The crowd was live she seemed to have a lot of fun on stage but as soon as she got off it was back to her bad mood. She had told Terrence and Lauren to make sure everything was packed to go before her set knowing she'd want to leave immediately after the show. So they went ahead of her as they walked back to her dressing room and got the bags taking them to the cars. Her body guards stood by the back exit. She had stopped in the hallway to take her heels off when she heard his voice say her name
SB: Nicki
She turned around
SB: may I speak to you for a minute
Nicki: *folds arms* go ahead.
SB: in private? please?
She looked over at Jhené who bent and took her shoes up and head for the dressing room door she came back out with hers and Nicki's bags and dropped her hello kitty slippers for her to put on.
Jhené: I'll be in the car.
Nicki: Just wait out here. *takes her bag* I'ma change when I'm done.
She opened the dressing room door and dropped her bag on the couch as he closed the door. Jhené want down to stand by the exit so she wouldn't hear what they were talking about. She was scared she'd hear something that would leave her hurting.
SB: you were great up there
Nicki: Thanks
SB: How have you been?
Nicki: fine Safaree. Just perfect. You?
SB: I'm good. Been better... Nic there's something I need to speak to you about?
Nicki: what's that? oh.... wait... If you're gonna tell me you're fucking Shanell I already know just a heads up so you dont waste you're time. Annnnd if you were thinking I was gonna care, I DONT.
SB: should have known Lauren would tell you.
Nicki: Even though she did say it too me I had already known so don't go blaming her. Is that all? cause I need to change.
SB: I didn't even come to... you know what, just forget it *shakes head* Bye Nicki
Nicki: Bye... Oh and congrats daddy.
He stopped in the doorway and turned looking at her
SB: What did you just say?
Nicki: Bye Safaree
SB: No be straight with me Onika... Are you pregnant?
Nicki: Safaree leave or I'm calling security
SB: Nic??
Nicki: I SAID LEAVE!!
He shook his head looking at her at he walked backwards out the door. He looked at Jhené chest heaving before he walked out.
****
Jhené walked out the bathroom into the bedroom and saw her across the bottom of the bed staring at the ceiling. She walked over and crawled between her legs then kissed her.
Jhené: you ready to tell me what's really going on?
Nicki took a deep breath and closed her eyes before speaking
Nicki: she's pregnant
she said opening her eyes again and looking up at Jhené
Jhené: who's pregnant?
Nicki: Shanell, the girl he was with at the show tonight
Jhené: for him?
Nicki: yup
she said looking away
Jhené: is that what he wanted to talk to you about?
Nicki: No. He doesnt know she is and she's aborting it.
Jhené: What?!!
(same time)
He had been sitting on the couch staring at the blank tv since they got back to her place. She walked out the bedroom clad in her robe and went to sit by him.
Shanell: *pouts* are you ok babe?
She asked rubbing his back in small circles
SB: She's pregnant
Shanell froze.
SB: she's pregnant and she didnt tell me
He ran his hand over his face and Shanell slowly pulled her hand away from him. Her mind was going a mile a minute. She had feared losing him back to her before but now she was absolutely terrified. He was still speaking to her but she heard nothing of what he said. All she could think about was that fact that not only was she carrying his child but so was Nicki. His voice calling her pulled her from her thoughts.
SB: baby are you ok?
All she did was shake her head yes slowly without even looking over at him.
SB: I'm gonna go out for a little bit ok
Shanell: ok
She managed to get out. He kissed her forehead and ran his fingers over her cheek before he left. He knew Nicki wouldn't see him again so he needed to go see his sister.
**
They were getting dressed to go see Mama Carol when Nicki's phone rang. She answered without looking at the caller ID
Nicki: hello
Neeqa: we need to talk
Nicki: what about?
Neeqa: you'll find out when I get up to your suite.
She said and hung up. Nicki just put the phone back down and continued getting dressed. A good few minutes later she was putting a few things in her bag when Jhené walked back in.
Jhené: you have a visitor
She said with a hint of attitude and Neeqa rolled her eyes and walked past her over to Nicki;
Neeqa: when were you gonna tell him? Is that the reason you've been dressing this way lately? loose fitting tops, performing in flats? and oh what a glow your skin has.
Nicki: what are you talking about?
Neeqa: just stop!! You know exactly what I'm talking about Nicki. What you expect him to just stand aside, let you do whatever you please like this isnt his child growing inside of you.
Jhené's eyed Nicki with curiosity as she burst out laughing
Nicki: girl you really need to leave. If that is seriously what you came here to get on my case about. You need to go.
She said while laughing
Neeqa: oh it's a joke to you
Nicki: you fucking right it's a joke. That's why I'm laughing.
Shaneeqa just shook her head at her then turned and left. When she was out the door Jhené came back nd stood in the doorway arms folded across her chest looking at her sitting on the bed
Jhené: you told him you're pregnant?
She looked around at Jhené
Nicki: no... he assumed
Jhené: Why didnt you correct him?
Nicki: Idk.. I wasnt thinking.
Jhené: You weren't thinking... *chuckles* ok Onika. Are you ready to go?
She said a hint of anger in her voice
Nicki: I'm sor-
Jhené: Let's just go.. please
She said taking her bag up and heading for the door.
**
They were walking up the driveway when the front door flew open and Macaiah came running out.
Nicki: Whoa!! Hey lambchop!! i missed you!! *big smile*
Caiah:" I missed you too sis!
He kissed her cheek then pulled away and went to hug Jhené
Nicki: You cutting my hugs short now boy
Caiah: Nic you aren't the only one I have to hug
Nicki: Jhen don't want your hugs
Caiah: dead at you thinking you're the only one she loves
Nicki: Oh... Oop! Well excuse me. Where's mama at?
They all laughed
Caiah: making lunch
He said as they walked in the front door.
Nicki: ooh spaghetti I bet
She said running off to the kitchen
Caiah: Aint you feeding her?
He asked Jhené
Jhené: of course I am. But you know how you're sister is
Caiah: wait.. whoa!! pauz!! Double pauz!! never mind forget I even asked
he said walking towards the kitchen leaving her. Jhené's jaw dropped as she realized what he was getting at. When they got to the kitchen Nicki was standing by the sink talking to her mom. She stopped talking as soon as Jhené walked in
Jhené: Mrs Maraj *smiles*
Carol: hello, how have you been?
Jhené: I've been good. You?
Carol: I've been better
Nicki eyed her mother. Carol smiled at Jhené
Carol: are you ladies going to eat?
Nicki: yes mom. you hungry babe?
She asked Jhené and Carol's facial expression changed as the words left Nicki's lips.
Jhené: Not really but I'll have some of her famous spaghetti.
Nicki: It tastes just like mine
Jhené: I doubt it! She taught you! *giggles*
Carol: That's right and yours will never taste better than mine ms thing.
She said with a little giggle as she made them plates. Caiah sat between the too at the table eating. While they were eating the doorbell rang and Carol left them to go see who it was. It was when they were finishing up the dishes that Carol walked back in and asked to speak with Nicki. Jhené stayed with Caiah as she walked out behind her mother to the living room. Nicki froze when she walked in and saw Safaree sitting on her mother's couch.
Carol: Is there something you want to tell me Onika?
Nicki: a-about what?
She asked and stuttered as her eyes shifted from Safaree's to her mom's. Carol folded her arms and Nicki took a deep breath.
Nicki: whatever he told you, It's a lie
She looked at him a rolled her eyes
Carol: and why would he just blatantly come here to lie to me Nicki?
Nicki: because he wants attention *sucks teeth*. Safaree why are you here?
Carol: I know you did not just hiss at me
Nicki: no ma I didn't
She said unfolding her arms.
Carol: are you pregnant?
She didnt respond. Carol walked over to her and stood looking into her eyes
Carol: are you pregnant?
Nicki: how old am I 16?
Carol: dont get smart with me answer the question.
Nicki: I'm not pregnant. You of all people would have known if I was
Carol: or maybe I wouldnt cause lately I've been finding hard to see the daughter I raised.
Nicki: mom...
Carol turned around to Safaree and he stood up
SB: she's lying
he said in a soft but angry voice
Nicki: the fuck!!
Carol spun around and faced her daughter
Nicki: No Im sorry mom but how's he just gonna stand there and say that?
SB: Because you are!! You told me!! You know better than to play with me about something like this Nicki!! Gaahh!!! why are you doing this?! What you think you're gonna keep me away from my kid so you can raise him with Jhené?!
Nicki: FIRST OF ALL I DIDNT TELL YOU SHIT!! YOU ASSUMED!!! SECONDLY, I'M NOT FUCKING PREGNANT SAFAREE!!!
SB: JUST STOP LYING!!!
She bit her lip to stop herself from telling him the paragraph of bad words she wanted to throw his way and took a deep breath.
Nicki: For the last.. fucking.. time. I'm NOT pregnant.
SB: you...
Nicki: Shanell is.
A deathly silence fell over the room. Jhené had heard the commotion and walked in to see what was going on, Caiah was right behind her. Nicki turned towards the kitchen doorway
Nicki: we're leaving.
She walked over to her little brother, hugged and kissed him. She walked over to her mom
Nicki: I'm sorry for all of this I really am and I'm sorry that you dont see who you wanna see in me anymore when really nothings changed but the gender of the person that I love.
She said tearing up. She hugged her mom then walked out the front door.
Carol: Onika...
She called softly but said no more as her daughter disappeared out the door.
Jhené: I'm sorry. It was great seeing you again.
She gave Carol a hug and left. Safaree still hadn't said another word or stopped looking at the wall
Carol: are you ok?
She asked but he didnt hear her.
****
He couldn't face her, so he stayed away for a few weeks or what seemed like a few weeks. He didnt come out unless it was to eat he didnt go anywhere he didnt speak to anyone except Shaneeqa and when he did, it was no more than 2 or 3 words a day. he didnt call Shanell, didnt text her. All this time, she'd been hiding something this important from him. When he finally decided to see her, he got to her place and she wasnt there. He called her phone but got no answered so he decided to sit in his car and wait for her to come back. He waited until he fell sleep. When he woke up it was after 6 the next morning. Her car still wasnt in the driveway and he reached onto the passenger seat for his phone to call her number a few more times. It was on the sixth call and second ring that he got answer from a very sleepy voice.
D: hello
SB: hello
D: how may I help you
SB: Shanell?
D: no. she's sleeping. can i take a message?
SB: just tell her to call Safaree
D: sure
She said and hung up. He took a deep breath, took his hat off and ran his hand over his head. All day he waited for her phone call and got none. 9:30pm and he was sitting in the living room staring at his phone that sat on the coffee table. When he couldn't wait anymore he grabbed it and dialed her number. She asnwered on the fourth ring
Shanell: what do you want?
SB: Is that how you great the father of your unborn child? Where are you?
She fell silent over the phone
SB: you didnt think that it was important enough to tell me you were pregnant?
She still didnt answer
SB: ANSWER ME!!
He yelled and he heard her gasp.
SB: Where are you?
Shanell: You dont need me Safaree you have her and her baby.
He sighed
SB: She's not pregnant... Look where are you I need to see you.
Shanell: Faree I cant... It's been a month and two days since I've heard from you, seen you. All this time you were worried about her. You would never choose me over her. I had to make choices that were best suitable for me and my career.
SB: What kinda choices Shanell? Not telling me you are carrying my child? Running off to stay with your sister?
Shanell: was... carrying your child.
SB: Wh-what the Fuck did you just say?!
Shanell: I'm sorry Faree.
She said before she hung up.
SB: NO!! NO!
He yelled over and over again as he smashed the glass on the coffee table and threw his phone at the wall. His chest tightened as he fell to his knees crying.
Po Faree :(!! LEAVE A COMMENT!!
Monday, 18 February 2013
Snippet
The crowd was live she seemed to have a lot of fun on stage but as soon as she got off it was back to her bad mood. She had told Terrence and Lauren to make sure everything was packed to go before her set knowing she'd want to leave immediately after the show. So they went ahead of her as they walked back to her dressing room and got the bags taking them to the cars. Her body guards stood by the back exit. She had stopped in the hallway to take her heels off when she heard his voice say her name
SB: Nicki
She turned around
SB: may I speak to you for a minute
Nicki: *folds arms* go ahead.
SB: in private? please?
She looked over at Jhené who bent and took her shoes up and head for the dressing room door she came back out with hers and Nicki's bags and dropped her hello kitty slippers for her to put on.
Jhené: I'll be in the car.
Nicki: Just wait out here. *takes her bag* I'ma change when I'm done.
She opened the dressing room door and dropped her bag on the couch as he closed the door. Jhené went down to stand by the exit so she wouldn't hear what they were talking about. She was scared she'd hear something that would leave her hurting.
SB: you were great up there
Nicki: Thanks
SB: How have you been?
Nicki: fine Safaree. Just perfect. You?
SB: I'm good. Been better... Nic there's something I need to speak to you about?
Nicki: what's that? oh.... wait... If you're gonna tell me you're fucking Shanell I already know just a heads up so you dont waste you're time. Annnnd if you were thinking I was gonna care, I DONT.
SB: should have known Lauren would tell you.
Nicki: Even though she did say it to me I had already known so don't go blaming her. Is that all? cause I need to change.
SB: I didn't even come to... you know what, just forget it *shakes head* Bye Nicki
Nicki: Bye... Oh and congrats daddy.
He stopped in the doorway and turned looking at her
SB: What did you just say?
Nicki: Bye Safaree
Thursday, 14 February 2013
Working On It
Ok so guys I'm trying to get this post done, but I CAN'T FOCUS FOR THE LIFE OF ME. Cause such person has me all in my feelings. ugh!! But let's see how tonight goes. Sorry to have yall waiting soo long. Love you guys! :*
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
Just Saying
I know it prolly has you on an emotional roller coaster but ARENT YOU TIRED OF STORIES GOING IN THE SAME DIRECTION?
Nobody has a perfect relationship!! I sure as fuck dont!! It's always some BS!!
SO DEAL!! Love you guys Bye :) :*
Nobody has a perfect relationship!! I sure as fuck dont!! It's always some BS!!
SO DEAL!! Love you guys Bye :) :*
Chapter 28 -> Knocked Up (2/2)
Pls xcuse n e typos :)
SB: hey
Lauren: hey
SB: sup? I was just heading out.
Lauren: going to see Shanell?
SB: laur-
Lauren: It's cool. Do you. I wanted to speak to you about something but maybe you should go see her first.
SB: Look if it's about Nicki...
Lauren: *sigh* Just come see me when you get back
SB: aight.
He responded as he closed the door then they both walked down to his car.
Lauren: later
SB: later ham *smiles*
She gave him back a half smile
When he got to Shanell's he knocked for a good five minutes before she answered the door. He could tell she had been sleeping and her eyes were red and puffy.
SB: you been crying
Shanell: no... allergies
she lied. Her voice was hoarse.
SB: you didn't see me calling you? see my text messages?
Shanell: no my phone is on silent and I haven't checked it since i woke up.. come in
She stepped aside and he walked in.. She closed the door and walked over to the couch.
SB: I was worried so I said i'd come check on you. You know you still haven't told me why you were so upset when you left the pharmacy.
She seemed to just zone out when he said those last words.
SB: babe...did something happen?
She looked at him and she thought about the tests. Her hand unconsciously went to her to her tummy and for a second she felt she had the courage to tell him so she opened her mouth but the wrong words came out.
Shanell: I think I'm gonna be sick
She said before rushing off to the bathroom. He went after her and held her hair back as she emptied her stomach of the food she had earlier. When she was done she closed the lid and flushed. He helped her up and she went to the sink, brushed her teeth and washed her faced that wash drenched in a cold sweat. She pat her face dry with her towel and walked into her bedroom then sat on the bed. He stood in the bathroom doorway looking at her.
SB: do you need me to take you to the doctor?
Shanell: NO! I mean...It's that Chinese food I ate.
SB: but just to make sure it's not something else
Shanell: something else like what?!
SB: It could be a stomach bug.
"stomach bug is right" She thought to herself
Shanell: I'm fine Safaree! If it's the same tomorrow then I'll go see a doctor.
SB: alright. Just call me before you go ok.
Shanell: ok.You're leaving now?
SB: do you want me to staya?
Shanell: No it's ok. besides if it's something contagious I don't want you to catch it.
Then she thought " Fuck if babies were contagious that would be some shit!"
SB: Ok. But take your phone off silent. Ima call and check on you later.
Shanell: ok
She gave him a weak smile and he kissed her forehead.
SB: go get some rest. I'll let myself out.
She head for the bedroom as he head for the door. She made her way to the middle of the bed pulled her knees up and let her tears fall.
On his way back he called Lauren to find out where she was then drove to see her.
SB: what's up Ham?
He said with a smile as she let him in
Lauren: don't get punched in the throat! What i tell you about calling me that?
SB: *chuckles* but-
Lauren: Safaree!
She said in a stern voice. He laughed
Lauren: so how'd it go?
SB: how'd what go?
Lauren: your visit with... her?
SB: she's not well, she's throwing up but she refused to let me take her top the doctor
Lauren: oh she didn't tell you?
SB: tell me what?
Lauren:... what is wrong with her?
She said looking away. She wanted to but by right she knew it wasn't for her to tell him.
SB: she said it was the Chinese food she ate
Lauren: the CHinese food huh?... that's a new one
She mumbled the last part
SB: what exactly are you trying to say? You know what's wrong with her?
Lauren: there are a few things I know Safaree
She said and stopped. He looked at her waiting and when she said nothing more he asked
SB: a few things like what?
Lauren: I know for a fcat that you love my best friend. That you want her in you life so badly its driving you crazy and what your doing with Shanell is just to mask your true feelings, to hide how really hurt you are. Maybe everyone is blind to it Safaree but I see right through it. You know what happened the last time something happened between you and Shanell and you're thinking maybe just maybe this will get her attention. But what you really need to do is go back and fight for you relationship before it gets too complicated.
SB: Laur-
Lauren: NO! It's the truth and you know it!
SB: You wanna know something I am sick and tired of everyone tellign me to fight for my relationship with Nicki! It wasnt just My relationship it was hers too! Do you see her fighting for it?! Are y'all yelling at her telling her to fight for her relationship?! No! Why should I be the only one putting out effort to make this right?! Why shouild I be the only one tryna fight?!
He got up and walked to the door then opened it and before he walked out he turned to her
SB: Maybe what I have with Shanell isn't anywhere close to what I thought I had with Nicki, but it's better than chasing something that no longer matters.
Lauren: Saf-
He slammed the door behind him cutting her off.
****
It was four days since he'd seen her, she had called and told him she was going to visit her mom for a few days. They text each other while she was gone but she seemed to have an excuse every time it came time for them to talk over the phone. He wasn't the only one who called her while she was gone, she got several from Lauren but she never took one. She knew Lauren hadn't told Safaree about the baby or he would have said something to her in their text conversations so she didnt worry too much about that. She walked in her door and dropped her bag right behind it as she closed it. All she wanted to do was take a shower at the moment. She walked to her bathroom stripping along the way. When she was done she she walked back to her bedroom in only her robe. She removed it, moisturized her skin and put it back on. She went and got her phone from her bag and dialed his number. He picked on half way into the first ring
SB: Baby are you ok? What's up?
Shanell: I'm home. I need you to come over, we need to talk.
SB: Ok I'll be there in 5 I'm close by
She hung up putting her phone in the pocket of her robe and picking up her bag from behind the door. She took time making something to eat and as she sat eating there was a knock at the door.
Shanell: it's open
She yelled. The door opened and he walked in
SB: baby?
She took a sip of her tea. He heard the cup against the counter and head for the kitchen.He walked up behind her and leaned down
SB: I missed you *kisses her cheek*
She never uttered a word. She ate the last bite from her plate and drank the last of her tea.
SB: so you didnt miss me while you were gone?
Shanell: May I ask you something?
SB: sure Baby anything
Shanell: What do I do for you?
SB: where is this coming from?
Shanell: that doesnt answer my question Safaree!
SB: you do a lot for me
Shanell: like what?
SB: You make me smile, you make me feel appreciated, you-
Shanell: I'll never be her
She cut him off
SB: I never expe-
She put her finger on his lips and he stopped mid sentence.
Shanell: You an dI both know this isnt going to work. You're hurt, she hurt you badly I understand but I dont wanna be the just your source of comfort until she finds out gets mad and you walk back into her life. I-
SB: You think I'm using you? Baby I would never.What I feel for you is real.She has the person she wants in her life and that person isnt me. I moving on... with you.
He kissed her
SB: I dont want you going around thinking you're just here for me to get my dick wet til Nicki decides to take me back. I'm over her ok. *pecks her lips and pulls her into a hug* Now You ready for your performance with Wayne tomorrow night?
Shanell: *sigh* I'm not performing
SB: Why not? What happened?
Shanell: I told him I wasnt up for it. Doctor's orders. So he changed his set. But I told him I'd still be there for support.
SB: awee baby *kisses her* So what'd the doctor say.
Shanell: Well it's not... contagious
She managed between kisses.
Shanell: mmmm dont start
He lifted her back onto her chair and stood between her legs
SB: Why not? I missed you
Shanell: How'd we get frm... sss.. mmm
She moaned as he sucked on her neck
SB: see you missed me too
Shanell: dont get cocky.. ahhmm.... Promise to be slow ss and gentle
SB: Sure you can manage
Shanell: mmmfuck!! No! But.. sss. I need you to be
SB: Promise
he said before pushing her legs apart and gently inserting two fingers inside her
*****
Jhené stood looking at her as she opened the shower door. She handed her her towel and she wrapped it around herself.
Jhené: are you gonna stay mad at me for this whole trip?
She didnt respond just walked out the bathroom leaving her she followed her into the bedroom of their suite and stood watching her every move. Nicki went through her bag finding something to wear, moisturized her skin then got dressed. She still payed Jhené no mind.
Jhené: fine Onika. Two can play that game.
She turned to head back for the bathroom and stopped.
Jhené: you know I did that for us. She wouldn't have stopped if I hadn't gon to see her. I told you everything that happened when I was with her. Honesty, that's what you said right. But you still don't think I'm telling you everything. Well why dont you have that private investigator of yours give you the details. Maybe you'll believe him.
Nicki's eyes shot to hers
Jhené: yes I know about him. Honesty. It works both ways you know. I didnt tell you I was going to see her because you would have never agreed to me doing it. But it's whatever. I'm going to shower.
She walked away. Nicki closed her eyes and let out a deep sigh as she laid back on the bed. When Jhené got out of the bathroom she was fast asleep. She kissed her lightly on the lips and pulled the cover up over her. She went around to her side of the bed an laid staring up at the dark ceiling for most of the night.
When Nicki woke up the next morning in bed alone. She sighed looked at the empty side of the bed and got up heading for the bathroom. When she was showered and got back to the bedroom there was a note on her pillow. She took it up and read
"Good Morning. I made you breakfast, enjoy"
But she really didnt feel like eating. She got dressed in sweats cause she had 1 rehearsal before the show later. She got her phone and called Jhené but she didnt answer so she sent her a text
"where are you"- BabyCakes
But she didnt respond
COMMENT! :*
SB: hey
Lauren: hey
SB: sup? I was just heading out.
Lauren: going to see Shanell?
SB: laur-
Lauren: It's cool. Do you. I wanted to speak to you about something but maybe you should go see her first.
SB: Look if it's about Nicki...
Lauren: *sigh* Just come see me when you get back
SB: aight.
He responded as he closed the door then they both walked down to his car.
Lauren: later
SB: later ham *smiles*
She gave him back a half smile
When he got to Shanell's he knocked for a good five minutes before she answered the door. He could tell she had been sleeping and her eyes were red and puffy.
SB: you been crying
Shanell: no... allergies
she lied. Her voice was hoarse.
SB: you didn't see me calling you? see my text messages?
Shanell: no my phone is on silent and I haven't checked it since i woke up.. come in
She stepped aside and he walked in.. She closed the door and walked over to the couch.
SB: I was worried so I said i'd come check on you. You know you still haven't told me why you were so upset when you left the pharmacy.
She seemed to just zone out when he said those last words.
SB: babe...did something happen?
She looked at him and she thought about the tests. Her hand unconsciously went to her to her tummy and for a second she felt she had the courage to tell him so she opened her mouth but the wrong words came out.
Shanell: I think I'm gonna be sick
She said before rushing off to the bathroom. He went after her and held her hair back as she emptied her stomach of the food she had earlier. When she was done she closed the lid and flushed. He helped her up and she went to the sink, brushed her teeth and washed her faced that wash drenched in a cold sweat. She pat her face dry with her towel and walked into her bedroom then sat on the bed. He stood in the bathroom doorway looking at her.
SB: do you need me to take you to the doctor?
Shanell: NO! I mean...It's that Chinese food I ate.
SB: but just to make sure it's not something else
Shanell: something else like what?!
SB: It could be a stomach bug.
"stomach bug is right" She thought to herself
Shanell: I'm fine Safaree! If it's the same tomorrow then I'll go see a doctor.
SB: alright. Just call me before you go ok.
Shanell: ok.You're leaving now?
SB: do you want me to staya?
Shanell: No it's ok. besides if it's something contagious I don't want you to catch it.
Then she thought " Fuck if babies were contagious that would be some shit!"
SB: Ok. But take your phone off silent. Ima call and check on you later.
Shanell: ok
She gave him a weak smile and he kissed her forehead.
SB: go get some rest. I'll let myself out.
She head for the bedroom as he head for the door. She made her way to the middle of the bed pulled her knees up and let her tears fall.
On his way back he called Lauren to find out where she was then drove to see her.
SB: what's up Ham?
He said with a smile as she let him in
Lauren: don't get punched in the throat! What i tell you about calling me that?
SB: *chuckles* but-
Lauren: Safaree!
She said in a stern voice. He laughed
Lauren: so how'd it go?
SB: how'd what go?
Lauren: your visit with... her?
SB: she's not well, she's throwing up but she refused to let me take her top the doctor
Lauren: oh she didn't tell you?
SB: tell me what?
Lauren:... what is wrong with her?
She said looking away. She wanted to but by right she knew it wasn't for her to tell him.
SB: she said it was the Chinese food she ate
Lauren: the CHinese food huh?... that's a new one
She mumbled the last part
SB: what exactly are you trying to say? You know what's wrong with her?
Lauren: there are a few things I know Safaree
She said and stopped. He looked at her waiting and when she said nothing more he asked
SB: a few things like what?
Lauren: I know for a fcat that you love my best friend. That you want her in you life so badly its driving you crazy and what your doing with Shanell is just to mask your true feelings, to hide how really hurt you are. Maybe everyone is blind to it Safaree but I see right through it. You know what happened the last time something happened between you and Shanell and you're thinking maybe just maybe this will get her attention. But what you really need to do is go back and fight for you relationship before it gets too complicated.
SB: Laur-
Lauren: NO! It's the truth and you know it!
SB: You wanna know something I am sick and tired of everyone tellign me to fight for my relationship with Nicki! It wasnt just My relationship it was hers too! Do you see her fighting for it?! Are y'all yelling at her telling her to fight for her relationship?! No! Why should I be the only one putting out effort to make this right?! Why shouild I be the only one tryna fight?!
He got up and walked to the door then opened it and before he walked out he turned to her
SB: Maybe what I have with Shanell isn't anywhere close to what I thought I had with Nicki, but it's better than chasing something that no longer matters.
Lauren: Saf-
He slammed the door behind him cutting her off.
****
It was four days since he'd seen her, she had called and told him she was going to visit her mom for a few days. They text each other while she was gone but she seemed to have an excuse every time it came time for them to talk over the phone. He wasn't the only one who called her while she was gone, she got several from Lauren but she never took one. She knew Lauren hadn't told Safaree about the baby or he would have said something to her in their text conversations so she didnt worry too much about that. She walked in her door and dropped her bag right behind it as she closed it. All she wanted to do was take a shower at the moment. She walked to her bathroom stripping along the way. When she was done she she walked back to her bedroom in only her robe. She removed it, moisturized her skin and put it back on. She went and got her phone from her bag and dialed his number. He picked on half way into the first ring
SB: Baby are you ok? What's up?
Shanell: I'm home. I need you to come over, we need to talk.
SB: Ok I'll be there in 5 I'm close by
She hung up putting her phone in the pocket of her robe and picking up her bag from behind the door. She took time making something to eat and as she sat eating there was a knock at the door.
Shanell: it's open
She yelled. The door opened and he walked in
SB: baby?
She took a sip of her tea. He heard the cup against the counter and head for the kitchen.He walked up behind her and leaned down
SB: I missed you *kisses her cheek*
She never uttered a word. She ate the last bite from her plate and drank the last of her tea.
SB: so you didnt miss me while you were gone?
Shanell: May I ask you something?
SB: sure Baby anything
Shanell: What do I do for you?
SB: where is this coming from?
Shanell: that doesnt answer my question Safaree!
SB: you do a lot for me
Shanell: like what?
SB: You make me smile, you make me feel appreciated, you-
Shanell: I'll never be her
She cut him off
SB: I never expe-
She put her finger on his lips and he stopped mid sentence.
Shanell: You an dI both know this isnt going to work. You're hurt, she hurt you badly I understand but I dont wanna be the just your source of comfort until she finds out gets mad and you walk back into her life. I-
SB: You think I'm using you? Baby I would never.What I feel for you is real.She has the person she wants in her life and that person isnt me. I moving on... with you.
He kissed her
SB: I dont want you going around thinking you're just here for me to get my dick wet til Nicki decides to take me back. I'm over her ok. *pecks her lips and pulls her into a hug* Now You ready for your performance with Wayne tomorrow night?
Shanell: *sigh* I'm not performing
SB: Why not? What happened?
Shanell: I told him I wasnt up for it. Doctor's orders. So he changed his set. But I told him I'd still be there for support.
SB: awee baby *kisses her* So what'd the doctor say.
Shanell: Well it's not... contagious
She managed between kisses.
Shanell: mmmm dont start
He lifted her back onto her chair and stood between her legs
SB: Why not? I missed you
Shanell: How'd we get frm... sss.. mmm
She moaned as he sucked on her neck
SB: see you missed me too
Shanell: dont get cocky.. ahhmm.... Promise to be slow ss and gentle
SB: Sure you can manage
Shanell: mmmfuck!! No! But.. sss. I need you to be
SB: Promise
he said before pushing her legs apart and gently inserting two fingers inside her
*****
Jhené stood looking at her as she opened the shower door. She handed her her towel and she wrapped it around herself.
Jhené: are you gonna stay mad at me for this whole trip?
She didnt respond just walked out the bathroom leaving her she followed her into the bedroom of their suite and stood watching her every move. Nicki went through her bag finding something to wear, moisturized her skin then got dressed. She still payed Jhené no mind.
Jhené: fine Onika. Two can play that game.
She turned to head back for the bathroom and stopped.
Jhené: you know I did that for us. She wouldn't have stopped if I hadn't gon to see her. I told you everything that happened when I was with her. Honesty, that's what you said right. But you still don't think I'm telling you everything. Well why dont you have that private investigator of yours give you the details. Maybe you'll believe him.
Nicki's eyes shot to hers
Jhené: yes I know about him. Honesty. It works both ways you know. I didnt tell you I was going to see her because you would have never agreed to me doing it. But it's whatever. I'm going to shower.
She walked away. Nicki closed her eyes and let out a deep sigh as she laid back on the bed. When Jhené got out of the bathroom she was fast asleep. She kissed her lightly on the lips and pulled the cover up over her. She went around to her side of the bed an laid staring up at the dark ceiling for most of the night.
When Nicki woke up the next morning in bed alone. She sighed looked at the empty side of the bed and got up heading for the bathroom. When she was showered and got back to the bedroom there was a note on her pillow. She took it up and read
"Good Morning. I made you breakfast, enjoy"
But she really didnt feel like eating. She got dressed in sweats cause she had 1 rehearsal before the show later. She got her phone and called Jhené but she didnt answer so she sent her a text
"where are you"- BabyCakes
But she didnt respond
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