Saturday, 23 March 2013

Chapter 30 --> Get Away

As she opened the front door Lauren stepped past her.
Lauren: what the fuck Nicki?
Nicki: as you can see my door is still open so if you're coming in here with that bullshit about why I shouldn't have told Safaree you can leave. I've heard enough of it.
Lauren: Nicki come on
Nicki: Laur he deserved to know
Lauren: and I'm not arguing with you on that. I wanted to tell him myself but I didnt cause it wasnt my place it wasnt for me to do.
Nicki slammed th front door and head for the stairs
Lauren: I got a call today from his sister. Shanell had the abortion.
She stopped in her place on the stairs. She truly felt hurt for him. She knew that's something that will rip him apart and she just stood there for a while before she took another step. Lauren called to her and she stopped again
Nicki: what Laur?
Lauren: Go see him. Talk to him. he needs... a friend.
Nicki: so why don't you go see him
Lauren: you know he's not gonna want to see me.
Nicki: Ha! and you think he's gonna want to see me?!
Lauren: will you at least try
She asked looking up at her best-friend.
Nicki: lock the door on your way out
She responded and turned continuing up the stairs. Lauren sighed as she turned to leave.

When Jhené got home Nicki in the living room writing. She had her headphones over her ear listening to a beat as she wrote in her notebook. She closed the door, put her bag by the stairs and walked over to her. She gave her a kiss on the forehead
Jhené: hey baby
She said then head for the kitchen. Nicki had totally ignored her but she knew that's how she was when she was writing. It wasnt until after she had ate showered and was laying in bed that she actual felt like something was wrong she walked down to the living room to where she was sitting before but she was no longer there. She walked around looking for her but didnt find her anywhere. She was in the kitchen and notice the glass doors that lead out to the back were open. She walked out and noticed her sitting on one of the lounge chairs out by the pool. She walked out to her with her arms crossed. Nicki had her eyes closed
Jhené: are you ok?
Nicki: yeah I'm good
Jhené: you gonna come inside
Nicki: yea in a bit
Jhené rolled her eyes and went back inside. She knew her behavior had to do with this whole Safaree Shanell issue.

Nicki came to bed about an hour after Jhené had spoken to her downstairs. She walked in layed down and turned  her back to Jhené.
Jhené: You know Im getting tired of you moping around about him
Nicki: what??
She said turning around
Nicki: Im not moping over Safaree!
Jhené: then what the fuck do you call it?!
She yelled. She looked away and took a deep breath
Jhené: ever since you heard he was dating Shanell your whole attitude changed. You find out she's pregnant and things take a turn for the worst. If you're so over him Nicki, why does every fucking thing he does affect you like this? You don't even seem to realize that it's affecting our relationship. It's like you still see him as yours.
Nicki closed her eyes and rested her forearm, over her face
Jhené: you do, dont you??
Nicki: Babe I-
Jhené: I'll be in the guest room
She said cutting Nicki off, getting up and storming out.
Nicki: FUCK!!
She said hitting the bed as her tears ran down her cheek. After crying for what seemed like over an hour she pulled her self together. She got up went to the bathroom and washed her face. She pat her face dry and stood looking at her self in the mirror. She took a deep breath  then walked out the bathroom to go find Jhené.
When she got to the guest bedroom the overhead light was off and she had candles lit around the room. Vanilla scented candles. Jhené was on her back at the foot of the bed blowing smoke from her mouth, a lit cigar in her hand hanging off the bed above an ash tray that was placed on the floor. Nicki walked over and took the cigar from between her fingers then crushed it in the ash tray. She straddled her hips and pinned her hands above her head Jhené turned her head to the side.
Nicki: you don't smoke... look at me
she said with a hoarse voice. Jhené sighed then turned to look up at her
Nicki: I'm over him. I see him as a friend nothing more ok
She didnt respond
Nicki: ok?
Jhené: ok
Nicki: It's just... *sigh* with everything that happened with my mom I just... Im tired. I want everything to be ok.
She said tearing up again
Nicki: Yeah I havnt been ok with Safaree being with Shanell but only because he's my best friend and I do care about him. I dont think she's th right girl for him.
Jhené: but baby that's not your decision to make. He has to be able to choose who he wants to be with.
Nicki: I know that.... The fact that she found out she was pregnant and aborted his baby just makes it all worst. I just, I know he's hurting.
Jhené: and Im not saying you can't care or feel for him in that aspect but not to the point where I feel like Im just going through my day with you here but not really here.
Nicki: I really am sorry baby. Promise I'll change my attitude.
She said as she bent and kissed her.
Nicki: I love you
She said in a soft voice
Jhené: I love you too you know that
Nicki: but...
Jhené: but nothing.
Nicki: you still dont think I'm being completely honest about my feelings...
Jhené just looked at her
Nicki: baby I dont play games when it comes to my feeling. Yes I love Safaree, he's  my best friend always will be. I told you that before, but that's it. Who's arms do I go to bed in at nights? Who's arms do I wake up in in the mornings? Who is it that I can't sleep without? I only want you. Just you.
Jhené ran her finger across Nicki's lips and she kissed them. She then pulled her in for a kiss. They stayed cuddled with each other for the whole night. Jhené didn't close her eyes one bit. She stayed watching Nicki sleep as she stroked her hair.

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Neeqa: Safaree
Shaneeqa called outside his bedroom door but he didnt answer. it had been a week and he hadnt come out, not even to eat and if he did eat it was when she wasnt around.
Neeqa: Safaree!! *sigh* you can't stay in there forever
She said again before walking off. She had to get to work . Later when she got home his door was open but he wasnt home. She tried his phone but got his voice mail. She tried Lauren, Candi all the Vaks but no one had seen him. She tried their mom but she hadnt seen him either. She tried Nicki but she didnt answer her phone so she left a message. Later she got a text back to let her know she hadnt seen him. She went through stuff in his room for a clue as to where he could have gone but there was nothing. His car keys were on the bedside table but his clothes, shoes and jewellery were gone. She tried his phone one more time but it still went straight to voice mail. He had left without telling her a word.

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Candi: hey girlie I missed you.
She said as she hugged Nicki. They meeting up to have lunch then head back to Nicki's place.
Nicki: I missed you more
Candi: so where'd you say wifey had to go?
Nicki: Italy with her dad for some business *sad face*
Candi: awwwee for how long
Nicki: a whole fucking week. Ima go crazy! Anyway enough about me. What's been going on with you? How'd you sort out th whole Tay and JB issue? Where is she by the way?
Candi: sorting out school stuff. JB and I are just fine. He... asked me to choose. It was either him or Tay, which just wasnt fair but I didnt wanna lose him so...
Nicki: So you and Tay broke up?
Candi: as far as he knows we are but-
Nicki: plainly put you never broke iit off with her and you're still fucking her behind his back
Candi: *covers face* i know its wrong I just can't stop. Im fucking addicted to her
Nicki: oh My g *laughs* What if he finds out?
Candi: He wont. Just make sure you dont say nothing. Now have you heard from Safaree?
Nicki: How you just gon change th subject? *shakes head* No I haven't. Have you?
Candi: no. I tried calling him, his phone doesnt work anymore. He changed the number or something.
Nicki: oh?... and no one's seen him still? Not even the Vaks?
Candi: not even his mother. Yo Shanell was so wrong for what she did though, on so many levels.
Nicki: I dont even wanna talk about her righth now to be quite fucking honest.
She took a sip of her pineapple juice and ate the last bit from her plate.
Candi: I just hope he doesnt go do anything stupid we all know his brain doesnt function the right way when he's upset.

When they got back to the house it was after four she went to change into something more comfy, grabbed her mac book and plopped down on the couch, Candi had gone to shower. She was just about to log in to twitter when she got a skype call from Jhené she was all smiles.
Nicki: arent youo suppose to be sleeping right now?
Jhené: oh so u dont wanna talk to me
Nicki: *giggles* of course I do baby
Jhené: how was ur day?
Nicki: * licks lips* was good.*licks lips again*
Jhené: *smiles* You miss me
Nicki: like you cant fucking imagine
She said biting her bottom lip
Jhené: I miss you too. Couldnt concentrate in my meeting today cause all i could think about was you.
Nicki: awe *smiles*
Jhené: It's so beautiful out here. I need to come back. Just me and you though
Nicki: Yaay I'd love that.
Jhené: *giggles* you home alone?
Nicki: Candi is here. she's upstairs though
Jhené: ok I want u to go up to ur room, lock the door and call me back.
Nicki: *laughs* ok freak

Candi was in the kitchen making a snack when Nicki walked in smiling
Candi: Oh yall naaaaaaaaaasty
Nicki burst into her little obnoxious laugh
Nicki: say that one mo time see if i dont put you out. why would you even be at my door listening?
Candi: Im nosy
She said and laughed as she bit into her sandwich
Candi: k what we gon do for the night?
she said while chewing
Nicki: watch scary movies
Candi: ha! you not bout to sleep beside me tonight! talkin bout watch scary movies
Nicki: this my house I sleep where I wanna!
She responded popping her on the forehead before running out the kitchen.

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He stood looking out at his view.
He had no choice he needed to get away. he needed space, needed to think. What had he done to her for her to do something so cruel and unjust to him. He had done nothing but love her for the short period they were together. How could she abort his baby? He sat as his eyes began to get blurry with tears again and he closed them letting them run down his cheeks. She had killed something in him and as he sat thinking about what she had done he began to break down again.


10 comments:

  1. I feel so bad for Safaree. Shanell shouldve nevef aborted that baby. She really shouldve told him about the baby when she first found out that was pregnant.

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  2. Shanell should of let SB know from the start. Ifeel for him. so badly. I hope everything gets better!

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  3. This story got me all in my feelings and shit. Get me angry then sad sometimes even make me cry. This is the most unique and creative story I ever read.

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  4. Where is he tho??? Like I feel so bad for him. She could have just talked to him, let him know how she felt before she got that damn abortion. That was his child too. Pissing me off bruh, like he haven't been thru enough already....lawd.

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  5. jus wen i think iam goin to like this story againn you posts stuff like this that says she doesnt want safare anymore

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  6. I feel bad for Faree :'( It's almost like he has nobody now.

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  7. All I can say is... I hope Nic finds Safaree and talks to him. He needs a friend. A BEST friend.

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    1. Even tho it would be great if they became lovers again but ok. Wishful thinking I know. Lol ok. Bye. :x

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  8. I feel bad for Safaree. Shanell was so wrong for that. I hope he'll be alright. :( And I still don't believe Nic is over Safaree. I feel like she's hiding her feelings from Jhene. Bring Onikafaree bock! Lol

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