Chapter 32 --> New Beginnings

She had just finished up a studio session and was heading back to the car with Candi when Candi asked
Candi: did you check out that package yet?
Nicki: No... Didn't even remember about. It's probably just from a fan
Candi: a fan who has your address Nic? come on
Nicki didn't say anything
Candi: Right... You need to at least get it checked out. I'll do it for u when we get back to yours
Nicki: Whatever you wanna do with it
Candi: and you're not interested to know. I mean how did this chick get your address?
Nicki was still silent
Candi: OK see I know you. What's wrong? What happened? Is it Jhené did she do something? say something? did y'all have a fight?
Nicki: Safaree called?
Candi: Ohhhh.... umm is he OK?
Nicki: Yeah he is.
Candi: but... when's he coming home?
Nicki: but nothing and I don't know.
Her phone rang.
Nicki: hello
Jhené: hey baby, still at the studio?
Nicki: No I just left. What's up?
Jhené: was gonna stop by. Meet you at home?
Nicki: OK
Jhené: K, see you in a bit
Nicki looked across after she hung up to see Candice staring at her
Nicki: It was J *rolls eyes*
Candi: I never said anything
Nicki: whatever
She mumbled.

****
Wanita: I didn't mean to upset you yesterday sis it's just u gotta think about what's best for u and them
Shanell: ........ I'm gettin' real sick of this bed rest crap. Only place I get to go is to the bathroom. I'm even more sick of you here babying me and shit like, can you come by any less?
Wanita: right ignore what I have to say and You should be glad your ass got me here babying you. Ungrateful.
Shanell rolled her eyes.
Wanita: have u decided to call Safaree yet?
Shanell: the fuck is it with you?! Can you just not mention... him... Please. You been here five minutes and you're at it already
Wanita: ok ok. I won't ask you about it or mention him anymore. For today.
Shanell hissed her teeth
Wanita: but here
She handed her sister a piece of paper
Shanell: what's this?
Wanita: new number
Shanell: you just said you wouldn't mention him and how'd you even get this?
Wanita: all I did was give you the paper and don't worry about how I got it. I got it.
Shanell shook her head


****
Candi sat going through the box Nicki had got while Nicki was upstairs with Jhene
Candi: Ooop Jhené got some competition
She said holding up a very revealing knitted bikini of Jamaican flag colors and laying them next to black handmade slippers that were just Nicki's size. After going through the box she took the bottled spices to the kitchen and replaced the other items in the box. She sat in the living room box in her lap waiting for Nicki to come downstairs.

As she sat with her phone at her ear smiling away at whatever the person on the line was telling her she heard giggles then Nicki and Jhené's voice getting closer as they made their way down the stairs.
Nicki: And who's got your ass in here smiling like an idiot?
Nicki asked laughing. Candi put up her middle finger and cut her eye. Nicki returned giving Candi both her middle fingers as she sat on Jhené's lap.
Candi: what the chairs not big enough for your ass?
Nicki: bitch I aint sitting on you. Do you hear my baby complaining? No! If she aint complain when Im on her face she aint gon complain when Im  on her lap. Now shut up.
Nicki said laughing. Jhené shook her head
Candi: Ummmm... ok... then. So-
Jhené's phone began to ring and Nicki got up as she answered leaving the room to talk.
Nicki: you were saying? And why are you hugging on that box like yall together?
Candi: I thought you didn't know Kela?
Nicki: I don't!
Candi: Nic we best friends if your cheating you can tell me.
Nicki: What the fuck are you talking about? Do I look like I have a reason to cheat?
Candi: I don't know its just.. why is some other woman sending you sexy shit?
Nicki looked at her confused. Candi open the box and pulled out the bikini and held it up. Nicki's eyes got wide. Right then Jhené walked in
Jhené: Nice piece Candi. Its sexy. I like.
Candi: It's not mine. It's Nic's
Jhené: oh who from?
She asked as she stood going through her handbag
Nicki eyed Candi
Nicki: Are you heading out?
Jhené: yeah have to go meet with my dad. So who's the *looks at Candi* box from?
Nicki: I dont know there's know return address but this one insisted on opening it
She said eyeing Candi
Jhené: Is there a name?
Candi: yeah Kela Harrison
Jhené: Oh?
She said looking at Nicki. Nicki rolled her eyes
Jhené: Stamp?
She asked looking back at Candi
Candi: uh.. Florida
Jhené looked back at Nicki
Nicki: Are you gonna be gone for long?
She asked getting up as Jhené walked to the door. She turned around to face her
Jhené: Im not sure but I'll call you if Im going to be.
Nicki: Ok I love you
she said before kissing her
Jhené: Love you too.
She said then kissed her again and went out the door. Nicki hit Candi on the head as she walked past her and head to the kitchen
Candi: 5... 4... 3....
Nicki: CANDI!!
Candi: took you long enough
She said as she head to the kitchen
Nicki: What's all this
She asked before Candi could walk in properly
Candi: ask Kela
Nicki: dont even fucking start...

******

Jhené: hey did you get that info for me?
She asked the female on the other end of the phone call as she sat in the car outside the restaurant she was meeting with her dad
Female:Yes I did... Dr. Kela Harrison.
Jhené: what kind of doctor?
Female: Pediatrician. Born in Bridgetown Barbados lives in Miami Florida. Ooh and she's got a daughter Kaetarah Shahneek Williams. Cute lil thing good thing she doesnt look too much like her daddy. Im emailing info to you right now
Jhené: wait.. Williams?? And does that include a number
Female: Mmmhm same Williams from that case I did. And yes. cell, house and work. Addresses too.
Jhené: ok thank you. We'll talk later
Female: Anytime. Later darling.

*****

When Jhené got home Candi had left and Nicki was nowhere downstairs so she head upstairs to look for her. As she got to the bedroom she could hear the shower running. She put her phone on the bed removed her jacket and walked into the bathroom.
Nicki: hey baby. Im almost done. Unless you wanna join me but then we might end up not leaving the house
She said talking above the sound of the shower running.
Jhené: where are we going?
Nicki turned the water off.
Nicki: out for drinks. Just me and you.
She said as she stepped out water running down her body and put her arms around Jhené. Jhené kissed her.
Jhené: Ok but after you get something to eat.
They kissed again
Nicki: you still mad at me?
Jhené: what made you think I was mad at you
Nicki: package
Jhené: look baby I trust you ok and with the way you behave in the bedroom *smiles* I know have absolutely nothing to worry about
Nicki blushed and giggled
Jhené: but I'm not comfortable with Doctor Harrison sending you shit when yall don't even know each other.
Nicki: wait... how you know she's a doctor... baby what did you do?
Jhené: I got some info that's all.
She kissed Nicki as she let go and began undressing
Nicki: got some info?
She asked as she got a towel
Jhené: yes. So later you can call doc up and find out about that box
Nicki: you got her number?
Jhené: numbers, addresses, kids name
Nicki stood looking at her with her mouth open as she stepped into the shower
Jhené: your welcome she said as she closed the door
Nicki: you're crazy
she said and walked out to the bedroom


Nicki: so who did you get this info from?
She asked as she sipped her fourth margarita
Jhené: friend of mine in Florida
Nicki: she FBI or something cause...?
Jhené: *laughs* No. She's a lawyer
Nicki: you probably got more information than you told me
Jhené opened the email on her phone and handed it to her
Nicki: wow! Pictures of her kid J?
Nicki shook her head.
Nicki: you really are crazy
Jhené: Im concerned. So are you going to call or do I have to?
Nicki: Now?!
Jhené: why not?

Nicki shook her head and took her phone out. She dialled the cell phone number from the email and put the phone to her ear


*In Florida*
Kela, Safaree and Tarah were in his car on their way to her home from the movies when her phone began ringing and startled Tarah waking her.
Kela: Hello
she answered as Safaree pulled into the driveway.
Nicki: Hello
She heard the baby crying in the background and a male voice saying "I'll get her"
Nicki: I'm sorry is it a bad time?
Kela: No it's ok. Who is this?
Nicki: Ok. It's Nicki well Onika since you had used my government, I received a packages from you. Does that ring a bell?
She said and then she heard his voice in the back ground
Safaree: She's in her bedroom and she needs changing are you getting out?
Kela: Yes I'll be in in a minute. Nicki about the package.. *looks at Safaree*
He shook his head, ran his hand over his face and asked her for the phone
Kela: hold a sec please
Nicki: ok
She handed it to him
Safaree: are you serious right now? how'd you get her number?
Nicki: Safare I-
Safaree: The package was from me ok. I just asked her to send it for me since she got back before me. If you don't want it you can throw them out It really doesnt matter.
Nicki: I never s-
Safaree: lose the number... Good bye Nicki
He said and hung up
Kela: you really didnt have to-
Safaree: I dont want talk about it right now.
He said as she got out the car
Kela: ok
He walked her to the door
Kela: Good night we had a really good time
She said and hugged him
Safaree: Good Night
He said as she locked the door

*Nicki and Jhené*

Nicki looking at Jhené speechless
Jhené: well?
She asked
Nicki: The package was from Safaree.
Jhené: oh ok. So she's his...
Nicki: I... I dont know. I really dont wanna get into it.
She said not looking very happy
Jhené: babe, did she say something to you?
Nicki: No. No she didnt. can.. can we go?
Jhené: sure.
Jhené took care of their bill and they left for home.

As they walked through the front door Nicki's phone vibrated in her pocket. She took it out and unlocked the screen then opened the message


I'm sorry I didn't let you know it was from me. I thought you would have figured after all I did tell you where I was. But now you know so you can lose her number and like I said if you dont want them you can throw them out. I just thought you'd like them especially the spices

She responded

Im not gonna throw them out Safaree I like them and thank you. So what she's your girlfriend? 

He replied

Im happy Nic... That's all you need to know. Take care.

She sighed placed her phone back in her pocket and head up to the bedroom.

Jhené: you ok baby
She asked as she walked over to the bed. Nicki took her jacket off, her shoes, unzipped her dress and slid it down her body then got in bed beside Jhené and after placing her arms around her and burying her face in her neck she responded

Nicki: Im ok now.
*******

Chapter 31 --> Something New, Something Different

Safaree's POV

He sat on the beach looking out at the beautiful view of the Caribbean Sea. It was late evening and the sun was setting a half of it already hidden by the sea. He ignored the person who came and sat down next to him. By the perfume he could tell it was a female, probably that beautiful Bajan (Barbadian)  from the beach cottage. He chose a beach house up on the hill because he didnt really want to be around people, but this evening he felt like sitting on the beach so he walked down hoping he would just be left alone. He could feel her eyes on him and he was hoping she'd stop staring. She didn't though, instead she chose to try talking to him
"This is such a beautiful view" She said. He wanted continue ignoring her but was unable to stop the words that escaped his lips. "yeah" he replied. "My name's Kela"
SB: Lloyd
Kela: How come your sitting out here all by yourself?
She asked but he didnt answer. Wasnt my name enough for you he thought to himself
"Kela!Kela!" He heard someone call from up the beach  it was the voice of another female.
Kela: Hope to see you tomorrow Lloyd
She said as she got up.
SB: probably her girlfriend. you never know these days
He mumbled. When he looked back she was walking towards a woman standing a little way from her cottage. He was intrigued by her sun kissed skin, toned body, and bouncing crazy curls, he wanted to see her face. She was wearing a very cute knitted green dress with a very bright yellow bikini beneath it. He kept looking but she didnt look back. Minutes later he returned to his place. They had started setting up for a party that was happening on the beach that night, a party he wanted no part of.

He could hear the music, the laughter of the island people echoing through the trees as he sat in the living room of his temporary house. He had the phone in his hand with her number on the screen wondering if he should send the call or not. There was a knock on his door which startled him. He wasn't expecting anyone, he hadn't invited anyone so who could it be. He put the phone down and walked over to the door. He could see a female through the glass in the middle with her back to the door but he knew those curls on her head he had seen them earlier today. She turned as the door swung open a beautiful smile plastered on her face.
Kela: Hi
SB: hi
Kela: Missed you at the party so I thought I'd come see if you're ok
SB: I'm good thanks.
Kela: uhhhh ok.
They stood just looking at each other
Kela: oh I uh.. I brought drinks
She said and held up a six pack of miller light
Kela: have a drink with me... just one. we don't even have to talk if you don't want to and I'll leave you alone right after.
He ran his hand over his face
SB: ok... come in.

They were sitting quietly out back on their second beer each. They hadnt exchanged a word since they spoke at the door.
SB: what do you do?
He said and looked at her
SB: I mean you know for a living
Kela: I'm a doctor. A pediatrician to be exact.
SB: ok cool. Where do u stay at?
Kela: Well I'm living in Florida but from my accent I bet you can tell Im from Barbados
SB: yeah i could
Kela: so how come you're here alone?
SB: long story
Kela: things not going so well with you and her?
He took a sip of his beer.
SB: her who?
Kela: Nicki... I mean you use to be around her all the time now its that Jhené chick
He was quiet.
SB:... you know who I am?
Kela: Takes a lot to know someone. So no I don't know who you are but I know your face, a little about you, your name and that you were always around Nicki. It's said you too were dating but I'm not one for rumors.
He looked at her.
Kela: I can tell you this. Im not one of those little groupie chicks hanging around cause your famous and Im not fishing for information like the press. I just thought you could use some company so we don't even have to talk about you and Nicki anymore. We could talk about.. I dont know trees or something *smiles*
SB: *chuckles* Its cool we don't have to change the subject.
Kela: ok
SB: so what do you wanna know?
Kela: Its not about what I want its about what you want to talk about. You seen to have a few things on your mind.
SB: you sure you're not a shrink too?
She laughed
Kela: well I did minor in psych sooooo
He chuckled
SB: ... yeah Nic and I used to date but its been a good while since we've been apart. She's dating someone else. I was dating someone else.
Kela: so the rumors are true
SB: some of them. what's the latest?
Kela: That she's dating Jhené, that you and Shanell were together, that... yeah
He looked at her and her smile had gone. Did she know? Was it in the press and if so how did they even find out?
SB: That??
Kela: so are Nicki and Jhené together?
SB: *looks away* yeah they are and the other rumor was true too
Kela: what happened?
He didnt answer but she could see him getting angry. She got up, put her beer down and sat beside him rubbing his back
Kela: It helps to talk about it
He still didnt say anything and she just sat quietly with him for a while.
Kela: Ok how about we talk about so-
SB: she had an abortion!! I didnt even know she was pregnant, she didnt even give me a chance to change her mind. I mean if she wasnt ready then fine I understand but that was my baby too. I would have taken care of it.
Kela: I... I'm so sorry.
She said and pulled him in for a hug as she saw him tearing up.

*****

She came home exhausted from the studio and rehearsals for her mini tour that was coming up.. As soon as she got through the front door she was hit by candles that were lit making a path up the stairs, she smiled, placed her bag and her keys on the mini table at the entrance, took her jacket off and made her way up the stairs following the pathway. The candles lead to her room and into her bathroom where the tub was filled with warm water, candles around it lit and the petals of the Japanese Cherry Blossom tree afloat, there scent filing the room. She felt hands wrap around her waist and a kiss on her neck
Jhené: are you gonna get in or just stare at the tub the whole time
She asked with a giggle. Nicki smiled
Nicki: Babe you didnt need to do all this
Her voice was a bit hoarse.
Jhené: yes I did. You've been working very hard and you've been really worried about Safaree. I want you to relax a bit. Sooo, you're gonna get in and when you're done I'm gonna to give you a massage, then we're gonna eat and we can chill and watch a movie or something.
Nicki: a massage?
Jhené: mmhm. did a little research and learned a few things on my trip. By the way I cleared your schedule for tomorrow so no need to worry about getting up early
Nicki: you're joking right?
Jhené: Nope! Get in.
she said as she walked out closing the door behind her and not allowing Nicki to respond

Nicki: Thank you... I feel so much better. The massage was everything, you sure you just learnt that?
Jhené: mmhmm, just for you *kisses her neck* Ima take the dishes down to the kithchen ok
Nicki: mmhm
She said in a sleepy voice. When Jhené got back Nicki had already fallen asleep. She got in and pulled the covers up over them.

9:45 am Jhené was already up and down in the kitchen looking after breakfast. Nicki groaned and as her phone vibrated on the bedside table, she reached around grabbing it and with eyes still closed she answered. Her eyes bucked when his voice boomed through the speakers
Nicki: SAFAREE?!!!

Jhené was on a phone call in the kitchen, a cup of tea next to her on the counter when Nicki walked in
Jhené: Crystal, forward that email to me and I'll get back to you as soon as I check it.... Good Morning
Nicki: morning
Jhené: would you like some tea?
Nicki: sure
She walked over and got a cup from the cupboard
Jhené: was really expecting you to be in a better mood. What's on your mind?
Nicki:.... he called
Jhené: he?
Nicki: Safaree, he just called me
she said looking over at her.
Jhené:  is he ok? where is he?
Nicki: says he's ok, he didnt really sound it after we spoke for a bit. He asked me not to tell anyone where he is
Jhené: I can respect that.... well is he coming back?
Nicki: he wouldnt say. Just asked me to tell his mom and everyone else that he's ok then he said he had to go
Jhené: oh... well at least he called now we know he's ok. Maybe he  just needs some more time
she said as she sat down by Nicki
Nicki: yeah maybe
She took a sip of her tea

*****
They sat talking and laughing hard, enjoying each other's company as the rain came down
SB: So how come you're single? I mean that's very rare when you come across gorgeous women these days
Kela: I... need a break from.. the lies, the cheating, I need some me time. Some time to take care of mine. Need time to discover who I am again and then I can go from there. I wanna meet some great people, build a few great friendships then later I can  worry about dating again.
SB: what did he do?
Kela: cheated. on more than one occasions, lied about it and walked out on us
SB: us?
Kela: my daughter and I
SB: how old is she?
Kela: a year and 2 months. he left when she was just 5 weeks
SB: wow... well for the record you deserve better than a nigga that would walk out on his kid.
She smiled.
SB: she the one I saw someone holding as you walked up the other day?
Kela: yes.. that's my sugar ball *giggles*
SB: I'd like to meet her
She looked at him
SB: if that's ok with you
Kela: ummm yes sure its fine with me.

*later that eve*
The rain had stopped and he walked her back to her room.
SB: I really had a great day thanks to you.
Kela: hey it was nothing... you're a great guy. haven't been able to talk to a guy lately without him tryna get with me.
SB: pigs... but thank you.
Kela: *smiles* k lets go in see if Tarah is still awake
SB: Tarah?
Kela: Its short for Kaetarah. That's my middle name
SB: I like it. It's beautiful.
He said as they walked through the doors.

**

SB: how are you?

Kela: tired just got in like half an hour ago and Tarah is fussy.. How come you're calling from a private number?

SB: new phone... maybe she wants to go out a bit. you know how we use to walk her down by the beach. Maybe if you just take her for a drive or something

Kela: well mommy cant handle that right now

SB: that's too bad then. Wonder if she wants just me and her to go

Kela: *giggles* mmm that'd be sweet but she's too young to be going out with older men

SB: *laughs* aye we'd just be going out for a snack but anyway guess that means mommy's coming too? I really think she could use a nice drive for a couple blocks and maybe some icecream

Kela: we would love that but you're not here to take us anyway soooo...

SB: open the door

Kela: Safaree dont play

SB: open the door

Kela: we all know you're not in Miami... are you?

SB: walking back to my car

Kela: aahhh

she screamed in excitement as she ran to the door with the baby on her hip. She swung it open and halfway down the driveway he turned around 

SB: oh? after you done had a nigga standing out here

Kela: I didnt... you didnt tell me ... ugh!! *laughs* I left you in Jamaica 3 weeks ago dude

SB: yeah and I did some thinking, decided Miami may just be the place to start over so I got to work

He  said taking the baby who was stretching for him

Kela: you're moving here?

SB: I moved here abooooout day before yesterday *smiles*. What you say coonette, you think its cool uncle moved closer to you?

Kela: you'ere serious, arent you?

SB: wait.. arent we suppose to be going out 

Kela: you're freaking serious

SB: *covers Tarah's ears* dnt curse... *looks at baby* guess we're leaving mommy

He said walking towards the car, then he stopped

SB: car seat munchkin.... Is it in your car?

he asked her

Kela: I'll get it

she said with a big smile still not able to grasp the fact that he really moved to Miami.

****

Candi: Nic you have a package

Nicki: just sign for it 

she shouted from upstairs. Candi closed the door and inspected the brown box. Name but no return address just a stamp letting her know it was coming from Florida. She walked into Nicki's room box in hand and a puzzled look on her face

Candi: Kela Harrison... Who's that?

Nicki: NO clue! return address?

Candi: Nope but it's from Florida

Nicki: Florida??

Candi: yeah, that's what I thought. It's kinda heavy. Opening?

Nicki: We dont even know who its from or have an idea of what's in there

Candi shook the box

Candi: well it's not a bomb

Nicki: -___- no. Bring it back downstairs I'll have security open it when I''m ready

Candi: seriou--

Nicki: Candice please!

****

Shanell: How much longer do I need to stay in this hospital? I have work to get done 

She said through gritted teeth with her fingers tangled in her hair

Wanita: work is the reason you in here. you've been doing too much and I keep telling you to slow down.

Shanell: D dont start!

Wanita: dont start what sis? All I ever do is tell you the truth

Shanell: why does every conversation we have have to come down to this?

Wanita: because he needs to know. you could have lost the babies. All the stressing and overworking helped cause that.. Now you're back here because your cervix was opening. you're not even near due. if he was here-

Shanell: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW?!!!

Wanita: yes!!!!!!!!!!! you know things would be different. 

Shanell: yeah well he's not

Wanita: but that's all on you....

Shanell wiped at the tears on her cheek..

tbc 

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#TimeMachine3

She was fighting the tears as she drove home. Wayne had told he he wanted no part in telling Safaree about RiRi but that she needed to do it right away. He also told her that if she wanted to find where Safaree in she needed to go to Nicki and she new damn well that was not going to go down well.

When she got home RiRi was a sleep in her booster seat. She sighed and wiped at the tears that had finally made their escape and ran down her cheeks. As she got inside she used her foot to close the door., shifted Ri to her left hand and set the alarm then made her way up the stairs. She made it to her room and put Ri in the middle of the bed before getting her phone from her bag, then her purse as she searched for the card he had written Nicki's number on for her. She typed the first two number and she couldnt type anymore. Her hands began shaking, her heart racing, she dropped the phone on the bed and her face fell into her palms. She knew she had made the biggest and stupidest mistake of her life by leaving him and telling him she had an abortion. Now she had to tell him he has a five year old daughter. She took a deep breath and turned onto her back. She took the phone up and dialed the number putting the phone to her ear as it rang, There was an answer at the third ring
Nicki: hello... hello
she sounded like she had just woken up from a nap,
Nicki: *sucks teeth* look I aint got the time for games
she said before hanging up. The words wouldnt come out when Shanell tried to respond and she couldnt find the courage to call back.

It was a rainy morning and she stood by the stove making pancakes as Ri sat sipping warm milk at the table. Her phone rang and Ri was quick to answer
RiRi: hello, good morning
she said with a big smile as if the person on the other end could see her
Nicki: hello... who is this?
RiRi: who is this ??
RiRi asked with a giggle. Shanell flipped the pancakes as she looked at Ri suspiciously. Her aunt or grandma usually did that when they called and she answered so she thought it was one of them
Nicki: Im Nicki.. What's your name?
RiRi: Aaria Shae-Elle Samuels
The fact that she just told someone her full name meant that wasnt her grandma or aunt so Shanell quickly turned the stove off and rushed around the counter
Shanell: RiRi who is that? *grabs phone*
RiRi: Nicki
She responded getting ready to cry because of the way her mom had spoken to her and grabbed the phone from her hands.
Shanell: *sigh* mommy's sorry pumpkin.. its just you know I dont like you telling strangers your full name.
She hugged her all this time not realizing she hadnt ended the call. Nicki was on the other end listening. She heard the voice and there was something familiar about it so she hung up and went to check the number out.

1:30 pm exactly when she received the text message from Nicki
"I would strongly suggest you answer the phone when you see me calling you back"
she ran her hand  through her hair. She was sitting watching ri play in the tub. She had asked for some extra time to play with her bath toys.
Shanell: 10 more minutes Aaria
she shook her head and the phone began to ring
Shanell: hello
Nicki: that lil girl had better be your niece and if she's not it BETTER be a damn coincidence that her last name is Samuels. How old is she?? START TALKING!
Shanell: she's... not my niece and she's 5 years old....

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She looked back at her baby girl pouting in the back seat pouting. "what's wrong RiRi?" she didnt respond she kept glancing at her in the rear view mirror until they got to the house. When they got inside Aaria went straight for the stairs and went up to her room. She couldnt understand. She was fine this morning before she went to daycare. Her mom would sent her to day care on days she had to go to the studio. She put her bags down and went up to check on her. She was sitting by her window hugging her favorite doll. She walked over and sat by her in her little chair. "Aaria what's wrong?" She didnt answer? "baby you have to tell mommy so she can fix it" "mommy do you love me?" "of course mommy loves you. you mean the world to me" "does my daddy love me too?" She was shocked. Where was this coming from all of a sudden. "of course he does baby he loves you to death" "where is my daddy? how come he doesnt live with us?" She didnt even know what to say for the first time her daughter had asked her questions and left her speechless. How could she tell her little girl that her father doesnt know she exists. " baby you never asked about daddy before did something happen?" "Asia says my daddy dont live with us cause I'm ugly and he doesnt love me"  She began to sniff as a tear ran down her little cheek " *sigh* baby you know that's not true. You are beautiful inside and out. I tell you that everyday and your dad not living with us doesnt mean that he doesnt love you" it just means mommy was fucking stupid and fucked it all up when she found out she was pregnant she thought "can I go see my daddy?" fuck why the fuck now I swear I could strangle that little bitch at that daycare "tell you what. I'll call and speak with him ok" "ok" she said as she wiped at her face. Her mom picked her up and stood holding her as she looked out the window.

She was at the studio waiting on Wayne to come by to see her Aaria was with her sitting inside playing a Dora game on her ipad. She had told him she wanted to speak to him about something but not what. She told RiRi she would be back in a few and went out front to get some fresh air. As soon as she walked out the door there was Wayne's car driving in. Her palms were sweating. He walked over and hugged her "why do you like so scared?" She looked away "I have to tell you something and I'm not sure... how you're gonna react" "It's that serious?" "More serious than you think" "how about we go inside then?"

"umm no Can we just talk out here please" "ok" she took a deep breath and closed her eyes "Ima just come out and say it" "ok when-" "I have a daughter she's inside, the time I told you i needed away was because i was pregnant I know I should have told you but I couldnt I didnt want her father finding out" he stood there in shock "what?" "Wayne just... come on" she lead him inside and to where RiRi was sat. Wayne looked at Aaria, back at her mom then at RiRi again "are you fucking kidding me right now?" "mommy he said a curse word" Aaria said staring Wayne in the face with a pout. "wait... that's really your kid?" "Im sorry i didnt tell you" "nah man.. how you do me like that? she's like 5" "Im four nd a half" Aaria blurted out then went back to her game. "man i cant even believe this man. who else knows" "my mom, my sister, owner of her daycare" Wayne shook his head "so why now? why'd have you just decided to tell me?" "she's asked about her dad I dont know what to do" "what does that have to do with me?" he asked pointing at himself with both hands. "I  have no contact with him I need your help" "how would I have contact with her father?" she dead faced him "wait... you said you took a break because you were pregnant and..." his eyes got wide and he looked at Aaria again and shook his head "I told him I had a you know what when he found out" she said not wanting o say abortion infront of her daughter. She knew the questions wouldnt end when they got home. Wayne took a seat and pulled answered his phone that was ringing. It was his daughter asking if the driver could take her to get something to eat he told her to come get the money then hung up. "was that Reginae?" "yeah she going to get food" "who's going with her?" " bodyguard and the driver why?" "I'd send RiRi" just then Nae walked in with a big smile "Hi aunty" she said hugging Shanell "hey baby" "awe who's baby?" she asked looking at Aaria who sat pouting cause she was hugging her mom "what are you going to get to eat?" her dad asked changing the subject "wings, some cheesy fries and orange juice. so who's baby" "do you wanna take her with you you can just get her something to eat too" Shanell asked "sure. if she'll come" "RiRi do you wanna go get something to eat?" she shook her head yes. "are you gonna come too?" Ri asked "No im gonna stay with uncle Wayne and talk" she poked her dimple as she seemed to be thinking about it "I have to go with her?" she asked pointing at Reginae "yes baby. its ok if you dont want to though" "no its otay" When they were out the door Wayne went right back to their convo "see this the problem with ya'll I never know about shit till it needs fixing. How do you propose you tell Safaree about this lil girl after you done told him you had an abortion?" she didnt know what to say./

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Chapter 30 --> Get Away

As she opened the front door Lauren stepped past her.
Lauren: what the fuck Nicki?
Nicki: as you can see my door is still open so if you're coming in here with that bullshit about why I shouldn't have told Safaree you can leave. I've heard enough of it.
Lauren: Nicki come on
Nicki: Laur he deserved to know
Lauren: and I'm not arguing with you on that. I wanted to tell him myself but I didnt cause it wasnt my place it wasnt for me to do.
Nicki slammed th front door and head for the stairs
Lauren: I got a call today from his sister. Shanell had the abortion.
She stopped in her place on the stairs. She truly felt hurt for him. She knew that's something that will rip him apart and she just stood there for a while before she took another step. Lauren called to her and she stopped again
Nicki: what Laur?
Lauren: Go see him. Talk to him. he needs... a friend.
Nicki: so why don't you go see him
Lauren: you know he's not gonna want to see me.
Nicki: Ha! and you think he's gonna want to see me?!
Lauren: will you at least try
She asked looking up at her best-friend.
Nicki: lock the door on your way out
She responded and turned continuing up the stairs. Lauren sighed as she turned to leave.

When Jhené got home Nicki in the living room writing. She had her headphones over her ear listening to a beat as she wrote in her notebook. She closed the door, put her bag by the stairs and walked over to her. She gave her a kiss on the forehead
Jhené: hey baby
She said then head for the kitchen. Nicki had totally ignored her but she knew that's how she was when she was writing. It wasnt until after she had ate showered and was laying in bed that she actual felt like something was wrong she walked down to the living room to where she was sitting before but she was no longer there. She walked around looking for her but didnt find her anywhere. She was in the kitchen and notice the glass doors that lead out to the back were open. She walked out and noticed her sitting on one of the lounge chairs out by the pool. She walked out to her with her arms crossed. Nicki had her eyes closed
Jhené: are you ok?
Nicki: yeah I'm good
Jhené: you gonna come inside
Nicki: yea in a bit
Jhené rolled her eyes and went back inside. She knew her behavior had to do with this whole Safaree Shanell issue.

Nicki came to bed about an hour after Jhené had spoken to her downstairs. She walked in layed down and turned  her back to Jhené.
Jhené: You know Im getting tired of you moping around about him
Nicki: what??
She said turning around
Nicki: Im not moping over Safaree!
Jhené: then what the fuck do you call it?!
She yelled. She looked away and took a deep breath
Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!
She said hitting the bed as her tears ran down her cheek. After crying for what seemed like over an hour she pulled her self together. She got up went to the bathroom and washed her face. She pat her face dry and stood looking at her self in the mirror. She took a deep breath  then walked out the bathroom to go find Jhené.
When she got to the guest bedroom the overhead light was off and she had candles lit around the room. Vanilla scented candles. Jhené was on her back at the foot of the bed blowing smoke from her mouth, a lit cigar in her hand hanging off the bed above an ash tray that was placed on the floor. Nicki walked over and took the cigar from between her fingers then crushed it in the ash tray. She straddled her hips and pinned her hands above her head Jhené turned her head to the side.
Nicki: you don't smoke... look at me
she said with a hoarse voice. Jhené sighed then turned to look up at her
Nicki: I'm over him. I see him as a friend nothing more ok
She didnt respond
Nicki: ok?
Jhené: ok
Nicki: It's just... *sigh* with everything that happened with my mom I just... Im tired. I want everything to be ok.
She said tearing up again
Nicki: Yeah I havnt been ok with Safaree being with Shanell but only because he's my best friend and I do care about him. I dont think she's th right girl for him.
Jhené: but baby that's not your decision to make. He has to be able to choose who he wants to be with.
Nicki: I know that.... The fact that she found out she was pregnant and aborted his baby just makes it all worst. I just, I know he's hurting.
Jhené: and Im not saying you can't care or feel for him in that aspect but not to the point where I feel like Im just going through my day with you here but not really here.
Nicki: I really am sorry baby. Promise I'll change my attitude.
She said as she bent and kissed her.
Nicki: I love you
She said in a soft voice
Jhené: I love you too you know that
Nicki: but...
Jhené: but nothing.
Nicki: you still dont think I'm being completely honest about my feelings...
Jhené just looked at her
Nicki: baby I dont play games when it comes to my feeling. Yes I love Safaree, he's  my best friend always will be. I told you that before, but that's it. Who's arms do I go to bed in at nights? Who's arms do I wake up in in the mornings? Who is it that I can't sleep without? I only want you. Just you.
Jhené ran her finger across Nicki's lips and she kissed them. She then pulled her in for a kiss. They stayed cuddled with each other for the whole night. Jhené didn't close her eyes one bit. She stayed watching Nicki sleep as she stroked her hair.

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Neeqa: Safaree
Shaneeqa called outside his bedroom door but he didnt answer. it had been a week and he hadnt come out, not even to eat and if he did eat it was when she wasnt around.
Neeqa: Safaree!! *sigh* you can't stay in there forever
She said again before walking off. She had to get to work . Later when she got home his door was open but he wasnt home. She tried his phone but got his voice mail. She tried Lauren, Candi all the Vaks but no one had seen him. She tried their mom but she hadnt seen him either. She tried Nicki but she didnt answer her phone so she left a message. Later she got a text back to let her know she hadnt seen him. She went through stuff in his room for a clue as to where he could have gone but there was nothing. His car keys were on the bedside table but his clothes, shoes and jewellery were gone. She tried his phone one more time but it still went straight to voice mail. He had left without telling her a word.

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Candi: hey girlie I missed you.
She said as she hugged Nicki. They meeting up to have lunch then head back to Nicki's place.
Nicki: I missed you more
Candi: so where'd you say wifey had to go?
Nicki: Italy with her dad for some business *sad face*
Candi: awwwee for how long
Nicki: a whole fucking week. Ima go crazy! Anyway enough about me. What's been going on with you? How'd you sort out th whole Tay and JB issue? Where is she by the way?
Candi: sorting out school stuff. JB and I are just fine. He... asked me to choose. It was either him or Tay, which just wasnt fair but I didnt wanna lose him so...
Nicki: So you and Tay broke up?
Candi: as far as he knows we are but-
Nicki: plainly put you never broke iit off with her and you're still fucking her behind his back
Candi: *covers face* i know its wrong I just can't stop. Im fucking addicted to her
Nicki: oh My g *laughs* What if he finds out?
Candi: He wont. Just make sure you dont say nothing. Now have you heard from Safaree?
Nicki: How you just gon change th subject? *shakes head* No I haven't. Have you?
Candi: no. I tried calling him, his phone doesnt work anymore. He changed the number or something.
Nicki: oh?... and no one's seen him still? Not even the Vaks?
Candi: not even his mother. Yo Shanell was so wrong for what she did though, on so many levels.
Nicki: I dont even wanna talk about her righth now to be quite fucking honest.
She took a sip of her pineapple juice and ate the last bit from her plate.
Candi: I just hope he doesnt go do anything stupid we all know his brain doesnt function the right way when he's upset.

When they got back to the house it was after four she went to change into something more comfy, grabbed her mac book and plopped down on the couch, Candi had gone to shower. She was just about to log in to twitter when she got a skype call from Jhené she was all smiles.
Nicki: arent youo suppose to be sleeping right now?
Jhené: oh so u dont wanna talk to me
Nicki: *giggles* of course I do baby
Jhené: how was ur day?
Nicki: * licks lips* was good.*licks lips again*
Jhené: *smiles* You miss me
Nicki: like you cant fucking imagine
She said biting her bottom lip
Jhené: I miss you too. Couldnt concentrate in my meeting today cause all i could think about was you.
Nicki: awe *smiles*
Jhené: It's so beautiful out here. I need to come back. Just me and you though
Nicki: Yaay I'd love that.
Jhené: *giggles* you home alone?
Nicki: Candi is here. she's upstairs though
Jhené: ok I want u to go up to ur room, lock the door and call me back.
Nicki: *laughs* ok freak

Candi was in the kitchen making a snack when Nicki walked in smiling
Candi: Oh yall naaaaaaaaaasty
Nicki burst into her little obnoxious laugh
Nicki: say that one mo time see if i dont put you out. why would you even be at my door listening?
Candi: Im nosy
She said and laughed as she bit into her sandwich
Candi: k what we gon do for the night?
she said while chewing
Nicki: watch scary movies
Candi: ha! you not bout to sleep beside me tonight! talkin bout watch scary movies
Nicki: this my house I sleep where I wanna!
She responded popping her on the forehead before running out the kitchen.

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He stood looking out at his view.

He had no choice he needed to get away. he needed space, needed to think. What had he done to her for her to do something so cruel and unjust to him. He had done nothing but love her for the short period they were together. How could she abort his baby? He sat as his eyes began to get blurry with tears again and he closed them letting them run down his cheeks. She had killed something in him and as he sat thinking about what she had done he began to break down again.